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Sad Teens & Young Adult Middle School

Author’s Note: This story is good as a stand-alone, but if you want to know more about the backstory, go read “One Thing Leads To Another”. Also, there isn’t good grammar here because it’s all diary entries. Thanks! :D

January 27

Today I went to Charity’s Coffee with Bua, my best friend. We were talking like we normally would when she brought up Sinsi, my brother. It is relevant for you to know that the rest of my family has either passed away or separated themselves from me. Sinsi is my last family member. Bua told me that Sinsi said that I was the reason that Carmen Diaz died. This is true but Sinsi was the only one who was supposed to know. And before you start calling the police and say I’m a murderer let me explain. I was four years old and Carmen was my babysitter. She took me out for ice cream and on our way back to my house I was singing loud to Disney songs. I had started saying Carmen’s name over and over when she was trying to turn. She did turn but was distracted by me and another car wasn’t paying attention and rammed into Carmen’s side of the car. She died instantly. I lived with only bruises and scrapes. Tomorrow I need to talk to Sinsi to see why he would say that. Tonight he’s working the late shift at the clinic. -Emilia

January 28

I talked to Sinsi today. He admitted to telling Bua my secret. I’m furious at him. I packed an overnight bag and I’m staying at Karsilama’s house. She’s my other best friend. I’m laying on the bed in her spare bedroom right now. It’s not comfortable. It’s not my bed. I can’t get over the fact that Sinsi would do this to me. He was my rock. Now I have no family members. It’s lonely. Even if I do still have friends. I don’t have a family. -Em

March 2

Welp. It’s official. I have clinical depression. We all knew it weeks ago but after my appointment today I am officially diagnosed. How fun. Now everyone is going to label me as that lady with depression. I am but it’s still a depressing thought. I guess every thought is depressing since I have depression. It’s a wonderful life I’m living don’t you think? Oh who am I kidding? My life is just a pit of darkness, loneliness and sadness. -Lady With Depression

August 12

No. No. Gosh no. It can’t be true. It can’t. I haven’t talked to Sinsi since the day I left the house we shared. And now I’ll never get the chance. SINSI IS DEAD. I can’t believe it. It’s… it’s just unimaginable. But it’s true. I’m going to his funeral in exactly a week. I’m nervous. I don’t know what I’m going to do. -Emilia

August 18

Yesterday I went to Sinsi’s funeral. I couldn’t stop crying. I was so selfish. I refused to talk to him for months. Seeing all of those people there for him reminded me of how loved he was. How much I loved him. He was my brother. My best friend. He was the person that I leaned on when times were rough. He was always there for me. Even though he was five years younger than me he was always more responsible than me. It was embarrassing at times. But he was at my defense every time. It was wonderful and now he was gone. Something is tugging at my heart. I know it’s my sadness. My depression. It’s bringing me down. I don’t know how to stop it. I have an idea. But I’m debating it. I don’t know if I want to do it. But I do. Life is too hard. -Em

September 25

I have my plan. I’ll be in San Francisco in two weeks. In San Francisco, there’s the Golden Gate Bridge. You can connect the rest of the dots. I think I’ll write a letter to my friends to make sure that they all understand. I’m nervous that someone will find out what my plan is and try to stop me. I really hope not. But it could be possible. That would be a worst-case scenario for sure. It’s so nerve-wracking. UGH! -Depression

October 6

I’m leaving for SF in a couple of days. I did write a letter for my friends so they can understand me. Well I hope it works. If it doesn’t and they try to stop me then I don’t know what I’ll do. But I doubt they’ll be able to stop me because I’ll probably already be gone. Ah who am I kidding? They don’t care about me. They won’t care that I’m gone. Yeah. I’m not going to give them the letter. There’s no reason to. -Friendless

October 9

I’m in SF in my hotel room that I won’t need. I think I’ll do it tomorrow. My friends are going to be calling me today to make sure that I got here. I don’t want them rushing over here cuz I didn’t answer so yeah. Oop! Bua is calling me now. -Emilia

 Dear Diary,

This is Karsilama. It is November 22. A body was just found in the Pacific Ocean on the coast of California right by San Francisco. They put the young woman’s picture on the news. I know who it is. It’s Emilia. And I know it wasn’t an accident. Emilia comitted suicide. There. I said it. I’m still trying to process it all. I don’t understand why she would. It just doesn’t make any sense! I wish she could tell me why.

