Author’s Note: This story is good as a stand-alone, but if you want to know more about the backstory, go read “One Thing Leads To Another”. Also, there isn’t good grammar here because it’s all diary entries. Thanks! :D
January 27
Today I went to Charity’s Coffee with Bua, my best friend. We were talking like we normally would when she brought up Sinsi, my brother. It is relevant for you to know that the rest of my family has either passed away or separated themselves from me. Sinsi is my last family member. Bua told me that Sinsi said that I was the reason that Carmen Diaz died. This is true but Sinsi was the only one who was supposed to know. And before you start calling the police and say I’m a murderer let me explain. I was four years old and Carmen was my babysitter. She took me out for ice cream and on our way back to my house I was singing loud to Disney songs. I had started saying Carmen’s name over and over when she was trying to turn. She did turn but was distracted by me and another car wasn’t paying attention and rammed into Carmen’s side of the car. She died instantly. I lived with only bruises and scrapes. Tomorrow I need to talk to Sinsi to see why he would say that. Tonight he’s working the late shift at the clinic. -Emilia
January 28
I talked to Sinsi today. He admitted to telling Bua my secret. I’m furious at him. I packed an overnight bag and I’m staying at Karsilama’s house. She’s my other best friend. I’m laying on the bed in her spare bedroom right now. It’s not comfortable. It’s not my bed. I can’t get over the fact that Sinsi would do this to me. He was my rock. Now I have no family members. It’s lonely. Even if I do still have friends. I don’t have a family. -Em
March 2
Welp. It’s official. I have clinical depression. We all knew it weeks ago but after my appointment today I am officially diagnosed. How fun. Now everyone is going to label me as that lady with depression. I am but it’s still a depressing thought. I guess every thought is depressing since I have depression. It’s a wonderful life I’m living don’t you think? Oh who am I kidding? My life is just a pit of darkness, loneliness and sadness. -Lady With Depression
August 12
No. No. Gosh no. It can’t be true. It can’t. I haven’t talked to Sinsi since the day I left the house we shared. And now I’ll never get the chance. SINSI IS DEAD. I can’t believe it. It’s… it’s just unimaginable. But it’s true. I’m going to his funeral in exactly a week. I’m nervous. I don’t know what I’m going to do. -Emilia
August 18
Yesterday I went to Sinsi’s funeral. I couldn’t stop crying. I was so selfish. I refused to talk to him for months. Seeing all of those people there for him reminded me of how loved he was. How much I loved him. He was my brother. My best friend. He was the person that I leaned on when times were rough. He was always there for me. Even though he was five years younger than me he was always more responsible than me. It was embarrassing at times. But he was at my defense every time. It was wonderful and now he was gone. Something is tugging at my heart. I know it’s my sadness. My depression. It’s bringing me down. I don’t know how to stop it. I have an idea. But I’m debating it. I don’t know if I want to do it. But I do. Life is too hard. -Em
September 25
I have my plan. I’ll be in San Francisco in two weeks. In San Francisco, there’s the Golden Gate Bridge. You can connect the rest of the dots. I think I’ll write a letter to my friends to make sure that they all understand. I’m nervous that someone will find out what my plan is and try to stop me. I really hope not. But it could be possible. That would be a worst-case scenario for sure. It’s so nerve-wracking. UGH! -Depression
October 6
I’m leaving for SF in a couple of days. I did write a letter for my friends so they can understand me. Well I hope it works. If it doesn’t and they try to stop me then I don’t know what I’ll do. But I doubt they’ll be able to stop me because I’ll probably already be gone. Ah who am I kidding? They don’t care about me. They won’t care that I’m gone. Yeah. I’m not going to give them the letter. There’s no reason to. -Friendless
October 9
I’m in SF in my hotel room that I won’t need. I think I’ll do it tomorrow. My friends are going to be calling me today to make sure that I got here. I don’t want them rushing over here cuz I didn’t answer so yeah. Oop! Bua is calling me now. -Emilia
Dear Diary,
This is Karsilama. It is November 22. A body was just found in the Pacific Ocean on the coast of California right by San Francisco. They put the young woman’s picture on the news. I know who it is. It’s Emilia. And I know it wasn’t an accident. Emilia comitted suicide. There. I said it. I’m still trying to process it all. I don’t understand why she would. It just doesn’t make any sense! I wish she could tell me why.
