Listen

Language Warning: A few expletives.

Listen with your heart not your head. Understand these words like the lyrics of an artist that's dead. Ain't asking for much just forgiveness that ain’t ever said. Exposing thoughts as I tolerate empathy with lead.

Read this out loud like a presentation. Evaluate the pain like a burning sensation. I was your radio, but you changed the station. Regardless of what was said you never paid attention. Kept you on me like a phone, but you faded. Adjusting feelings that can't be calibrated.

Interrupted by a cloud like going after a squid. Confused, and determined I was willing to fix because what we had was saturated emotion. A river of patience aware of it frozen. Choking on devotion, pride that was swollen. Obsessed with regret. A night that went broken.

Eyes wide open yet still not focusing. Up, and stable then knocked down like the pins in bowling. Love starts when you don't need it, and ends when you do. Shit was perfect as passion blew. Stuck like glue, a feeling that wasn't new. I gave you my better half like a person split in two.

I'm trying not to show that I'm sensitive, but I am that's real. The thing with being a man is you can't express, but if you can't show emotion then what's the purpose to feel? Girl you don't understand what it means to be a guy. The shit he does for his girl, and all she does is deny. Live as a monster or die a good man. Stuck in between drinking what's black and tan.

Dead inside, but smiling on the out. The good die young is pure bull, explain what life is about. I can say I don't care, but time was invested. Plus that would be a lie since my feelings kept you protected. Having things to mention just not having the guts to say them. Love is a bumpy road, but with you I had suspension.

I was looking for a quarter, and found a dollar. You were as wet as Niagara Falls, like a hoe from tinder, but I loved you like a sad song about her. Giving it my all like a drill bit cutting through steel that couldn't go any further. These words aren't to get back although I'm still trying to pull through. I'm not the devil plus karma has no menu. Hesitation causes your worst nightmare to come true. Which is exactly what occurred with me, and you.

Dreams are distractions from tomorrow. Haven't had any. Is it my time to go? I still have that sheet of paper like I'm practicing for Oprah. You know what I'm saying I kept it as a memory of ya.

That paper is me visiting college to visualize perfection in your dorm. A guest pass through laminated glass, a routine like summer, and shorts. I’m giving it back to prove I kept it. A memory of agony as you spark pain from what you did. Your presence was borrowed. I'm no longer in your view, admit it. No matter how many times I ponder, and spin. You left without warning, not even left a mist.

Time passes unlike the cars in traffic. I still care about you like any mother, and her kid, but you're ignoring it all like a husband when he's sick. If I'm in a car I'm totaled. Shit!

You can burn a photo, but can't replace the memory. I'm not asking for you to dance back, just a bit of sympathy. I was always down to talk to you to make my heart bounce more than the lines of frequency. Hope is a disguise as our bond grows faster than the average tree. Growing pains of thee. Getting greener than salad that ain't free. Lust is not a choice, it's a deed. Your lips are so memorable the taste that led to a need. Comfort was so good I pushed away family.

Mind what you see like metal through me. Bullets of self worth shot with dignity. Blood dripping on asphalt moving faster than a centipede. Sadly trust was given not earned so affection was gone like good weed.

I still think back at it like a hangover since it was my fault. Nothing on you it's me I screwed it all up like DeWalt, but damn shit happens your toilet can say the same. Let me spit some facts though like a pissed teacher trying to explain. You know my intentions, you can practically read my brain, but you brought distance that led to silence which hurts more than migraines.

I still have feelings I won't lie like a kid. Yet again lies are facts that haven't happened. I wrote two songs when I was on the edge of death, but let's set that aside like holding something before sex. I was dying to speak like music at a low tune. I felt the hatred, and annoyed vibe I'd get so I swallowed the pill of reality like a sip of hot soup.

I'm sorry I'm worthless like a pile of leaves don't lie it's true. Moving on with life wielding pain onto my wall of memories I had from you. You probably forgot it all like amnesia, but hey I'm willing to start over like a caterpillar after two weeks of that idea. Now listen if your happy, your happy fuck it sadness is tamed. I tried to walk in, and bring joy, but your emotions don't change. Speak of how great you are, but my name remains. Life is a lemon I guess so we squeeze the bitch so we don't live the same.

Love is such a hard word to digest. Like water it's a type not of itself I guess. Deleted memories are forbidden, but out of respect. Yet again you don't recall our pride as one the Mandela Effect.

Bring it back to when things were sincere. Doing without thinking as our view of struggle starts to clear. Apparently the guys you've been with are dicks, but hey you won. Just because I have one doesn't mean I am one. You went missing like a 10 millimeter socket. I looked around like an irritated boss. Where have you been?

If you are still single, be patient. You're just right, like the perfect arrangement. Your ocean colored eyes that shine like the moon. Hair so stunning, so blond, and smooth. Personality is hard to describe, but it can be manipulated. Yeah, you fucked me up, but you still deserve what comes your way. Playing those games that I've bought put them on display, but oh I'm shady like the color gray.

I'm giving thanks like the end of a prayer. Wish I've fucked you though like dog when he's spots the one to go. Fantasizing on making your legs shake, and vibrate. Cum, and moan while you're smiling with a tomato face. Wish you've seen plus it would have destroyed you. Pressure that will roll your eyes, and make your back go obtuse.

I still don't understand how you can be so cold to someone who tries. Hey, you know what's best. I can't change a mind that's not mine. I wanted us to never stop like a running nose, but you ignored me, and jumped onto someone else since their weight is apparently more valuable than your own.

I saw Harry Potter by the way, and love the series. Seen all the movies, it was more expensive than Beaufort cheese. Could have seen it with you unravel your passions while we sit. Apparently I'm not your type though you prefer the average bitch.

I missed our love before a feeling that's been tossed. Onto the abyss ripped up, and lost. In a block of ice that is enforced, but won't defrost. Releasing stress like an average exhaust. Yet here I go all innocent without desire. A lack of intimacy that catches on fire. Climbing a rope that was acquired. To then balance myself on barbed wire.

Yet inside I'm shattered like the screen of an iphone. So torn to know I ruined what was built, and grown. Our future was destroyed like a ripped condom. Second chances are nice, but like the feds you gave no fucks so you get what's coming then some. Love is hard to find, just stay on your grind. You gave me hope, but stabbed me with rejections as silence was intertwined. That's fine shit happens I stretched pain through time. Plus an eye for an eye, and the world would go blind.