Love,

Karsilama

Journal-

Today (December 8) was Emilia’s funeral. There wasn’t a dry eye in the room. A good hundred or so people were there for her. Karsilama and I agree with each other that we want to know why she did it. We all thought that she was doing better. I guess not. My life won’t be the same. She was my best friend. I miss her so much. So much.

-Bua

January 31, 2021 14:36

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Sapphire 🌼
17:23 Feb 01, 2021

So Jennie wanted me to....relay information? Uh- so we're not gonna mess with Luke anymore apparently, like no more ships with him XDD Information has been relayed :)

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✰ Jennie ✰
19:35 Feb 01, 2021

gee thanks

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Sapphire 🌼
19:36 Feb 01, 2021

XDD At least I tried

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✰ Jennie ✰
19:43 Feb 01, 2021

hehehe welp hope she sees

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Sapphire 🌼
19:45 Feb 01, 2021

yeah lol before she puts out another story with ships XD (I was gonna put in the ships but decided not to)

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20:09 Feb 01, 2021

I AM ON A SHIP CRAZE. MY NEXT STORY WITH REEDSY PEEPS... BOY ARE YOU GUYS GONNA BE SHOCKED. HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE. SAPPHIRE, YOU BETTER WATCH OUT. :DDDDDDDDDDD

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✰ Jennie ✰
19:46 Feb 01, 2021

XD good idea

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Broooooke I wanna talkkkkk ABOUT THE SHIPS XD SAPPHIRE IS FREAKIN OUTTTTTTTTTT

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20:54 Feb 03, 2021

Hi, Celeste! Brooke is not available to talk about the 'ship war'. She would like you to know that Sapphire is next in line, then you, then Aerin. Have a great day!

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02:06 Feb 04, 2021

XDDDDDDD read ze bio

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Sapphire 🌼
17:31 Feb 03, 2021

I read your bio XD IM SO GLAD IT'S NOT JUST ME BUT HOW ARE YOU GONNA FIND ENOUGH PEOPLE TO SHIP THEM WITH?? I'm so nervous for next week lol

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20:54 Feb 03, 2021

Hi, Sapphire! Brooke is not able to talk about the ships at the moment, but she can tell you that the story will come out next week (hopefully)! May the odds be ever in your favor. Have a great day!

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Sapphire 🌼
18:12 Feb 04, 2021

LMAO This is the most professional you have ever been. Alright then, I won't bug you till next week! You too!

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20:20 Feb 04, 2021

XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD Welp you don't have to bug me now since I shut it all down lollllllll

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Sapphire 🌼
20:20 Feb 04, 2021

XDDD IK LOLLLLLLLLLLLLL HA

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20:20 Feb 04, 2021

XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

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✰ Jennie ✰
20:18 Feb 01, 2021

why why why why why why must must must must you you you you killlll *911 Brooke D. has just commited a heinous murder!!!!* But wowwwwwwww...... I sense why Em would commit suicide... Wow, just a little fight could escalate to this... Even though you didn't tell the reader, I knew immediately what the 'it' was... so great job!!!!!

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20:20 Feb 01, 2021

Aw, thanks so much! *911 Jennie is just a very concerned friend. Brooke is writing about death.*

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✰ Jennie ✰
22:51 Feb 01, 2021

*911 SHE. HAS. KILLED.*

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01:40 Feb 02, 2021

*911 JENNIE IS SEMI-DELUSIONAL*

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✰ Jennie ✰
01:57 Feb 02, 2021

*1-800-Suicidal Prevention Hotline!*

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02:10 Feb 03, 2021

*TO ALL WORLD: JENNIE IS OVERREACTING*

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Dhwani Jain
16:29 Jun 29, 2021

Ah! It was a nice story with a very sad ending. But I like your writing style. Also, even my go-to outfit this summer is shorts and a top. Great work!

