Dating in Lockdown

As Alice swipes left for the umteeth time sitting on the couch with red wine in hand she thought to herself is this what my life has become in lock down.

No I'm successful I have a good job, well a shitty job but it pays well and that's what matters right? I have a mortgage which means the banks owns my house I'm just paying them rent and intrest

I say house its more like a two bedroom flat in a part of town I wouldn't have dreamed of walking down when I was younger but you don't shit on your own patch right as long as you don't get up in peoples business they dont bother you and it can be handy from time to time,

Oh yes swipe right, no match typical probable a cat hater anyway isn't that right Sparticus as her cat came slinking into the room looking for a warm place to curl up and sleep, which just happens to be on the other side of the room next to the heater, well be like that said Alice going back to her phone trying not to seem disappointed.

When she saw a face she recognized, not right away but her spidey sense was tingling, he looks familiar like an actor you see in a movie that you know you've seen before but you can place them so you have to look it up.

Just check his bio but nothing stands out, he's not giving off stroker vibes or worse he's married. Time to put my expert hacking skills to the test and check his social media, that's strange we have a mutual friend, i means it's not that strange we're all connect by at least six people, in this town it's more like three he probable goes to the same gym and is friends with that bimbo on reception and one drunk night accepted her friend request which just consists of photos of her perfect life and changing her relationship status, two days that's got to be a some sort of record even for her.  

I don't know how she does it, some people just can't be single there so insecure they can't be alone and judge their life by who they are dating and what their friends think of them. OMG what do you mean we went to school together, how didI not remember he was so hot, back then he was like the good looking dancer in a boy band a equal parts mysteries and dangerous all rolled into a sexy smolder, all the things your mother wouldn't like and when his DJ career didn't work out he became an account.

Well she's not here to stop me making my next mistake, swipe right...match, now to DM him something a little flirty but not too strong keep it cas-ual and funny...who talks like that I should just send a winking smiley face, stop it your over overthinking it just say Hey.

waiting...waiting... what are you on you've blown it already perhaps it was never meant to be oh he's typing...how is it going? What are you up to? What kind of question is that its 9pm and we're in lock down I'm looking at my phone taking to you dumb ass..."nothing much what about you" oh bloody hell you answered his dumb question with one of your own, I can feel my IQ dropping the more I type "just chilling" yes I though we had established that, we're in lock down what else are you going to be doing.

This is going nowhere, I've just got to do it, put on my big girl pants...well not that big I've actually dropped down two sizes but you get the point just jump in and let him know how you feel...nope more wine before we get started because this isn't going to go wrong.

Didn't we go to the same school? we were in the same History class together...

Send, wait...waiting nothing, you've done it now how is that casual he now thinks you've been storking him since high school and you've chosen this moment to enact your plan, well you know he's home.

Typing.... Did we? He doesn't remember me, but we matched so he still thinks I'm hot, that's not the point, what do you mean he doesn't remember me, am I not memorable well I'm going to show him  

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Message..YES WE DID, I sat in front of you for two years I let you copy my homework I'm the only reason you passed in the first place everything you have now is because of me and to think I had such a crush on you... like I would send that..send, oh crap no, no oh hell delete I didn't mean that, why would you put the send button next to the delete one and why isn't there a button thats says are you sure your about to mess up your entire life you might want to think your life choices before sending this. 

Waiting...waiting how is that keeping it casual you psycho

Typing...Sorry (good start , I rant at him and he's apologizing) I tried to forget school and everyone there, It wasn't a very happy place for me so I tried to push it out of my mind and not think about it.

Now who's the asshole? I feel so bad,what have you been doing since school? send.

Typing...( he's keen we're back on track, I think this is going well.

Maybe we can go on a few virtual dates then he can meet Sparticus, we can get a couple more fur babies before we have a couple of actual ones.

Message..Well my DJ career didnt really take off like I wanted it to so I went into finance.

Nope, block

The last thing I want to to prove my mother right, I can hear her now what a lovley man, he's got good a job your not going to do any better and your not getting any younger.

Nope I'm not going to settle

He wasn't right for me anyway...too needy, now where that other bottle of wine and let see what on TV