Maura's Diary

March 13 2020

Lockdown? Really? I can’t do this, I can’t go this long without seeing Connor. We watched the sunset on the dock out at his camp last night and he kissed me for the first time. I can’t just NOT see him. Why does this stupid virus even have to exist?

March 17 2020

Connor and I have been video chatting every day, but it isn’t the same. I miss him. He seemed just as upset as I am. I have nothing better to do than sit around and wait for him to be done with his basketball stuff so he can call me, so that’s really why I started writing in this stupid journal anyway. He’s so nice, he told me he had a surprise coming for me in the mail. 

March 20 2020

Smooshed chocolate. That’s my surprise. Wow, Connor, how romantic, but I appreciate the gesture. I wish I could just go see him and we could go out to dinner like we used to, but I really look forward to when he calls me. I noticed he’s been quieter than normal, but that’s probably just quarantine getting to him. It got to me- I mean, I’m a junior in high school and I’m writing in a journal like a eleven year old kid. Jeez. 

April 1 2020

Connor only calls me once a week now. He told me he’s super busy with school and other stuff, which I totally get, but I miss him. I hate quarantine. I spend all my time eating, sleeping, or doing something in my room. This is dumb.

April 15 2020

Connor hasn’t called me in over a week, and I’m not sure if I should be worried. I called him earlier and he answered but we only talked for like five minutes and I heard someone else in the background. He said it was his mom. I don’t remember her sounding like that, but I also haven’t seen her in a while. I trust him, though. He said we’d talk soon. 

April 19 2020

I’m a little concerned. I called Connor’s phone and he didn’t answer, so I called their home phone and his mom said he was busy. The voice I heard before is DEFINITELY not his mom’s. I don’t know who it was but I’m definitely more suspicious now. 

April 25 2020

I call Connor every day, and half the time he doesn’t pick up. Today he did. He was ducked under some kind of cloth and he whispered he couldn’t talk long because he was in a Zoom meeting on his computer. I don’t remember him having a tablecloth on his desk in his room; maybe he remodeled. I think it’s time to stalk his Instagram profile.

April 30 2020

SO WHO WAS THE GIRL IN THAT PICTURE? 

I completely flipped out at Connor with his arm around some brunette on the beach. He brushed me off, told me it was his cousin Bree. I don’t believe him, but I’m not ready to rule out that possibility. I mean, he’s my boyfriend. We’ve been dating for four months. I love him and he loves me. Right? I’m going to see if I can find this Bree person on his Instagram. 

May 3 2020

“LOVE YOU, CONNOR LARSON”?!?!??

Bree McCallister. She goes to Kennedy High School in San Francisco, about a half hour away from here. She’s beautiful, I’ll give her that. But why does she have her arms wrapped around Connor in that Instagram picture? And her forehead pressed to his? Just please tell me what’s going on here! 

I’m going to text him now. Updates later. 

Why am I talking to this journal? :/

May 7 2020

Connor didn’t deny it. That, at least, was decent of him. The snake. 

He begged me to forgive him and told me that if I did he would never even think about any other girl except me. I don’t believe him. We’re officially over with, and personally, I think he’s okay with that. I’m just going to keep my eyes off of Bree’s Instagram page so I don’t add onto the amount of crying that I’m going to be doing. Right now I’m off on my dock- the one right next to Connor’s camp. The moon is so pretty shining on the water. Almost helps my broken heart. 

Hope you liked this! Sorry it’s so short. 

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