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17:35 Jun 29, 2021

Thank you so much! Yeah, I feel like most people rock the shorts and a shirt style during the summer.

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Dhwani Jain
03:51 Jun 30, 2021

Yeah they do... Please do read and comment your reviews on my stories as well. Thanks Brooke. Where are you from?

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13:48 Jun 30, 2021

I'll be sure to read a story or two soon! My pleasure. That's something that I prefer not to share.

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Dhwani Jain
13:50 Jun 30, 2021

Okay... Thanks! Sure, I understand....your reviews are awaited. :)

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13:51 Jun 30, 2021

No problem! :D

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Sapphire 🌼
17:59 Mar 05, 2021

Hiya brooke! Do you mind doing my form? https://forms.gle/srcXwqcNEcgaYZXc7

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03:38 Mar 06, 2021

Hi! Of course not! I'll do it ASAHP.

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Sapphire 🌼
18:05 Mar 06, 2021

Thanks!!!

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22:15 Mar 06, 2021

You're welcome! Btw, I did finish filling it out.

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Sapphire 🌼
23:15 Mar 06, 2021

Great!!! Hehe I will tell you when the part with you comes out :)

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00:13 Mar 07, 2021

Sounds good! :)

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Maya -
21:54 Mar 04, 2021

Ooh Brooke, would you mind filling out my Reedsy cast form again since there are new questions? You can skip the question with the guilds since you already have one. Also, Isaac wants to know if you want to be shipped with him.

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22:08 Mar 04, 2021

Of course not! I'll do it asahp. Ummmm sure lolol

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22:09 Mar 04, 2021

Also, I'm really stupid and forgot what my guild is. Which one did I pick again? XD

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Maya -
22:10 Mar 04, 2021

Lol it's not on there anymore cause I had enough people so I took it off. You picked Explorer but you can skip the question.

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22:12 Mar 04, 2021

Ohhhhhhhhhh ok lol

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Maya -
22:15 Mar 04, 2021

:))

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Maya -
13:36 Mar 04, 2021

✌✌✌ Also... did you see who Isaac said he wants to be shipped with... lol

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22:14 Mar 04, 2021

Thanks! I'm guessing me since you asked.... lol

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Maya -
22:15 Mar 04, 2021

Lol haha~

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22:17 Mar 04, 2021

OMG I just read his response on my form.... lolololol

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22:39 Mar 04, 2021

I just submitted a new story! ^^

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Maya -
22:45 Mar 04, 2021

Ooohhhhhhhhhhhh really?? Omg imma look hehe

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01:27 Mar 05, 2021

Yup! Thanks! :D

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Bailey D.
20:18 Mar 03, 2021

✌✌✌✌✌

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20:19 Mar 03, 2021

Thanks!

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Bailey D.
22:26 Mar 04, 2021

My pleasure!

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Mazie Gray
20:18 Mar 03, 2021

✌✌✌✌✌✌

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20:19 Mar 03, 2021

Thanks! :D

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Mazie Gray
22:26 Mar 04, 2021

No prob!

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Maya -
17:46 Mar 03, 2021

Hi :) Would you like to play Skribble today at 3:30 EST, even though we haven't played for a while. Also, if you want to ask anyone else if they want to play, feel free. :)

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20:08 Mar 03, 2021

Hi! I would love to! It's been forever! :D Okay!

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Maya -
20:09 Mar 03, 2021

Yay! It has! Okie I'll put the link in my bio. :)

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20:11 Mar 03, 2021

Sounds good! :D

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Maya -
20:29 Mar 03, 2021

https://skribbl.io/?5EIqZpEpdZua :D

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B. W.
06:52 Mar 02, 2021

Hey, guess what

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12:22 Mar 03, 2021

What? You finished a novel?

