Journey

It's time to float and flow🚗🛻🚚🚛🚙 the mountains 🏞️what a scenery the grass trees 🌳🌳dirt hills and large boulders 🪨🪨sitting on both sides of the road which I'm traveling 🚗🛻🚙on the highway 🛣️ I am headed on a journey traveling 🚗🛻🚙down highway 🛣️ 888 Z taking nothing but my purse 👜 and a jacket 🧥 and my positive energy⚡ and vibes no longer trapped in that black hole 🕳️ of life I'm 🛻🚙🚛🚗🚛🚚headed on a journey of peacefulness and self love,I have let go of the past everything it took me a couple of years 📅to reach this goals it was not an 🛌overnight decision but a plan📝 .

This plan started after I had gotten a divorce after 18 months of marriage my 🕺Ex was not willing to leave 🌆 the night life he felt it was everything , I didn't try to persuade,negotiate or compromise my peace I realigned my values and started putting my plan 📝together we were no longer 2 but a house 🏠 divided everyone for themselves, during this time I didn't talk or discuss my plans with anyone I didn't want any negative opinions especially from those who live life by what they see only 👀 not feel, I had opened my 3rd eye 👁️yes there are 3 eyes 👁️ the third one is your intuition that sits in the middle of the forehead your intuition,gut feeling sometimes ignored due to illusion of what is that really not (example) leaving your home 🏠 the same time for work but your gut feeling your third eye (intuition) say tonight is the night take the night off , so I return home after an hour and what I felt inside of your stomach was finally released I felt he was being extra today he insisted on going to the store he returned with said items new boxers ,a bed in a bag and new towels let's not forget the bathroom set we each have our own bathroom at first I said "he finally changing things up"and what put the nails in the coffin ⚰️ he brought me a seafood boil yes I never turn down a meal but this meal usually put me down for a nap no more than 2 hours I didn't eat it I saved it for later he was big mad🤬

So he had a special night 🌉 planned so I made my mind up about what was about to happen tonight for him for us that would change things forever , I had foreseen the up coming events, I was ready all the illusion had been broken my gut feeling were right but at the home 🏡 we share, I was celibate when we married inexperienced I admit but with him it was not what he had claimed it would be and do to me LOL 🤣 😆 😭 😆 😭.

So now it's getting late into the evening while he panicking and checking his watch ⌚ I'm setting up my 🛀bubble bath as I walked passed him headed to the fridge to grab my bottle 🍾 wine I pour me a glass 🍷 as his facial expression changed from that devilish😈 grin to a puzzle 🤔look he asked don't you work tonight?I responded "that would be my business "I had planned my evening 🌆 according to his my first step to keep every action of mines secretly so he didn't see me put into the wine 🍾 in the freezer 😁.

Now I'm entering my room locking my door 🚪 and headed to my bathroom to relax and soak as I pounder on the actions I'm about to take I am finally ready to close this chapter out and start my journey of peace and balanced leaving everything behind I am through living in a home 🏡 built off outer surface and finance no peace,no pleasure no loyalty.So tonight is the night for both of us, I'm smiling as I think of the look on his face because he is throwed off and maybe even shook ,I have not had a drink of 🍷 in almost 6 months and celibate longer, I can tell you right now he thinks I'm getting ready for him he thinks I'm going to surprise him tonight he really don't know he didn't think 🤔 what if she don't go to work tonight, because I have never missed a day even when I was under the weather 🤕 things like headaches a little discomfort to the bones, so I didn't have a headache and no discomfort to my bones.

Now I'm out the tub and got dressed my work uniform 🧑‍⚕️ I was a night nurse in the ER so just wanted to put that stupid grin back on his face 😈 before leaving to bring his confidence back about his plans for tonight, he really over did it when he shut the garage door I barely made it out the garage, I have to check my bumper for a nick LOL 😆 😭 😆 😭 he singing tonight is the night 🌉, and I'm saying in my mind when I return I won't be alone and I will be quiet 🤫 as I enter I hear the shower 🚿 going as I slip through the patio door I had turned the alarm 🚨 off earlier knowing he wouldn't check because he has plans tonight 🕺🌹🍓🍇🍾🥂🍽️ he had set the dining room table up really nice soft music 🎵 🎶 playing on the TV screen jazz he classy tonight 😆.

