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Inspirational LGBTQ+ Creative Nonfiction

It had been about two or three months. But I still was in the closet. Not literally, but it was hard non the less. I was bisexual and asexual. I knew that I was only fourteen and that most kids my age didn't want sex, but I was a bit different. Both my birth parents took drugs and we're alcoholics. Skip a few years later, they meet, have a one-night stand and here I am. Adopted. I'm terrified of anything involving a bed if its not sleeping. I just can't do it. I tried telling my parents I was ace back when I was straight and they said "Thats a plant thing." Yeah not the best response. I tried explaining it but it was useless.

So as you can see, I wasn't too happy about coming out as bisexual. My parents not only didn't support it, but looked down on it. And a few of my friends didn't support me either. It was hard enough trying to explain depression to them, they just wouldn't understand me. Not that they did anyways, but you get the point.

And then there I am, having a stupidly amazing idea at one in the morning when I should be sleeping. So many people look down on LGBTQ+ stuff. So why not try to convince them? My plan was simple enough. Write a book, and publish it on Wattpad. Until my brain started to take over and imagined me standing in front of millions of people like Martian Luther King Jr, giving the Gay People speech.

I had always had a 'power with words' as my dad called it. Whenever I wanted something I'd make a whole list of reasons why I should have it. Or write a few paragraphs explaining all the benefits and such. As Ariana Grande says, "I want it, I got it."

I had always supported LGBTQ+ stuff. A few of my friends where bi or lesbian, I absolutely loved gay ships, and I saw no problem with it. Of course, my parents looked down on it, and I was constantly praying that they wouldn't sit me down and hit me with the wrecking ball 'We need to have a talk' talk.

Those words already haunted my sleepless nights. No need to make it worse. I clicked on Wattpad, made a new story and named it 'LGBTQ And You.' Stupid I know, but I was only fourteen back then. I was no Jk Rowling. I let my mind wander to all the ships that I loved. At my number one, Klance. Keith and Lance from Voltron we're just too perfect for each other. It never happened, but your girl can dream. I talked about Klance so much, that I had gotten a few friends into the show, and we fangirled quiet a bit over it.

Ideas and words soon flooded my senses, and I thought of all the amazing things I could say. I thought of so many phrases, so many reasons, so many ways to move even the most stubborn of people that I completely lost myself in my writing. I loved writing so much. You could make your own worlds, your own laws, your own realities and nobody could stop you. I just hoped this book convinced a few people.

~A Years Later~

It convinced a lot more than a few people. In fact, a few MILLION. So many people had read my story, heard my cry, and accepted me and others around them! So many people that now I was behind stage, clutching my speech paper until my knuckles turned white, praying I didn't have a panic attack and trying to not look at the blinking neon green 'Exit' sign that loomed over me.

'I can do this. Theres no reason to be scared. C'mon don't let fear get you down!' I though to myself. I took a deep breath, peeked out of the curtains, inhaled sharply and turned back around.

"Sweet Xadia I cannot do this." I said out loud. Thoughts swirled around my head so fast I couldn't focus on one at a time! What if people boo-ed me off stage? Or what if I sneezed right as somebody was taking my picture and they put it in the newspaper! What if, what if-

I was suddenly interrupted from my cursed thoughts by a small little body slamming into me, my friend hugging me so tight I could hardly breathe.

"Ohmygosh you're going to do great!" My friend, Lily, cried.

"Yeah if I don't pee my pants or run away first." I countered, laughing as I extracted her from my body. "Or if I can get my feet to move."

Lily frowned, putting her hands on her hips. Oh joy. Here came the speech that would make me get my behind out there in front of all those people only to regret it later.

"Leah you have got this!" She cried. "Your such an amazing writer that people have come from all over the world to see you speak! Heck, I nearly had to break a few bones to get back here. Just walk out there and do what you do." She smiled. "I believe in you! Now summon all your courage, and get your butt out there!"

I laughed, a smile appearing on my face, and my nerves calmed down a bit. "Okay." I said, and turned back to the curtain. "I got this." I stepped out from behind the curtain, and got hit in the face with the sun. I squinted and made my way to the podium. The whole crowd erupted.

I had never been good with public speaking. Heck I took a speech and debate class in Middle School, thats how bad I was. I remember once going to church, having to give a talk. The whole time I was in the car as my mom drove me I was squeezing the seat belt so hard like I'd die if I let go. I stared out the window watching the scenery go by in a blur, my throat dry, tears threatening to escape.

So as soon as I got to the microphone, my courage left me faster than you could say 'Wait.' Bile rose in my throat but I pushed the urge away, and took a deep breath.

"The way I see it-" I had only started talking but the mic whined, giving feedback and I cringed. I pulled away from the microphone a bit and started again. "The way I see it, the world has bigger problems than guys who kiss guys and girls who kiss girls." My voice cracked a little bit, and my insides churned but I somehow kept going.

"Accepting people's sexuality is like accepting somebody's race. I can't help it if I like girls and guys." I said. "People who like their same sex aren't confused. Thats just what they like. If I prefer Vanilla ice cream over chocolate ice cream that doesn't make me a bad person."

I saw a few people nod their heads, and I stood a bit taller. "So if I prefer girls over guys, I'm not evil. I'm not saying you have to support us fully, but please don't hate or talk badly about us. We're humans. Not monsters." My stomach still felt off but I somehow made it to the end of my speech without throwing up.

