Muted Diary

HEY HEY HEYYY!!! This isn’t really related to the prompt but it kinda is so yeah. Also, it isn’t really funny. It is funny...ish… Anyways, hope you like my story!!! (Please don't judge the title btw ^^)

9th November 2020-

Sophia asked me to hang out today but me being myself, I couldn’t say anything. I just said ‘no’, turned around and walked away. After I quite rudely declined her invitation, Sophia, with a confused look on her face, turned around and walked away with her friends. I bet they think I am a weirdo, which I am; a weirdo who can’t even socialise with people. It was always like that, someone nice wants to be my friend and then I decline. Sometimes, I don’t even answer; I just walk away. Since I can't socialise with people, I spent my time making up conversations in my head. I usually write them down in my diary too. Lemme find one of them- 

“Hey Charli! Do you wanna hang out today?” I asked. 

“Sure! Can Avery and Charlotte come too?” she answered.

“Of course! Let’s meet up at the mall at 4 after school,” I replied, smiling. 

“Alrighty! I’ll let Avery and Charlotte know.” Charli beamed, clapping her hands together. 

That was one from...last year when I made my New Year resolution to socialise with people more. Words can’t describe how horribly that went. 

Anyways, I don’t want to go to school tomorrow because rumours will spread about today’s incident. I might tell Mum that I feel sick but a weirdo like me can’t even talk to her own parents properly. Yes, I am that weird. URGH! It is time to start begging my mum. 

Well that didn’t work out. I asked no...begged my mum to let me stay at home tomorrow but she said I needed to learn social skills. That was when I completely lost it. I wanted to scream at her 

“SOCIAL SKILLS? I AM ALREADY HORRIBLE AT IT, IF I TRY, I WILL JUST MAKE A FOOL OF MYSELF! I JUST EMBARRASSED MYSELF IN FRONT OF THE WHOLE SCHOOL TODAY AND I STILL HAVE TO GO TO SCHOOL TOMORROW? ARE YOU CRAZY?” Sadly, I didn’t have the courage to say that so I just ran back to my room without a word. 

*Sigh* 

Today was a really long day. 

10th November 2020-

Some people stared at me today for some reason. I guess it was about yesterday’s incident when I didn’t want to hang out with Sophia. Also, guess what? Sophia’s ‘friends’ just bullied me in the bathroom this morning. I never had the strength to fight back to bullies so that’s why I was usually the main target for bullying. Even if you did report it to the teachers, they do nothing about it. Teachers say they will fix it but they don’t...I wonder why. I bet they don’t care about us at all. I think they just want their money and not deal with teenage school drama. 

I can’t even say how much I hate school. All the bullies are like

“SOPHIA WAS NICE TO YOU YESTERDAY! WHY WERE YOU SO RUDE?! SOPHIA THIS SOPHIA THAT.” 

Did I mention that Sophia was the most popular girl in our school? She even has a fan club like...WHAAA??? Honestly, those people are even crazier than me. They not only have shirts that have her face printed on it, but they even sell it at school. I took one of the posters since they are plastered everywhere. I’ll stick it in. 

I know...those people are crazy. Imagine having to deal with them every day 🙄🙄🙄. Not to mention most of the people in her fan club are guys. That includes the fan club ‘founder’ and it’s ‘co-founder’. 

11th November 2020- 

I still had to go to school today. Now, everyone is staring and whispering, very loudly. They are all like 

“OMGGG! It is her, the girl who talked rudely to Sophia. How dare she! Sophia is so nice. What is wrong with her.” Well, that was the popular girls. 

The guys are like “How dare she insult Sophia. I bet that lowlife girl is just jealous because Sophia is so pretty.”

Pretty much everyone was “Sophis this Sophia that.” Her name just made me feel sick since it was repeated so many times. I usually see Sophia strutting down the hallway but then she sees me and pretends to have a breakdown. Even worse, SOPHIA IS IN MY CLASS!! URGHH!! Can life get any worse? 

Well, the answer is yes because people were reporting me for bullying and oh...my...gawddddddd. The principal is so mean! I have reported at least half of my class for bullying me and now I am the evil one? Nah, I am actually the victim like REEEEEE!!! 

***That is me raging***

***Sigh***

I didn’t say anything cause I didn’t want to cause any trouble so I just nodded my head and left the principal’s office. I guess I will be the gossip for a good few weeks. 

Hey, it is like 8 at night now and I was thinking about what would have happened if I could stand up for myself. I could’ve screamed at the principal and bullies but again, that would stir trouble. I honestly don’t know what to do. My parents will think I am making things up so I don’t have to go to school and I have no friends at school. Even though I am alone in my room, I feel like I have so many friends yet when I am in a class full of students, I feel so lonely. Urgh. I really need to stop rambling on. I guess this is life. 

I should try to solve things tomorrow...if I get the chance to even talk to Sophia at least. Alrighty, I’m going to go read my book before I hit the hay. Nothing is better than some good character development. 

P.S. Here are some conversation I WISH I had- 

“Hey Sophia! Sorry about a few days ago. I wasn’t thinking straight and I had quite a lot of things on my mind.” I mumbled.

“Oh! That is alright! Come join us for lunch!” Sophia replied, smiling as she tucked her golden hair behind her ear. 

“Really? Thanks!” I replied, clapping my hands with joy.

“Of course! No problem!” Sophia answered, turning away. 

P.P.S. That will never happen. Never in a million years.