In the corner of your mind

Written in response to: Write about two people whose dreams are somehow connected. ... view prompt

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LGBTQ+ Fiction

You fear sleep, you don't know why, well yes you do. Often it is easier to lie than to tell people the truth you like to tell yourself. Part of you hates yourself for keeping it a secret but you know it's for the best. After all, no one in the right mind sees, and communicates with someone in their unconscious sleep. The problem is that the ¨someone¨ isn't some nobody that dwindles in the faraway abyss of your waking mind. It's your ex, the toxic one you thought you loved in ninth grade before you got those death threats on your phone. Screw dating apps I guess. Two weeks after you started talking to your ex in your dreams you were diagnosed with insomnia (would you really want to sleep when your ex is swearing and threatening you in your dreams?). That was a real punch in the gut. You wanted to scream at the doctor and tell him he was wrong, scream at your parents and tell them they should have stayed together and worked things out, scream at the whole damn world for not trying hard enough. But you didn't really feel like getting put in a psych ward that night, as if your world isn't crazy enough. 

It all started the day you broke up with her, that was also the day you came out to your parents. You could tell by their faces pansexuality didn't exactly run in the family. The library was closed that day but hopped the fence through tear filled eyes and picked the lock with shaking hands you could barely control. The door had swung open with a sound that could be directly extracted from a horror movie. The library was dark, but that was to be expected. You slid a book off the ¨on hold¨ shelf and nestled into a corner between adult fiction and YA history. It might have been five minutes before you looked down at the book you grabbed. The prior events of the day had come rushing back and a panic attack was imminent. You finally had the sense to look down at the book that was waiting patiently on your lap. The cover read Pride and Prejudice, a classic you thought. You flipped open the book and began to read. The first few pages were, well, normal. You had only read this five times before. Suddenly a gust of wind came through an open window and the book's pages fluttered, turning you to a page deep inside that wretched book. Something in your system kicked in and you got up to leave. This was not a good idea you had thought to yourself. The book landed with a thump and your knees buckled. Unable to control your legs you slammed into a bookshelf and went down hard on the linoleum floor. The last thing you saw was the pages of Pride and Prejudice spread out on the floor before you blacked out in a pool of your own blood. 

The first time you saw Natasha was in a white room, in your mind of course. She looked as confused as you felt but when she saw you she scowled. ¨Are we dead?¨ she questioned. Without waiting for a reply she kept talking ¨If not kill me now because i'm not living out the rest of my days trapped in a room with you.¨ You rolled your eyes to show your distaste but when your eyes came back down Nat was gone and every feeling was replaced with a bone rattling headache. You propped yourself up and put a finger to head and came away fingers sticky with drying blood from a wound long dried up. You stood up and hobbled out the library door not really concerned about the mess you had made in the library. Nor the fact that your favorite librarians would think an ax murderer had come through their sanctuary on their vacation day. When you got home you went right up to your room trying to piece together what happened. In the end you figured it was just a hallucination and went to bed. Boy were you wrong. The instructions came that night. I was sitting on a couch with Nat at my side as Pride and Prejudice read itself. ¨ Embrace the curse or it will get worse¨ it whispered in an eerie voice ¨To break the spell you must meet up and tell¨. ¨tell what?¨ Nat scoffed ¨a secret¨ the voice whispered almost inaudibly. ¨ hell no¨ you tell the book ¨like i would ever meet up with this bitch again let alone tell her a secret.¨ and then you woke up, that was the end of it. Well, until the next night. After each incident with Nat you considered texting her but you knew it would be no use, she was as stubborn as a rock. 

