EXHILARATION

8th MARCH 2021  , 11:15pm

A tall figure sat near the window, hazel eyes staring into the shadows lurking in the night.

The moonlight traced her sharp features. Unkempt long blonde hair covered her back , plump lips dripping blood.Her bruised body was nothing compared to her broken heart. As trees swayed in a melancholic rhythm, she spiralled into her thoughts, with one question in mind , "Where did it all go wrong?"

17th APRIL 2002

A bubbly three year old waddled to her mother.Her hands curled around something she deemed precious.With a wide grin plastered on her face she enthusiastically called her mother, " Mama see this, Rosie caught the first snow. Come on Mama let's make a wish.Are you angry with Rosie ? Mama! Mama!

The little girl stared into her mother's wide opened eyes without noticing the blood gushing out of the slit on her Mama's neck.

15th JUNE 2009

The blonde tween was walking home. Heart so content , she held her medal with pride.It was her first medal and firsts are always special.She entered her home carefully not without noticing a figure sprawled on the couch.The man she didn't want to call her dad layed there intoxicated. She tiptoed to her room across the hall , accidentally her medal clattered which gained the attention of the man.She froze. Everything happened so fast, all she could remember were the unclear screaming and the constant kicks on her abdomen. She clutched her blood smeared medal as black dots filled her vision.

18th JULY 2014

The wavy blonde hair complemented her angelic face , her bangs hid her eyes just as her fake smile hid her sufferings.She appeared to be calm and quiet. Her long sleeves were to cover her bruises and her constantly bandaged forehead was also a sign. But all were ignorant , no one cared , they just thought she was clumsy, just another teen going through emo phase.

She seemed happy for the outside world.

8th March 2015

For the first time in many years she smiled genuinely. She received a gift,more precisely a letter wishing her 'Happy Birthday'.A new hope bloomed in her heart. "Maybe... just maybe there is someone for me too", she thought. She was happy.

16th MAY 2016

From strangers to acquaintances to best friends to lovers , he made her numb heart feel something new. Butterflies fluttering , a giddy feeling ,he made her nervous and calm anxious and safe , it was all novel for her. For others it may seem stupid, trusting someone and giving them your heart may appear too naive ,but he was her safe place. All she yearned was a little bit of affection, a warm hand to hold her close. Her knight in shining armour - cliche? Yes , but he was her saviour , he became her happiness.

8th MARCH 2018

A new beginning in her life , dream night with her beloved.Her eyes were sparkling so was her wedding gown. Fresh flower scent and twinkling fairy lights, a veil hid her rose tinted face. With a wild beating heart she waited for her love as a shy smile etched on her face.But all that remained were wrinkled flowers, broken glasses and crimson splattered sheets. She was numb again as if all life was sucked out of her and all her dreams collapsed like a house of cards."Why can't I be happy?"

20th MAY 2020

She found a new hope. A growing life in her which she wanted to nurture with all her might. Her sunken cheeks , dark circles and petite frame everything showed how much her marriage affected her. Although her cheeks hurt and purple blotches stung her skin ,she smiled. Smile..it felt weird after a long time.She thought she will finally have someone to call hers , someone to hold close.But life was too cruel.The butcher of her baby was none other than her love.He wanted neither her baby nor her. Just wanted to see the 'pathetic being' suffer. Blood and bruises had become her constant companion. The day she lost her only light, her baby , she asked herself,"Am I not worthy to be happy?"

8th March 2021    , 11:58pm

Sudden clatter woke her up from her thoughts, there in a distance stood a little girl in white. Her smile so contagious and her giggles filled the atmosphere.The happiness of that little girl made her envy.She blinked once , twice the little girl was no more there. With a smile she stood up wiping her blood smeared face she treaded to the other end of the room. Her heels clacked on the wooden floor.Her white gown sweeping the floor, coloured itself red. She looked into the half broken mirror and brushed her hair.She spoke in a wavering voice ," Today's special.It's my birthday,remember? Oh , I forgot , I'm a pathetic being ,right? Why would you remember anything about me." She giggled , "Today is the day I met you, we were so in love , atleast I was. You know, every single day I thought that tomorrow would be better. But you stooped so low and proved me wrong. I love you". She wiped her tears and glared, "No, I loved you. I would have forgiven you but you stole my last reason to live ,you crushed by body and my heart", she screamed in agony.The light in the room flickered revealing a beaten figure in the corner.The painful grunt from the figure caught her attention.Humming a sweet lullaby, she walked to the source of her attention, "It's ok , you're gonna be okay". She took the well decorated cake from the nearby table and slowly crunched down.A small piece was cut and held to the person."Happy wedding anniversary love", whispering she caressed his face and she shoved the cake into his mouth, crimson mixed with the white frosting. She dragged the cream filled knife across his arms carving a beautiful calligraphy. Clutching the knife in her hand she neared his ears and said in a sweet voice ,"Good bye my dear". An ear piercing scream was heard as she plunged the knife in his throat.He was her beloved husband and she murdered him brutally. Thick blood flowed through the digits she carved on his body- 18/07/14, 08/03/15,16/05/16, 08/03/18,20/05/20...

Throwing the knife , she stood up and stumbled to the bed.She layed flat and stared up at the ceiling, an alluring smile made way onto her face which turned to giggles and then laughter.She avenged her baby , she avenged herself. What she did wasn't right , it wasn't the solution for her suffering but what she felt at that moment was 'exhilaration'.