Disappear

Author’s Note: I got inspired to write this story by a dance, I’ll post a link to the dance at the end of the video. This does not have anything to do with the prompt.

It feels like I’m drowning, but I have no idea where the air is, or which way to go. I just want to go to sleep but there’s this pounding pain in my chest and it’s keeping me awake. Please get me out of here, so I can just disappear. I don’t have a family or a house. I get bullied by the rich kids that come down the alley I live in just to taunt me. I wish I could just disappear from my life, from this world. I don’t think anyone will notice I’m gone. I already am gone. I look up at the sky, from where I am, it looks polluted and you can’t see many stars. I close my eyes and try to get some rest, but I just hear the pain pounding in my chest. Please get me out of here, so I can just disappear from my life, a voice inside me screams. 

After a restless night, I decide to go for a walk back to where I used to live. As I walk down the street of my old house, I wonder if my parents will let me back in. They kicked me out years ago because I wasn’t perfect. They believe everything and everyone has to be perfect. I absolutely hated it, but I’d give anything just to feel like I’m actually living again. I hope if they do let me in, that they won’t throw me out no matter what they know. I arrive at my old house, it’s big and white. I look inside the big window that looks into the dining room, and I see a table with my mom, my dad, and a girl. I don’t recognize the girl. She can’t be my sister; I never had a sister. 

I walk over to the door and knock. I see my mom get up and walk to the door. She opens it. I feel hope for once in my life. She looks at me confused with a tense look, once she realizes who I am her expression softens up a bit. I give an innocent smile, and she touches my bruised face. I flinch as she does so. 

“Who's at the door?” My dad asks. “What’s wrong?” I wonder if they’ll let me back in. 

“It’s no one,” my mom replies back and slams the door in my face. Of course, I’m upset, I feel betrayed but what could’ve I expected? They threw me out, why would they let me back in? I walk back over to the window and watch my family or what used to be my family finish up their breakfast. My mom kisses the girl on the head, before sitting down again. I realize that the girl is wearing the same outfit as me, just mine is dirtier and has blood, dirt, and grass stains all over it. She even has the same bow in her hair except hers isn’t torn. She looks like she could be my twin. We have the same eyes and hair. Is she supposed to be me? Did I wander into a different world where things are different? Whatever, it doesn’t matter anymore. I’m gone. I just need to disappear. 

I quickly remember that there’s a river nearby. That river is famous for people drowning in. Nobody’s ever survived falling in. I run all the way to the very rocky and deep river. I don’t and won’t care if they're waiting. I’m just fine drifting away. Don’t care if they're crying.

I jump in. I don’t scream, I just hold my breath. I’m freezing but stay under. This water’s just like air. I close my eyes and disappear… 

This story was very short and sad. I hope you liked it! Please comment on how I can improve my writing and what you like and dislike about this story! 

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