Final Goodbye... Or See You Later

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Friendship

As many of you know, I will not be here during the summer. There is a chance that I will return, either on this account or a new one. So, because of this, I left a little free verse poem/story for you guys. Enjoy <3

I browsed the web, the pain of betrayal still fresh-

I just wanted somewhere I can be myself,

Where I can have friends who think like me,

People who actually care about me,

Unlike the traitors they have here-

I clicked link after link, the same message coming up-

Blocked

Blockedย 

Blocked

I reworded my search-

Blocked

Blocked

Blocked

Restrictions everywhere,

Whether from my parents or the school,

I was always held back

I clicked a link,ย 

Waiting for the message to pop up so I can finally give up

Iโ€™m about to leave when the page loads,

The message nowhere in sight-

The website was labeled โ€œReedsyโ€

A community full of writers-

Filled with excitement,

I wrote my first story

Of roses and jewels

Expecting to not get noticed-

I come back

To my first like

And my first comment

From a person named Danny

We talked, we laughed, and for once in my life,

I felt wanted

I felt loved

From there, it grew-

One like, two likes,

Five, ten, twenty-

More and more comments

Complimenting my work

Wanting to be friends

Story after story formed on the page

Coming alive for others to marvel

I became familiar with upvotes

And bios

Random conversations

Roleplays

Reedsy-casts

And collabs

I became known

For my stories

And my cliffhangers

And my love for killing characters

Along with the readers hearts

Then, I clicked a link in someoneโ€™s bio

For a doc called Scribbls

And from there, I found more people

More friends to call my own

An easier way to converse

I became more comfortable

More trusting

To these people whose real namesย 

I donโ€™t even know

Whose faces

I've never seen

Then, I found Remind

Another link that actually worked

Where restrictions canโ€™t reach

And freedom lies

I made more friends,

Talked to more people

And became comfortable enoughย 

To reveal more about me

It started with initials

Then my name

Then my backstory

And it grew into videos

Full of hand reveals,

Face reveals,

Voice reveals,

Everything reveals

Because I finally felt

I could trust someone

And I finally felt

That I found friends

So many friends

So many loving people

Who stayed through my worst

Which is more than I can say for the traitors

I met so many people

Starting with that one Danny Dorito

And spreading

To a Maya Yam

An Ace Liggins

A Hose Jose

Shiny 1.0, 2.0, and 3.0

The universal love-interest Ethan

A butterfly Celeste

An Issy Caasi Norra

A bluejay

A Varsha wolf

A lily pad

A lil SiSi

An Aerinn Bean

A Skybelle

Some billien love

A lil Queenie

A Sarah Flower

A BeeBee Ross

A friendly Cookiie

A Tru Sorcerer

A Whit Jones

A flaming Phoenix

An ivy mommy

A wolfie mommy

And so many moreโ€ฆ

All of these people

Made my day

Brought light into my life

Even through my darkest times

And it brings me tears

That I have to say goodbye

And go back to my old life

Even if just for a summer

Because I worry

What if this is my last?

What if I will never type rip

Or laugh at the screen

Talk about boys

Or compare crushes

No more reveals

Or meetings on zoom

No more avocado meelk

Or rabbits and deer

No more of the family

I formed on Reedsy

...I donโ€™t want to leave

I just want to stay

This is my fantasy

My eternal dream

All dreams fade

But I will never forget

The love that Iโ€™ve had

On this single website

Thank you, Ivy Mommy, for the meelk and the love. For the prayers and encouragement, no matter how many times I yeet kitty in your face. I will always be your daughter, and you will always be my ivy mommy <3.

Thank you, Wolfie mommy, for teaching me to hunt and always loving me. Maybe my tail will grow in when we meet again, if not here then in heaven. I will always be your little Alaska <3.

Thank you, Jose, for the roleplays that always made me laugh. I will miss you and kitty, but I will miss you a lot more <3.

Thank you, Danny, for being my first friend and showing me what itโ€™s like to have one. Iโ€™ll never forget your kindness.

Thank you, Isaac, for the words and the fun. You were there during all the food fights, all the locker incidents that dubbed me the Resident Locker Rat. No matter how you feel about yourself, you are loved and appreciated, and donโ€™t you ever forget that.

Thank you, Jay, for the #devilsssss and the fun that we had. Our little group will live on forever.

Thank you, Lily, for being by my side always. Your work is amazing, you were always there when the tears fell.<3

Thank you, Bill, for your billien love. Your crackhead energy always made my day.ย 

Thank you, Phoenix, for the mini roleplay and the fun and encouragement, and even your little secret. I will miss you so much when I leave <3.

