Wear Your Crown (WARNING: mention of suicide and rape)

Hey...

I want to ask you something.

...

How are you?

I don't want the generic "good" or "fine".

...how are you really?

...

Some of you may be going through a tough time.

And that's okay.

Because you have pulled through. You have fought. And you have made it this far.

Wanna know how I know?

Because you are here, right now, reading this. You are here, living, breathing...

...

Let's keep it that way, okay?

Because I know that some of you want to just give up.

I know that some of you feel like you're not worth it. Like you're not worth the air you're breathing.

But guess what?

It doesn't mater whether or not you're gay or homophobic.

It doesn't matter whether you're black, white, or asian.

It doesn't matter whether or not you're muslim, christian, or an atheist.

It doesn't matter whether or not you're fat or skinny.

Society is always changing their minds...

You're fat, lose weight.

You're skinny, eat more.

You have a bulgy body, you eat too much.

You have the perfect body, hide it.

You're white, then shut up because everything you say is racist.

You're black, you think everything is about yourself.

So why conform to society's standards if society's standards is just the opposite of yourself?

Another thing...

Some of you may be feeling a certain way, having thoughts no one wants to have...

Feeling like giving up because you aren't worth it...

Because you're not meant to be on this Earth...

Because you're not worth the air you're breathing...

Because nobody would care if you're gone...

Well guess what.

I care.

I care about you.

I would notice if you were gone.

I would be crying in my bed knowing that the angels in heaven would go silent at the loss of a prince/princess.

Because guess what?

They are singing that you are alive.

They are singing that you are fighting.

... don't let them go silent.

Please.

Don't give up.

Don't go down the dark road of sadness because once you go down there's no turning back...

Please, you are worth it. You are worth everything in the world and you just don't know it. You just don't see it.

Repeat after me.

I am loved.

I am cared for.

I am appreciated.

...why do I say this? Why do I spend the time to type all of this out for only a few people to see?

Because I was there.

Because I felt like I wasn't loved.

Because I felt like I wasn't cared for.

Because I felt like I wasn't appreciated.

Because I cursed myself for every useless breath I took.

Because I didn't think I deserved to be here.

Because I was once at my lowest point, from the loss of my baby brother to when a boy tried to take the one thing I could call my own...

Please.

I know your pain.

I know your hurt.

And I know it's hard.

But please.

Don't give up.

Because if you had given up you wouldn't be reading this and I wouldn't be writing this and the angels wouldn't be singing...

If you need to talk, talk. If you need to cry, cry. If you need to scream, scream. Just don't bottle it up. Don't keep it inside. Because if you keep it inside, it will suffocate you from the inside out.

Don't give up. Please. Don't take away the one thing that can never be given back.

This is for everyone. This is for all those authors and judges and random readers. This is for those who feel like their life it finally going right and those who feel like ending it all.

If you ever need to talk, I am here. Tell me how you are really doing, rant, vent, whatever you need to do.

I am giving you the opportunity that I never had.

I know you are struggling. I know it's hard.

But God has given you a crown made of gold and jewels.

... so why don't you wear it?

If you feel the same way, copy this into your bio:

I am loved. I am appreciated. I am cared for. And so are you.

I am loved. I am appreciated. I am cared for. And so are you.

I am loved. I am appreciated. I am cared for. And so are you.

I am loved. I am appreciated. I am cared for. And so are you.

I am loved. I am appreciated. I am cared for. And so are you.

I am loved. I am appreciated. I am cared for. And so are you.

I am loved. I am appreciated. I am cared for. And so are you.

I am loved. I am appreciated. I am cared for. And so are you.

I am loved. I am appreciated. I am cared for. And so are you.

I am loved. I am appreciated. I am cared for. And so are you.

I am loved. I am appreciated. I am cared for. And so are you.

I am loved. I am appreciated. I am cared for. And so are you.

I am loved. I am appreciated. I am cared for. And so are you.

I am loved. I am appreciated. I am cared for. And so are you.

I am loved. I am appreciated. I am cared for. And so are you.

I am loved. I am appreciated. I am cared for. And so are you.

I am loved. I am appreciated. I am cared for. And so are you.

I am loved. I am appreciated. I am cared for. And so are you.

I am loved. I am appreciated. I am cared for. And so are you.

I am loved. I am appreciated. I am cared for. And so are you.

I am loved. I am appreciated. I am cared for. And so are you.

I am loved. I am appreciated. I am cared for. And so are you.

I am loved. I am appreciated. I am cared for. And so are you.

I am loved. I am appreciated. I am cared for. And so are you.