9:00 pm his phone ringing I hear him running the phone 📱 I take it the night 🌉 will begin shortly let me get ready for my entrance I will wait until his guest arrives I will be waiting in my room and I'm not alone tonight will be the final straw and the exit 🏞️ I had planned will be executed tonight so let the show begin,my gut feeling had been warning me for awhile but I was under an illusion that I was his wife👫 not his side chick 🐥 so since he has taken actions to entertain in our home 🏡 tonight it would be an equal exchange 😁.9:30 I hear the door 🚪 open and he still upstairs so he left the door 🚪 open for his guest I have to correct myself for his guests will leave it at that so he planned a party party 🎉 🎉 🎉 I'll let them get comfortable in the meantime I'll put on something more comfortable as they party making noises laughing and slurring their words I knew it wouldn't be long because they our in his room so I went into my room where my guest was waiting as he was in his room he was so loud he didn't hear me at the end of the hall when I heard them whining down I quickly got myself together and put on my uniform and let my guest out I entered the house through the garage and went upstairs quietly and opened his door there they lay bunched up together clothes everywhere as they focus their eyes 👀 👀 👀 👀 👀 on me 1 of my cousin and her 2 friend and 1 of his home boy they looked at me a look of shame 😔 😔 😔 😔 😔 I smiled because nobody knows I was entertaining as well I don't regret it because it would be awhile before it would happen again I have a plan that doesn't include anything from my past, so I stood there and looked into everyone 👀 👀 👀 👀 👀 eyes and I turned away and smiled feeling at peace because I finally used my intuition and ended this marriage I didn't speak a word just turned around and left I could hear them getting their belongings I waited at the front door 🚪 as they left, I looked at him and he begin to explain I said it's okay things were over you got needs I get it, I'm not mad or upset I have no I'll feeling towards you we just didn't have the same ending goals, don't get me wrong I like to party 🎉 🎉 but it's not a passion,must or something I can't live without.

So it 3:00 am and I just turned away and entered the garage got into my car 🚗 and headed down the block and my phone rings it was a friend so I picked up and before I knew it I was crying 😭 out of control I headed to get me a room for the rest of the night I explained to my friend I explained I just needed to be alone to get me some rest because I knew tomorrow I would finally begin my journey I say a new life because now I'm using my 3rd eye my intuition no more second guessing.I had told my friend where I was staying and I would chat with them in the morning 🌄 as I filled the tub with hot water to soak I was getting text messages from my ex I finally turned my phone off 📴 and soak for an hour I wasn't out the tub 15 minutes before there was a knock on the door 🚪 it was my friend I was a little mad I should have known they would show up to offer comfort but I was at peace as I explained I was I had to see for myself I responded thank you for your concern so of course they brought some wine 🍾 and we chatted we cried a little and laughter alot I hadn't laughed till my stomach hurt 😂 😆 in a long time before I knew it the night 🌉 had turned into the morning 🌄 we dranked 4 bottles of wine 🍾 🍾🍾🍾🍸🍸 the morning here as well as an appetite we ordered food and I decided to stay until Thursday it's Wednesday morning 🌄 I will start my journey Friday early morning 🌄 I will depart from everything and everyone of my past.I decided to leave my phone off 📴 because I will be getting a new phone and phone I have no family my mom left me for a better life they told me.

