Hidden love

It was During  lockdown  only I knew her inner hobby for painting.i .become engrossed in her passion about painting, she lived besides my house.she lived lonely with a child girl. , husband toured outside city regarding job work.he sometimes took a week to return home.she remained alone beside her hobby she paint on child painting book, she draw mostly upon two couple sit on garden nobody around her.some time shes uses dark paint to show her feeling and emotion.she sometimes make mask to a while away time.her child in kindergarten age group.no school open only online study was going on.she discuss mostly on painting and her life.she also shares her private love for painting,her husband sometime encourage her to paint picture ,she inclined   toward natural painting.sometime become depressed and i had talked her about her depression,she seemed like i no longer forced her to disclose her secret that she had been hidden in her mind 

It   happened by  love marriage.marriage  arranged in big hall.her marriage was a delightful ceremony she was happy with nagesh.but got bored as he travelled month out of the city.her life became dull and boring.in her life one child only support to pass loneliness.she became derailed totally.

In locdown her husband stuck another city.he could not come for a month.she was the lonely woman in the house.only neighbour could discuss her goodness.her husband sometimes called her and inquired her.

She took brush and turned herself into colour.she used it.she accustomed it.she painted well picture.sometime.i appreciate her painting .i also encourage her exhibit her painting at art gallery.she could not respond.her husband took suspense upon her.here inbuilt born creativity she had god gifted.she could happy in her world.

When she first fell in love with nagesh,she was happy with him .both was happy go lucky person.before marriage both enjoyed free life.travelled every love point.she surrendered her life.he somete crowded train standing and calling her on phone.if she could not received,he would get angry over said that she would have affair somebody.

After marriage never called her often.only one in a day.she oftenly called him.but he messaged her that he was in a meeting.

One day she was busy on whatsapp online.when was online on whatsapp status he seen her status.and called her said, 

"How long have you been chatting?"

"Nothing, just friend group chatting"

He argued with her over it.argument took divorce face.then last everything got into settlement.

She said that,"for a woman concrete wall looks like graveyard"

She painted lonely places in her painting.Sometime I asked her about  picture.picture told about her dual mentality.her loneliness.affection toward husband. 

Sometime she painted a picture of a bug who crashed into a crowded train.nobody took a look at her life.that picture meaning got known immediately.

I wanted to help her to exhibit her painting at an art gallery.my friend on facebook was a big professional painter.i showed him her painting.he appreciated.he haid first we curated well in frame.

In her painting picture she paints pco booth,i asked her about this picture she said it related her love story,behind it hide love stories,some memories, she could not disclose it, through it she could expose her inner feeling,her palpating throbbing heart beats,she narrated, her love story from starting;she told love story that is unbelievable,

"Pco stood near main road.it was basic need for all of us that time.from now ten year before communication medium was only pco,mobile was scarcely found in high salaried person.they could afford it.as i was adolescent girl family could not afford it,they could not permitted for it.

"  I would love him very much since high school.i would  love each other since school time.and his love n more became prosperous rather than remorseful.  than both sides love . but i had a mobile num of his,even though he never tried to contact me. Without him the world seemed colourless.iwas frustrated since that school send off day that was unforgettable for me.without him could not breath in and breath out or concentrate on the exam study. so  getting frustrated of,wanted him  to say something about my condition: but he could not dare to say other. he always used to come across at the high school sub lane,To say tried fail,i  never give smile to him never get expression from me ,  

"I was first and last  love for him,he loved me, but getting   frustrated, his first love was Seema that he loved since high school,but then seems father transferred to another city.he forgot her then.he remained loved me after parted with her life.

Since childhood we have lived with neighbour.she  continued her memory. He was deep rooted into his first love 

He lost old memories of what he did to her, how he brought in ice cream when she had no money. He spend his saving money pocket when she got into college he supported to admission into college and paid her college fees also 

Every day he drops her into college and pick up from college 

He brought  her to a movie show and.  Had  lunch in a five star hotel. He was spendthrift for her lavished money on

her.

Even one day she was late, he got angry at her and said; ``Why not call me to inform me.

He worship her as god being worship 

He put her photo in his purse he daily bow before her like slave of love

He never touch her or even take her kiss on her request .when both went  to love garden or sea beach she always forced  him to bring hand on her s

Shoulder but he hesitated and he 

Was getting shied away.

I first time touched by him,first time hugged him,i have never ever was talked as day i so closed side by side.i clutch got h his hand in my hand his touch very closely.she sent sms that she was waiting at kurla rickshaw stand,that time was in the seep room,i got read the five minute caught train.in train i called him that begged for guilty,i got off kurla ,he was standing near rickshaw stand, said sorry for late,i took big sigh, i had railway coupon so that at said already late of half an hour,i was getting angry, due to waiting there,my lips drooped,paled cheek,slightly wrinkled due to hot climate,i was very thin, not looking good,beauty not shone on my face.i wore simple dress,which more attractive ,my sweet designed seem more attracted ,my countenance reflected on my dress.we caught train,alighted at chincholi station.i seated on window side,i got his touch,i got his feeling his body,i draw him near me close by close.

First time i felt man touch.embrace by him.clutched by him,immortal for me.his loving become my weak point.i was totally mad that time,

One by one her exhibited painting revealed her love story, every story has a hidden love story, she hid her inner feelings.

One painting relating a beach shown lovebird are romancing on rocks surround areas,she showed couple coupled each other in her picture,interlocked  it responded more,it attracted more viewer and well wisher, painting lover,

“I was totally mad,i don't know what to do when such got time,it got over my nerve,swirled,i was tantalized,that time,i forget that i was in public place,somebody complained to security ,he called on,,he fined hundred rupees “