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Christian Creative Nonfiction Teens & Young Adult

why 


did you 


leave me here? 


god, i miss you 


why do i miss you? 


i thought i could do this 


i thought i was fine with me 


but now you’re gone and i don’t know 


don’t know what to do; you were my all 


i was wrapped up in what you said of me 


can’t you see that what i’ve done was all for you? 


my time, my worth, my love, i gave them free 


and when you left, you took them with you 


you left me here, this world to rot 


it’s like you made the sun shine 


now the wind knots my hair 


and the clouds are dark 


rain fills my shoes 


tears too, but 


you don’t 


care. 




please 


come back 


i was wrong 


you know what, no 


that is what you want 


but i will stand my ground 


i will not crawl back to you 


you can not make me turn my will 


I’ll be as stiff as you claim you are 


all of my days, i will run far from you 


when i stop, i’ll be so high you can’t reach me 


you will have to crawl to me on your knees 


and then beg for me to take you back 


till then i will stand in this storm 


i don’t care how rough it’ll get 


let this noise shake the earth 


the light pierce my eyes 


to show all things 


and then go. 


it’s dark 


now. 




hey 


hear me 


give me time 


why did you leave? 


hear me shout my hate 


let me scream what i feel 


let me tell you what i think 


you are so great, so high, so far 


or so you think. i will prove you wrong 


my words will make you fall in to my grasp 


and then i want to bring you down here with me 


so that you can know just how this all feels 


to lay face down in the cold wet grass 


and rip the turf up with your hands 


your clothes stuck to your skin 


while the wind goes mad 


and my eyes glow 


and it’s cold


but i’ll


stay. 




hey 


know what? 


it’s not worth 


all that i give 


and if they ask me


i will say you left me 


and i don’t care from now on 


so now you can go on your way 


stop with the pleas for me to come back 


your voice just hurts my ears, i’ll turn it off 


your words will stay in a vault with the key lost 


i’ll do just fine on my own path, you’ll see 


go back to your light, i like this dark 


a weird flash now and then is fine 


i can see just what i want 


i will breathe in this rain 


i will walk through mud 


and just you watch 


i’ll learn how. 


i’ll fight 


on. 




well 


it works 


here i am 


i can go on 


see, i don’t need you 


then why do i still talk? 


i just talk to my self now 


i am more than you said you were 


for i’m kind, i have sense, i am just 


you gave me gifts, but i can give me more 


your laws are in my past, i can make my own 


i make my own up and down, good and bad 


and you can not tell me what to do 


 so i will go on with my life 


but i fight on in this storm 


and i have fought so hard 


yet it still goes on 


it does not stop 


i am stuck.


this rain 


drowns. 




please 


help me 


i came back 


i can’t do this 


i’ll say i was wrong 


you did not leave me here 


i’ll say it was me who left 


and it’s the most true thing i’ve said 


i want back the light you gave my life 


I am done with all this dark all the time 


i’m sick of this fight that i fight on my own 


i’m sick of this brawl that i can not win 


i’m sick of my self and my own tries 


my hands are not as big as yours 


i was not made to guide wind 


i can not scold the rain 


i can’t stop the sound 


i still can’t see 


but i know


what i


need.




why 


do you 


cry so loud? 


i said i’m wrong 


so why do you scream? 


can’t i pay my own debt? 


why must you feel all this pain? 


how can you stoop to love me so? 


i can not watch you die in my stead 


but yet you do it, and what have you done? 


the world’s turned on its head with your love for me 


and i’m scared i might fall off while it spins.


the storm gets more thick. i might die too. 


the ground on which my feet stand sways


while the skies shake in full wrath 


the rain turns red with blood 


my tongue can taste it 


it chokes my throat 


soaks my skin 


coats me 


red. 




you. 


you’re back 


i don’t know 


i don’t get how 


but now here you are 


i know you will not leave 


and that i will stay with you 


you will keep me safe by your side 


and i’ll walk with you in peace through death 


for naught can pull you from me. we are bound. 


you have sworn an oath to me. your word is sure. 


my soul is twined with yours in cords of blood 


you hold out your hands and calm the storm 


those nail pierced hands can kill my storm 


the clouds part when we walk through 


and now the sun does shine 


i am dry and warm 


the wind is gone 


i can breathe. 


i can 


see. 




yes. 


i fought. 


i fought god 


and it was tough 


for he is so strong 


but i learned he is good 


he does not leave those he loves 


and when we run, he will chase us. 


he chased me up to the gates of hell 


he ran for me while i ran for my doom 


he raced me while my steps traced the path to death 


he proved his love while i spit in his face 


he gave his all to mend what i’ve done 


and then he freed me from my storm 


he saved me from what i’d made. 


to fight god is to lose 


but he is so good 


that to fight him 


is to win. 


and i


have.

February 20, 2023 18:49

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05:22 Apr 15, 2023

Amazing idea!

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Keri Dyck
18:43 Apr 15, 2023

Thank you!

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Hallie Blatz
13:14 Feb 22, 2023

Definitely a cool way to use this prompt! Good job!

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Keri Dyck
19:16 Feb 22, 2023

Thanks!

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