Love,
Karsilama
Journal-
Today (December 8) was Emilia’s funeral. There wasn’t a dry eye in the room. A good hundred or so people were there for her. Karsilama and I agree with each other that we want to know why she did it. We all thought that she was doing better. I guess not. My life won’t be the same. She was my best friend. I miss her so much. So much.
-Bua
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So Jennie wanted me to....relay information? Uh- so we're not gonna mess with Luke anymore apparently, like no more ships with him XDD Information has been relayed :)
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gee thanks
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XDD At least I tried
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hehehe welp hope she sees
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yeah lol before she puts out another story with ships XD (I was gonna put in the ships but decided not to)
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I AM ON A SHIP CRAZE. MY NEXT STORY WITH REEDSY PEEPS... BOY ARE YOU GUYS GONNA BE SHOCKED. HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE. SAPPHIRE, YOU BETTER WATCH OUT. :DDDDDDDDDDD
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XD good idea
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Broooooke I wanna talkkkkk ABOUT THE SHIPS XD SAPPHIRE IS FREAKIN OUTTTTTTTTTT
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Hi, Celeste! Brooke is not available to talk about the 'ship war'. She would like you to know that Sapphire is next in line, then you, then Aerin. Have a great day!
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Hi! Aww XDdDD You tOoo
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XDDDDDDD read ze bio
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I read your bio XD IM SO GLAD IT'S NOT JUST ME BUT HOW ARE YOU GONNA FIND ENOUGH PEOPLE TO SHIP THEM WITH?? I'm so nervous for next week lol
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Hi, Sapphire! Brooke is not able to talk about the ships at the moment, but she can tell you that the story will come out next week (hopefully)! May the odds be ever in your favor. Have a great day!
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LMAO This is the most professional you have ever been. Alright then, I won't bug you till next week! You too!
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XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD Welp you don't have to bug me now since I shut it all down lollllllll
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XDDD IK LOLLLLLLLLLLLLL HA
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XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
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why why why why why why must must must must you you you you killlll *911 Brooke D. has just commited a heinous murder!!!!* But wowwwwwwww...... I sense why Em would commit suicide... Wow, just a little fight could escalate to this... Even though you didn't tell the reader, I knew immediately what the 'it' was... so great job!!!!!
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Aw, thanks so much! *911 Jennie is just a very concerned friend. Brooke is writing about death.*
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*911 SHE. HAS. KILLED.*
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*911 JENNIE IS SEMI-DELUSIONAL*
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*1-800-Suicidal Prevention Hotline!*
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*TO ALL WORLD: JENNIE IS OVERREACTING*
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Ah! It was a nice story with a very sad ending. But I like your writing style. Also, even my go-to outfit this summer is shorts and a top. Great work!
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Thank you so much! Yeah, I feel like most people rock the shorts and a shirt style during the summer.
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Yeah they do... Please do read and comment your reviews on my stories as well. Thanks Brooke. Where are you from?
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I'll be sure to read a story or two soon! My pleasure. That's something that I prefer not to share.
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Okay... Thanks! Sure, I understand....your reviews are awaited. :)
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No problem! :D
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Hiya brooke! Do you mind doing my form? https://forms.gle/srcXwqcNEcgaYZXc7
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Hi! Of course not! I'll do it ASAHP.
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Thanks!!!
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You're welcome! Btw, I did finish filling it out.
