Giving it Up

About three years ago we were asked to be prince and princess. We had no option because it had been a family tradition for so long. I thought I would get away with it. Being a princess and a prince is a lot of work. My prince is all I have here that understands me. We both never wanted this life for us as it just isn't for us. I have thought about leaving but I would have to give up my people and the thrown to escape. I have so much respect for them and they will see me as a traitor. Im not happy anymore, said Princess Ruby.

I have decided to talk to my father about this, but I will only expect negative comments and threats. As I walk to my father he is playing chess with his friends. He always loved the idea of me being a princess, when it came to be he was so happy for me. I have never disappointed him in my life and always was sincere to him. As I walk to him he hugs me and asks me if everything is going good.

I was nervous and my heart was beating faster than ever. I have never felt this way. I knew from here on now that my dad will not see me the same. I told him "I love you." He gave me a kiss on my forehead. I told him I had to talk to him and that it was about me.

As he wonders what is going on, he had thought it was about me being pregnant. I tell him, "Its about being a princess," He said "is something going wrong that I am not aware of." I tell him how I feel and the situation. "I just dont want to be a princess anymore." He had never looked at me so mad and surprised.

His tone was increasing. "If you dont want to be princess I dont want to see you here. You lost me and your mom." I knew I had to give up the most valuable things in my life which was my family.

I cried and told him if thats how he saw it well then I shall go.

I explained everything and decided to walk away. I ignored what he said and went to think. I had never walked far in my life. I knew I had to explain to my people what I have done and my future for now on.

My mom was not aware of this situation. The day after she still had not clue and thought my father would have already told her. As I passed by my dads sight he would not look at me or look me in the eyes if I tried to talk to him about something else. I couldn't talk about my day with him or couldn't ask him how his day was going.

The day after my mom had asked me why I haven't been around my father as I used to. I had to say that I have been busy because I have been helping out the town. My prince had asked me what had happened. I told him that it did not go great. He had already expected that and wanted to know what was next.

As we talked my dad passed through our conversation. He usually gets happy when he sees the prince but this time he stared and walked away. I had gotten used to it but it got to the point where I would cry and regret what I had done.

I had told my prince that we couldn't leave yet we had to wait a little bit longer and we will know when the time will come. The town had gotten very busy. I helped out my town as I really loved giving out and seeing how they were doing. It was sad that I knew one day I would leave and the same people that support me will not one day.

Everynight I stayed up looking at the stars thinking and asking myself if I should say sorry to my father and tell him I won't leave anymore. All I cared about was them and my relationship to them. They were my other half in this world. But this was just not my thing. I loved helping people and showing who I am but faking my happiness was not it anymore. I wanted my worth and find myself.

We did not know where to go before we had planned to leave. We always thought we could leave easily but that was just not the case anymore. It was harder then we both expected.

Being a princess was all I knew how to do. I knew in the outside world of what I live in there was people that were happy. People that lived life. Thats what I wanted. I knew I could go back to school which is what I had always wanted. I wanted to be a nurse. I had always loved helping people out and becoming a nurse was what I thought I would become.

A week later, I had already knew my plans. A Tuesday night when everyone was asleep I packed my stuff as tears were coming down my face. The words of my father kept replaying in my head. I packed some clothes and looked back one more time. I had left a note. I looked at my town and said sorry silently. I felt really bad and I knew they needed me. I wanted them to understand how I felt but I knew they wouldn't understand me. A princess is a princess. A prince is a prince. They shouldn't leave because thats what they became. I had thought they wouldn't understand because they had an idea about that. I walked away with my prince gave him a kiss. Looked back one more time and whispered, giving it up. I knew my life would change and I would accomplish many things and sadly not by my father and mother by my side.