Months had gone by and you two had gotten closer. Maybe your mind was alluding to the fact that she had changed even if she was still the same person you had left that fateful day in the library. Tonight you actually wanted to see Nat. Your dad had shown up at your house, drunk like ninety percent of the time he came to your mothers house. He screamed for you using the name that was no longer yours. He found you in the closet and tried to throw a plate at you. You ducked instinctively. It hit your sister in the head. Right now she's in the hospital getting stitches woven into her head. Your father is being held in jail, for the night at least. You closed your eyes waiting for Nat. As you sat on the velvet couch you thought about what the book had said many days ago about meeting up. The both of you hadn't talked about it since but you thought maybe you were finally ready. Just as the thought had left your mind Nat appeared. She smiled and climbed on your lap and you giggled. You had failed to realize it before but she was such a romantic. She looked up at you and planted a kiss on your lips. When she was done kissing you she schooched off of you and looked at you with dark stormy eyes. ¨I-i was thinking¨ you started ¨We have this here, why not everywhere?¨ you questioned. ¨ So you're imposing we meet up?” like the book said in the beginning¨ she breathed. ¨Yes¨ you said, letting out a long sigh. She put her head on your shoulder, ¨how about Friday?¨

October 02, 2021 00:33

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27 comments

14:41 Oct 03, 2021

omggggggg eek that was awesome holy crap! second person is so hard to write in, props to you! (also, that pansexuality part made me so happy XD) and, HAI FELLOW THEY/THEMMMMM *sends screen gay hugs* but seriously, good story *claps*

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00:00 Oct 04, 2021

oh my gosh thank you so much!! *sends gay hugs back* That means so much coming from you. You were the one that inspired me to start writing on here. tysm<3

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04:57 Oct 04, 2021

Aweee your so sweeett <33 I'm glad you started writing here on Reedsy, it has been blessed by another amazing author! c:

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15:07 Oct 04, 2021

tysm<3 We need need more kind, friendly (preferably gay jk) people like you in the world<3

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15:58 Oct 04, 2021

Haha yassss!!! Like you too, don't forget, you're just as (if not more) amazing as me!

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18:23 Oct 04, 2021

I have no words. your too kind. I knew there were nice people out there on the internet!!! Btw i am legit in love with ¨A Little Bit of Makeup¨ ahhhhhhh its so good<3

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00:35 Oct 02, 2021

hey guys this is my first time writing in second person so advice is much appreciated<3

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Jexica Marcell
22:17 Nov 05, 2021

YES YES YES YOU WOULD BE A GREAT JAMES BOND Also, Echo and Avis are amazing writers, Avis is my bestie irl, and I'll be sure to check out the other people that you listed!!! Okay, you story is freaking amazing. I love the story in second person and I'd love it in any point of view!!! This is a work of art the only thing I have to critique you on (nicely, I dont want you to be hurt by this) is your dialogue. It's great, don't change anything they say, but it's so close together (and I mean this as there were no paragraphs for the dialogue) ...

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21:13 Nov 06, 2021

OMG thank you so much!!!! Im going to your profile right now ;). Thank you so much for the advice<3 Its how we all become better right?! Thanks again :)

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Jexica Marcell
16:54 Nov 08, 2021

no problem!!!!!! :)

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Akshara .
13:07 Oct 27, 2021

This was literally amazing! I honestly was so hooked, this was such a cute story with a cute ending!! You did a wonderful job writing in second person for the first time! <3 Welcome to Reedsy, looking forward to reading more of your creativeness! *Keeps on clapping*

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16:48 Oct 27, 2021

Awe thank you so much!! That means so so much coming from someone who writes so well! I will definitely keep posting I've been kind of busy with school but im working on it! thanks again<3

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Kay Ee
03:56 Oct 21, 2021

THIS IS SOO GOOD! i lowkey wish i was kidding but I honestly was so hooked, such a cute story with a cute ending. i love how you added pansexuality, I'm not pan myself but I 100000000000% support (my friend is so I needed to show them) I REALLLLLY hope you continue to write and posy on reedsy as I loved it sooo much -Kay

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18:19 Oct 21, 2021

Thank you sooo much. Im so glad you through it was good cause i wasnt sure if people would like it :'). I will definitely will keep posting on reedsy. Thanks for the support<3

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Kay Ee
23:54 Oct 24, 2021

YOU DIDJT THINK PEOPLE WOULD LIKE IT? A WHAT ITS SOO GOOS I SWEAR SO MANY OTHER PEOPLE WOULD LOVE IT

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Graham Kinross
13:46 Nov 15, 2021

This was really good. If I you want to read some pro writing in second person I’m reading Harrow the Ninth just now which has about half in second person. You’d probably like it based on your writing. The first book Gideon the Ninth isn’t in second person but it’s awesome anyway. You should try it.

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