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B. W.
16:19 Mar 03, 2021

Not that, but I did finish something ^^ I've had writers block for a while and I'm not sure if I've told you but I finally managed to get two new stories out. Could you possibly check out "Ayan the hotel Ghost" along with "Stars and the Sea" and then leave some feedback?

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20:11 Mar 03, 2021

Yay; that's great! I'm so happy for you. ^^ Of course! I'll read them right after I finish the list I have now. :D

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B. W.
21:12 Mar 03, 2021

Thanks ^^ So question, are ya still writing the novel?

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12:27 Mar 04, 2021

No problem! No, I'm not. I realized that I didn't have any connection to the storyline. If I write a novel, I want to be able to really connect with my characters. If that makes any sense.

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02:43 Mar 02, 2021

✌✌✌✌✌

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12:23 Mar 03, 2021

Thanks, Amethyst! :D

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01:39 Mar 04, 2021

np! :)

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B. W.
23:14 Feb 27, 2021

new thread?

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13:42 Feb 28, 2021

Sure. ^^

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B. W.
16:44 Feb 28, 2021

So do ya wanna hear some jokes or something?

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00:24 Mar 01, 2021

Of course! :)

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B. W.
01:56 Mar 01, 2021

Knock Knock

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01:56 Mar 01, 2021

Who's there?

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Maya -
21:06 Feb 25, 2021

Hey Brooke (making the yellow dot pop up hehe) Anything going on lately? Lol, we haven't talked in a little while.

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21:21 Feb 26, 2021

Hi! (Yay! Thanks! :D) Nope; just dance and school. How about you? I know! It's been a long while. ^^

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Maya -
23:10 Feb 26, 2021

Ooh, dance! What kind of dance do you do? Hmm school and more school and some writing. Hehe What do you think of the new prompts? XD

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00:40 Feb 27, 2021

All kinds! :D It's a lot of fun. ^^ I know. School is the reason I can't write as much anymore. :( They're okayyyyyyy. I have a brainstorm for a story, though. :) I'm going to write it in 2nd person, which will be challenging but fun.

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Maya -
01:52 Feb 27, 2021

Ooh, it sounds like it! :) Wow, I can't wait to read it, sounds interesting! Good luck on the second person! :D

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12:52 Feb 27, 2021

:D Thanks! :D I'll be looking out for a story of yours, too!

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01:52 Feb 23, 2021

hi brooke! answer to your rAndOm qUeStiOn: yes. a LOT XD

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12:24 Feb 24, 2021

Hi! XDDDDDDD I'm glad I'm not the only one!

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00:36 Feb 25, 2021

ahaha np! :)

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B. W.
06:57 Feb 22, 2021

Heyyy

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12:43 Feb 22, 2021

Hi! I just realized how long it's been since we've talked last........ :(

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B. W.
16:54 Feb 22, 2021

Yeah sorry, I was kind of busy with other stuff for a little while. Though how are you doing?

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17:07 Feb 22, 2021

Oh, it's okay! I've been busy, too. ^^ I'm doing good! How about you? :D

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B. W.
18:40 Feb 22, 2021

I guess I'm doing fine, but I have writers block :/

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18:45 Feb 22, 2021

Ugh. That stinks; I'm sorry. Have you tried listening to music or reading some of your favorite authors yet? Also, CJ Mayer did this: pick a song and write a story based on that song. It might help. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

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Kate Reynolds
02:26 Feb 22, 2021

🌵

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12:43 Feb 22, 2021

Thanks!

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Kate Reynolds
13:05 Feb 22, 2021

Np!

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22:10 Feb 19, 2021

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

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Maya -
01:31 Feb 19, 2021

Oh and Isaac's not leaving there was just a misunderstanding. It's alright

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22:15 Feb 19, 2021

Okay! That's great! :D

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Maya -
22:37 Feb 19, 2021

Lol I'm just spreading the word. XDD

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23:33 Feb 19, 2021

XD

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