The Transformation Station

Oh Hello. So nice to finally meet you. I’ve had you on my schedule for some time, so it’s nice you’ve finally arrived and we can get you moving again in a good, orderly direction.

Well, that’s not quite the *right* way of saying that, haha, LOL, and all that. No, really, this is more about me giving you all the signs and you making decisions based on the best information you’ve ever received. No really, like, ever.

I can see you’re skeptical, I know, I’ve seen this before. In fact, believe it or not, I’ve been in your shoes. Yes, yes! I know it’s hard to believe, but I once sat in that very chair you’re in now. In fact, I sat in it three times before I finally realized what it was I really wanted to do - or should I say, do what I was born to do.

And now that’s why you’re there, and I’m here, and together we’re going to figure out what’s next for you. 

Would you like a glass of water or something? You’re probably thirsty and I can see by the look on your face you’re still a bit confused by all this. Yes, I know this can be a shock to the system, but please, let me assure you, this has happened before, it will happen again and you will be fine. Most of the time. No really, I don’t mean to put you on edge, but here’s the deal, I’m not going to lie to you. That way of living is over and you should just start getting used to it right now. 

Okay, again, I can see by the look on your face you’re not quite used to being told the truth now, are you? Yes, I see here in your file you’ve always held the belief that you are above it all, and everyone around you should, and will, agree with you. Is that right? Or, as you put it, ‘they can go shove it where the sun don’t shine?’ Yes, clever. I’m sure you’re a hit at parties.

No, I can also see here you’re not a hit at parties. In fact, people don’t generally like you. They’ll work with you, or for you because, the notes say here, and this is a lot of notes wouldn’t you say? I’ve seen some stacks in my time here, but this is a doozy, am I right? So, let me back up and say the Summary of all these notes says basically, you’re an asshole. 

Funny how that doesn’t produce a shocked looked. But I have to say you do look better when you smirk, or if that’s a smile, it’s definitely an improvement over the shock. I see way too many shocked faces than happy ones, know what I mean? You’re nodding yes, but just wait. Eventually, you’ll understand what I’m talking about.

Okay, so let me circle back around to why you are here today. You see, this is where we will decide what happens next with you. And by you, I mean all of you, like All. Of. You.  

You’ve had quite a journey to this point. I see these last few years you’ve spent trying to figure out how you’re going to keep juggling balls you wished had stayed invisible. And wow, those were pretty awful secrets you kept, weren’t they? I mean, would you wish what you did on someone you cared about? Someone you loved? Or maybe even yourself? 

It’s interesting when I get people like you, people with a file like yours, thick with notes like these, I have to wonder, what did you think would eventually happen? 

But, *le sigh,* really, that’s a question for another session. Oh yes, there will be more sessions for us, you’re going to be here a while. This kind of thing takes time. 

I really can’t say how much time. That part of the process is up to you. I am only here to figure out how far you are along the whole journey. 

And yes, this decision you might call it, is left completely up to me. Well, not really, like I said, the process is over when you complete the task you picked up on your way out of here the last time we -

Wait! I’m getting ahead of myself, again, a topic for another time. 

So, let’s see what you did accomplish, *ahem* ‘this time,’ and what you didn’t. Wow. You weren’t really a growth mindset kind of person now, were you? Well, sorry, no, open-mindedness isn’t the same as a growth mindset, so there’s one missing piece of the puzzle. You didn’t read a lot, but you spent a lot of time watching reality television. Too bad. This addiction to other people's drama kept you indoors, and yes, here it is, as usual, I see this so often in cases like yours, a lack of successful relationships which of course is how you ended up here. 

Now don’t go trying to blame others for what happened to you. You had many opportunities to decide with whom to spend your time. Those people had their own agendas and I’m sure I’ll see their files eventually, actually. In fact, I’ve already had a few of them that very chair. 

Oh, yes. Really.

So, poor choices on your part. See how I got there? Pretty simple shit wouldn’t you say?

Here’s the part where I’m straight with you. This isn’t really that hard to do, what you’re experiencing now is a natural part of the process and will happen whether you participate or not. Eventually, you will reach the other side and begin again. 

But, like in the life you’re leaving behind, the choices you make along this part of your journey will decide how quickly, or slowly you move along toward the desired goal. The choices of who you spend your time with, who you hold yourself accountable to, and the actions you take every day to achieve the goal. 

What is the goal? Well that my friend is up to you to discover, no matter what part of the journey you’re on. Seriously. At every step of the way we are all welcome to decide which way to go, what television show to watch, what book to pick up, what friend to spend an evening and a drink with. 

Gotcha! I can’t help myself, yes, I’m a BIG Rush fan. You too? Well, I’ll have to give you some credit for your awesome taste in music. 

You know, if you play your cards right, I can get you an introduction. Yeah! Really! But I’ll give you a heads up, you’re talking about someone who not only read over 100 books a year there were all the songs and books to be written too. That takes a lot of brainpower, know what I mean? I’m not sure you’re playing at that level. No, I can see here, you are definitely not ready to go there.

But, it’s something to look forward to now, isn’t it? And don’t worry, we’ll talk again soon and by then more of this will make sense and our conversation will be much more enlightening.

It’s time you got some rest, it’s the most important part of your time here. To rest. And like I said, participation is not a requirement, it only helps you reach a higher level of achievement during your next go-'round. If you were fine with how things were, then you’ll be fine with how things are, am I right?

A little repetitive, I know, but isn’t that how we learn? By doing things over and over again? It’s how we learn what not to do too, like the things that hurt us or others. Well, some of us. Like I said, this is a thick file and we’ll be seeing quite a bit of each other while you’re here.

Ah! I totally forgot to introduce myself! Sorry, there are times when I just think everyone should know, but that’s not true now is it?

I’m Chrysalis, and I’ll be your guide through this part of your transformation.