Everybody cheered and clapped as I exited. I heard a few boo's but that was to be expected. Everybody was going to face criticism in their life, you just had to know how to deal with it. I made it backstage before the queasy feeling left me. More or less.

Lily attacked me again, jumping on my back. "You did it! You did it!!" She shrieked. My poor ears. One day I was going to go deaf.

"Yes I'm aware." I said, my sarcasm striking again. But Lily didn't mind. She just kept on rambling. I smiled and hugged her back, as other people made their way to congratulate me.

I didn't know what the future would hold. I didn't know how many people we're going to hate me. But I was willing to find out. As long as everybody had a voice.

February 08, 2021 17:24

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00:30 Apr 17, 2021

I’m not asexual but I’m bi- and this story was so powerful. It seriously had a voice of its own, to empower others. Amazing job! (Also, what do u like being called? Echo?) It sucks that someone copied your story, because this is really good. :)

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Aw thanks! πŸ’“πŸ’™πŸ’œ (I just use Echo, thanks! What name do you go by?) Haha thanks again, they haven't taken it down but I don't mind

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01:50 Apr 17, 2021

Okie cool, Echo it is. Honestly, Jasey is fine, but some people call me J :D

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ily you stories sm there so empowering<3

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Eddie Thawne
13:04 Feb 17, 2021

I love this story. I was invested in it right from the beginning to the end. And also I loved the part where you mentioned Ariana Grande. Good Job Well done!

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Thank you so much!! It really means a lot to me

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Eddie Thawne
21:30 Feb 17, 2021

You're welcome.

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Echo Sundar
19:08 May 21, 2021

Wow. Great story! I think this was a very good plot and you executed it very nicely!

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20:31 Mar 10, 2021

When you said "~A Years Later~", did you mean a few years later or one year later? Other than that, I loved the way you put out this story. At the age that I am, between 14 and 16, I'm still in the closet and I know my parents won't accept me. And I don't want to feel forced into telling them if I don't feel that it's right, and the time is not right right now. You portrayed so much emotion and experience that I connected with the story immediately. So amazing!!!

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Haha yes, I did mean "A Year Later" However, somebody copied my story and posted it as their own. Until they take it down, I'm not going to edit it to prove that this story is mine. But after this mess gets cleared up, I will fix it. As for your parents, just know that there are always going to people who criticize you, but there will also always be people, like me, who accept you. I hope, even if your parents don't accept you, they won't be rude or mean about it. And thank you, your so kind

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14:25 Mar 11, 2021

Oh wow!!!! Seriously?!! I mean, it's a public website and anyone can use your stories but at the same time that isn't right, nor is it fair. I'm so sorry that happened :(( And thank you so much. I really hope when the time is right they can accept me for who I am. I just hope it won't be too late or I don't mess it up.

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It's alright, a few of my friends found out and also messaged the person so it'll be okay It's hard telling your parents something, especially if you know they won't like it. What I did was casually bring up LGBTQ+ stuff and see their reactions. Most of them were negative but I think they saw it coming so it was less of a shock. For being too late, your at an age where you only have a few years left with them, as you'll be legal soon and can move out, and I wish you all the luck in the world from every four-leaf clover and horseshoe there i...

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16:04 Mar 11, 2021

Yeah my parents keep referring to the fact that they suspect it. My stepdad said in a playing way but I don't think he was playing said that he would disown me if he found out. So kinda freaked out because I would have nowhere to go.... but it's ok!! You're right I only have two more years until I graduate HS sooooo.... it'll be alright, right?

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It will be. I believe in you, you've got this! I've lost friends being bisexual and asexual, but in the end, they're fake friends because they would accept it if they really loved me. Your parents will love you no matter what happens, I bet my life on it. They might not like your choice but being bisexual (or gay/lesbian) is only part of you. You're a writer, your a daughter/son (I don't want to assume genders) and so much more. You only live once, but if you live happily and make it worthwhile, once is enough

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Jharna Katara
06:57 Feb 18, 2021

Amazing story! Vividly described feelings.

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Thank you so much! Your so kind!

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Akizuki Shaun
18:22 Jul 23, 2021

I would like to ask if where did they republished your story?

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Akizuki Shaun
18:27 Jul 23, 2021

Is it also in this site? Or maybe in app?

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Akizuki Shaun
20:29 Jul 23, 2021

Oooh, so they copied your story then republished it here too? The audacity.

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Yeah, but it's alright though, it doesn't bug me as long as people know ^^

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Leo Reynie
17:40 Feb 08, 2021

Please make this a real speech please please. I'll go up with you and everything! This is amazing. And almost real life XD Scratch that, this is totally real life in the future.

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I like the last line of it, it adds more power to the whole thing. I also liked these lines: "I loved writing so much. You could make your own worlds, your own laws, your own realities and nobody could stop you." TRU DAT "Lily frowned, putting her hands on her hips. Oh joy. Here came the speech that would make me get my behind out there in front of all those people only to regret it later." lol i like how she saw it coming XD "So as soon as I got to the microphone, my courage left me faster than you could say 'Wait.'" lollllll nice job...

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22:15 Mar 21, 2022

Your stories *mwah* chef's kiss! Dude though- that ace bit- Good for you on coming out(I'm too chicken to come out as ace to my mom)

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Aw thank u Crow <3 Haha, well if you do, Im rooting for you!!! I believe in you!

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00:02 Mar 22, 2022

<3 Thank you!^^"

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