Thank you, Anne, for the times we had together. You have a bootiful arm and bracelet, and the wall reveal was amazing as well. Keep flying lil skybelle.

Thank you, Beebee, for always being by my side. You are beautiful and donโ€™t let anyone think otherwise. I love you so much <3.

I wish I could stay

But now is my time

I must depart

Maybe for the last time

If you need to hear my words,ย 

Or maybe some encouragement,

Remember Wear Your Crown

And know that Iโ€™ll always be there

Please remember me

Your Resident Locker Rat

Your Abidoodle

The Abbie Patty of Doom

And the lil Rati

The Draci of Cliffhangers

Never forget me

Because Iโ€™ll never forget you

<3

May 22, 2021 19:11

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Sia S
07:46 May 26, 2021

I'm not your friendddddddddd???? Lol, YASSSS YOUR BACKK

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Sia S
15:53 May 26, 2021

lol it's fine I was kidding TVT shEEEEsHHH sorry just remembered that audio again XD

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Lilliane Wei
18:41 May 23, 2021

Hey, sis, I'm sorry I'm so late, I was away for the weekend. I came back to this and it's so touching, thank you. So...I guess I better say goodbye. You are one of the truest and kindest people I have ever known so this isn't a goodbye exactly, I'm here to say thank you. Thank you for trusting me with your stories and life. Thank you for making me laugh until I cry. Thank you for talking away hours of the day. Thank you for all the memories that I'll never forget. Have a great summer and I know I'll see you again. Strength and love, Lily

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Lilliane Wei
15:38 May 24, 2021

Of course, come back soon!!

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Valerie June
00:56 May 23, 2021

I gotta admit, I was sniffling a bit when I read this. Iโ€™ll be waiting for you when you return. Whether itโ€™s on here, in Heaven, or somewhere else. *sniff* ๐Ÿ˜ข Iโ€™m sure this isnโ€™t the last Iโ€™ll see of you! But endings are also new beginnings. ๐Ÿฅฒ Thank you for being a part of my life. I will never forget you. See you later Abigator. *salutes*

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Valerie June
23:18 May 26, 2021

That's a pretty good plan, but I don't think I'd be nice enough to do. Survival of the fittest! And I plan to be the fittest. XD Well, unless things change then I might help someone else win. I'm sure you'd love "The Land of Stories." Haha, yes. Our species are slowly dying out. :( About our role play.......... I want to start the next part, but I don't know how and am kinda lazy to do so. XDDD Also, which platform should we do it on? (I was thinking maybe via text because it doesn't have the 30 minute screen time like Pinterest.)

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Kazumi Mishima
22:36 May 22, 2021

Adiรณs, mi amiga. I really loved this. I'm glad I was able to help you a little bit during your rough patches; it's the least I could do. And yes, our accidental role-play that time WAS a lot of fun! Just know that whether you come back or not, this phoenix will be flaming even brighter for you. ๐Ÿ”ฅ

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๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ o,n,o I donโ€™t want you to goooooo :โ€™( Iโ€™ll miss you argh ๐Ÿ˜ค this was so sweet and TvT Keep going strong <3333 - Amethyst

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Ahhh Ill miss youuu Totally not offened because I didn't get a shoutout lol *and I mean it. Not sassy-like* I am the butterfly :'''''''''''''''') *cri* Andddddd pls remember me and everyone love yourself Celeste <3 *ILLL MISSS YOU* D''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''';

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ahh sorryyyy i only did a few people TvT here is your shoutout right here: Thank you, Celeste, for the laughs and the love that kept me living. Everytime I see a butterfly I'll remember you. Keep flying <3. ill remember you alwayssssssss

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Sunny ๐ŸŒผ
20:30 May 22, 2021

ABBIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII bye bye! ilym dangit I don't wanna wait an entire summer- i'll try to find you on Pinterest hiduwficgevwgi have a good summer! hope to see you again soon ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’• ("The universal love-interest Ethan" that was actually hilarious lmao)

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Sunny ๐ŸŒผ
02:52 May 23, 2021

weee 1. ur art is amazing omg I love it- Like LOOK at the COLORING 2. if it isn't too much work, i'd love for you to draw Lumi!