Now I'm staying in a hotel 🏨 for one more day and my friend hasn't left my side we talk but I never let them know my plans I don't trust anyone at this point seeing my cousin was a let down but I guess it shouldn't matter because I was adopted into her family but I thought we had a bond or at least an understanding as we chat this chatter box was finishing for answers I didn't understand until they said something and I knew it was a trap set by my cousin she was her friend as well so I played along 🤫 I said okay we want something to report I'll give you a mouth full but I bet you won't give all the details of the actions that were made, so now I'm saying okay how can I leave with getting even with them all so I started to think 🤔 they needs to contact my cousin to report.

The exit plan 📝 I really enjoyed last night it had been awhile, I had to decide which one of my guests did I really find fulfillment even if it just was temporary, I sent my friend to the store for food and wine 🍾 I told them I just wanted to relax this evening 🌆 and watch tv📺 , so I noticed upon returning my friend vibe was different they wouldn't allow my glass 🍷 to be empty,I went a long , I wasn't slipping or tripping but when I looked into the fridge it was a seafood boil, the one I left at the house how did it get in the fridge I was told you asked for it last night I didn't remember because it never happened.

So my ex and cousin was setting me up for something because he knows the seafood boil knocks me out for a couple of hours, I must stay alert so I have slowed down on the wine and I have indulge into this seafood boil and I noticed I'm the only one eating,it didn't bother me I proceeded and finished the whole thing by myself now I'm falling into nap mold so I asked my friend to leave so I could get my nap so as they head to the door 🚪 I said I will call you later on .

As I looked as my friend entered the elevator 🛗 I closed the door and laid down on the couch 🛋️ and fell asleep 🥱 after an hour I head to the bed 🛏️ now I'm sleep about 30 minutes I can't focus someone has entered my room as I get up to enter the living room it's my friend it startled me at first but I figured it was part of their plan so I quickly got myself in aligned to play so of course here comes the wine 🍾 I can't eat anything else so that's good I won't get drunk so after awhile we ended in the room and it was a knock on the door it was my guest from last night so I decided why not I will enjoy this so I went along and I had charged my phone and I had dailed my cousin and ex on conference call and let them listen 👂 as the party 🎉 🎉 began I couldn't believe they were still on the phone as I closed out this session of deception, I had realized that I was not experienced enough for my ex I had allowed myself to experience what had torn my marriage apart 💔 it was his lustfulness instead of communicating his desire he felt betraying our marriage was a gamble he would take.

The session had been on going until the morning 🌄 we all woke with a smile on our face then because they think they have something on me but I had in fact let my cousin and ex hear the deception so when they leave and report I'll be in my car heading on my journey I didn't pack anything I left after taking my bath I only took my purse 👜 and the clothes I'm wearing I didn't look back once I pulled out of the parking lot it was done I had turned my phone 📱 back on because I knew I would receive some unpleasant phone calls from the ex and my cousin, the first call I was being accused of cheating ,I denied it because it was trying I was faithful through it all even knowing that him desires were not with me so the next call my cousin she was upset that her special friend had been special to me all night 🌉 long ,how could you,I said the same way you was in my ex bed I returned the favor after the 2 calls I had the phone shut off because I had delivered to them the same action they delivered to me to shay😁I headed to gas station ⛽ then to purchase me a new 📱 phone after that I headed to highway 🛣️ 888 Z to freedom peace of mind and a free spirit.I have been using crystal to balance my charkas, I started this years ago to align my mind, body and soul so I could become whole again inside and out as I look at the mountains 🏞️ I imagine being on top in peace along only coming down for necessary items material items I don't require a lot to survive,I had always been on survival mode since being adopted,I tried my best to stay independent, so this is the beginning of my plan 📝 where am I headed I haven't decided I'll just move around until somewhere feels like home 🏡 built on morals and self value I'm about to reach Arizona my first stop, I will get me a room at the hotel until I make my mind up if I want to stay,I will take my time and look around and check out neighborhoods in the morning and night to get a feel of the vibes, so for now Ill float and flow 🚗 through this journey in Arizona until I feel the need to float and flow in another direction.

Float and Flow!!!!!!!!!