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Great!!! Hehe I will tell you when the part with you comes out :)
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Sounds good! :)
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Ooh Brooke, would you mind filling out my Reedsy cast form again since there are new questions? You can skip the question with the guilds since you already have one. Also, Isaac wants to know if you want to be shipped with him.
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Of course not! I'll do it asahp. Ummmm sure lolol
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Also, I'm really stupid and forgot what my guild is. Which one did I pick again? XD
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Lol it's not on there anymore cause I had enough people so I took it off. You picked Explorer but you can skip the question.
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Ohhhhhhhhhh ok lol
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:))
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✌✌✌ Also... did you see who Isaac said he wants to be shipped with... lol
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Thanks! I'm guessing me since you asked.... lol
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Lol haha~
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OMG I just read his response on my form.... lolololol
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I just submitted a new story! ^^
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Ooohhhhhhhhhhhh really?? Omg imma look hehe
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Yup! Thanks! :D
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Thanks!
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My pleasure!
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Thanks! :D
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No prob!
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Hi :) Would you like to play Skribble today at 3:30 EST, even though we haven't played for a while. Also, if you want to ask anyone else if they want to play, feel free. :)
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Hi! I would love to! It's been forever! :D Okay!
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Yay! It has! Okie I'll put the link in my bio. :)
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Sounds good! :D
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https://skribbl.io/?5EIqZpEpdZua :D
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Hey, guess what
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What? You finished a novel?
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Not that, but I did finish something ^^ I've had writers block for a while and I'm not sure if I've told you but I finally managed to get two new stories out. Could you possibly check out "Ayan the hotel Ghost" along with "Stars and the Sea" and then leave some feedback?
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Yay; that's great! I'm so happy for you. ^^ Of course! I'll read them right after I finish the list I have now. :D
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Thanks ^^ So question, are ya still writing the novel?
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No problem! No, I'm not. I realized that I didn't have any connection to the storyline. If I write a novel, I want to be able to really connect with my characters. If that makes any sense.
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Thanks, Amethyst! :D
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np! :)
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new thread?
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Sure. ^^
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So do ya wanna hear some jokes or something?
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Of course! :)
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Knock Knock
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Who's there?
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Hey Brooke (making the yellow dot pop up hehe) Anything going on lately? Lol, we haven't talked in a little while.
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Hi! (Yay! Thanks! :D) Nope; just dance and school. How about you? I know! It's been a long while. ^^
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Ooh, dance! What kind of dance do you do? Hmm school and more school and some writing. Hehe What do you think of the new prompts? XD
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All kinds! :D It's a lot of fun. ^^ I know. School is the reason I can't write as much anymore. :( They're okayyyyyyy. I have a brainstorm for a story, though. :) I'm going to write it in 2nd person, which will be challenging but fun.
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Ooh, it sounds like it! :) Wow, I can't wait to read it, sounds interesting! Good luck on the second person! :D
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:D Thanks! :D I'll be looking out for a story of yours, too!
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hi brooke! answer to your rAndOm qUeStiOn: yes. a LOT XD
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Hi! XDDDDDDD I'm glad I'm not the only one!
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ahaha np! :)
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Heyyy
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Hi! I just realized how long it's been since we've talked last........ :(
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Yeah sorry, I was kind of busy with other stuff for a little while. Though how are you doing?
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Oh, it's okay! I've been busy, too. ^^ I'm doing good! How about you? :D
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I guess I'm doing fine, but I have writers block :/
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Ugh. That stinks; I'm sorry. Have you tried listening to music or reading some of your favorite authors yet? Also, CJ Mayer did this: pick a song and write a story based on that song. It might help. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
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🌵
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Thanks!
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Np!
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ISSAC'S NOT LEAVING
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YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
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:DDDDDDDDDDDD
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Oh and Isaac's not leaving there was just a misunderstanding. It's alright
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Okay! That's great! :D
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Lol I'm just spreading the word. XDD
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XD
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