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tysmmmm its not too good quality cuz i tok a pic of it off my personal computer then my phone so i got double glare and extra blur but STILL yesss ofc! ill get to it and show u after the summer :) ima miss u <3

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Sunny ๐ŸŒผ
11:49 May 23, 2021

me tooooooooo <3

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Sunny ๐ŸŒผ
11:49 May 23, 2021

me tooooooooo <3

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Sunny ๐ŸŒผ
18:34 May 23, 2021

oh btw, i sent you a follow request on insta. I'm blu_skies 04

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19:48 May 22, 2021

I think that the hardest part of goodbye is knowing that you might never see that person again. Whether you come back or not, your legacy is planted in Reedsy. You have your profile, your stories, your collabs, and the stories that were dedicated to you. I'll never forget you, and I'll miss you a lot. Even when things get hard, remember that God is always with you! I hope I see you again, Rati. <3

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:((( AWW, i feel like im gonna cry... Aww, abbs im reallyyyy gonna missss uuuuuu :(( *Trying hard not to cry* Ur the best thing I've ever met and im so happy to have met u, and I can feel ur pain, and how u felt. No matter what, im here for u. even if its in video call or in remind, or just in my heart, i'll never forget u โค๏ธ โค๏ธ :(

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TJ Squared
00:21 Jun 11, 2021

feel free not to respond to this (obviously) but I just wanted to say that Lost Boys is always in my mind, and I even sing harmony to it sometimes. my point is that I'm definitely missing ya <3

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Valerie June
06:13 Jun 11, 2021

Ummmmm, I'm super sorry for being da comment stalker I am, but yeah.... Anyway, that's exactly how I feel. I rarely listen to songs and the only two I'll ever play on purpose is the theme song to "Miraculous" and "Lost Boys." And Abbie showed me both of them. Her memory lives on! Viva la reina. :') *internally weeping*

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TJ Squared
15:23 Jun 11, 2021

yeah, same tho

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Valerie June
16:02 Jun 11, 2021

Mhm...

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Awh this summer is going to feel so long T-T ill miss you <3 ill imagine how our roleplay ends this whole summer until the day we can continue <333 in my reedsy cast ur character shall survive i promise <3333333 you're an amazing writer and an amazing friend on here <3333333333333 *sniff sniff*

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17:27 May 23, 2021

*SNIFFFFFFFFFFFFFF* It's like impossible to make me cry but you have yet again accomplished a feat once dubbed impossible (I think we're both used to my overdramaticness by now) I'll miss you Abs, but I'll always be here for you when you come back (you HAVE to come back to visit us we'll miss you so much aaah iegniwg) And now we part my fellow Cat noir simp, I shall remember and cherish my memories with you forever <33 Just remember that you're awesome and one of the best friends ever :'''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''') โค Goodbye Abiga...

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Philia S
06:21 May 23, 2021

Hey Draci!!!! I'm not going to lie, I almost cried while reading this...and I smiled so hard at the same time, I just can't describe the mix of emotions I felt....Remember, I will never forget you, NEVER. And I felt that trust part, Reedsy has its ups and downs, but all the ups we've felt just overshadow the downs.... Love you Draci, Remember, there is a whole community of writers backing you, Stay strong and chin up! Love you!!

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TJ Squared
19:29 May 22, 2021

reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy areeeeeeeeeeeeee goodbyessssssssssssssss soooooooooooooooooooo hardddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee I will always always always alwaysssssssss remember you ALWAYSSSSSSSSSSSs there is no literal way for you to be forgotten. No. Literal. Way. lkjhgfghjhgvcxdfghjkjhbvfcdsdrtyuikjhgfcdfg...

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<3 "the two hardest things to say are hello for the first time and goodbye for the last" "dont cry because its over, smile because it happened" "how blessed i am for having someone that makes saying goodbye so hard" me neither, i will ALWAYS remember my wolfie mommy <3 never forget. ever.

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TJ Squared
19:37 May 22, 2021

yesh agreed <33333333 ;lkjhgfdghjhgfghjhgftyujhbvfrtyjnbvcdfrtghgfd <333333333333333333

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TJ Squared
00:59 Jul 28, 2021

Reading back through this story and all, I can definitely see that God was working. I mean, He always is, but this time, it was just noticeable. *sniff* I'm just trying to say that I'm definitely missing you, and I've kinda started using these comments as a little 'ranting spot' for me. It's already July, and August is coming up fast. I'm at a loss for words currently, but I guess thanks. Thanks for always being open and available and considerate.

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TJ Squared
23:29 Aug 21, 2022

*proceeds to read this story yet againโ€ฆ* *tries not to re-live the good olโ€™ days* i miss this part of you <3

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Sia S
06:25 Jul 17, 2022

U here?

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20:33 Jan 10, 2022

Hey, good story. Like always :P Just wanted to let you know I've written two new stories if you wanna check them out. It's been a hot minute since I've been active lol...But I'm back yay :)

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Beverly Riddle
02:48 Oct 11, 2021

You are very talented with writing. I hope you don't permanently leave this website cause you are an amazing writer. You should try to publish books.

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Sia S
14:34 Aug 16, 2021

You bac?

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