Dear Mother, Dear Daughter

May 22, 2010

Dear Mother,

I do not believe that we have a good relationship right now. You have been very rude to me lately and you have been making me do even more chores than the normally crazy amount that you give me. I don't understand why, it's not like there's another child you have to take care of. It's just me. I am very upset, and angry, with you. Why can't you just be the old you?

-Hannah

May 22, 2010

Dear Daughter,

I can tell that you are upset and angry with me. And I understand why. I have been giving you even more chores than normal because I want you to be ready when we send you to the orphanage. You obviously don't know about it now, but you will next week. I'm so sorry, but your father and I will be taken away soon. It's either go to the orphanage or get taken away with us. I'm so sorry. I love you, my child. I hope that we can continue these letters, even if we can't actually see each other.

-Sierra

May 22, 2011

Dear Mother,

I'm still in the orphanage. No one has wanted to adopt me. Maybe it's because I'm so moody. But I'm only moody because I'm in this stupid place in the first place! I wish that you and Father could've just been normal and not done all of those things that you did. Then we would all still be together. Maybe we would've solved our issues. But it's too late for that now, huh?

-Hannah

May 22, 2011

Dear Daughter,

I have a sick feeling in my stomach every day from being away from you. Having your father here with me just isn't enough. I know that you didn't like me very much before we sent you off, but we had no choice. I hope that you can understand that. Your father isn't doing very well physically, though. He has cancer. He won't be here for very much longer. I still miss you so much. I love you.

-Sierra

May 22, 2012

Dear Mother,

I finally got adopted. But they're just...too cheerful. They're never relaxing, they're always doing something outside or playing stupid board games inside. I am starting to forgive you, though. I mean, there was nothing you could do. I'm glad that you sent me to the orphanage, because you were right when you said I would rather be there than with you guys. I am starting to miss you again.

-Hannah

May 22, 2012

Dear Daughter,

Your father passed away sixth months ago now. He died while holding my hand. Only five more years and then I'll be out of here. We can be together again. At least, I hope they'll let me have you. I want that so badly. But do you? I hope that you're at least starting to forgive me.

-Sierra

May 22, 2013

Dear Mother,

The family that I was with decided that I wasn't cheerful enough and sent me back to the orphanage. But I'm glad because now I don't have to stay with those cheerful people. I have forgiven you now. I'm pretty sure it's only four more years until you're out. Am I right? I've lost track of time. I miss you.

-Hannah

May 22, 2013

Dear Daughter,

I am not feeling well, but it is just a cold so I sucked it up to write this letter. Four years. That's how much longer it'll be until we can see each other again. Are you still in the orphanage? Has someone adopted you? I miss you, my darling. Sleep my darling safe and sound.

-Sierra

May 22, 2014

Dear Mother,

Three more years until you get out. I have gotten re-adopted, but this time to a family that I really like. I have a sister that's my age, and a younger brother that's actually really fun to hang out with. We play with dinosaurs and pretend we're smashing cities down. My new parents are really nice. I love this family, but I love you. So, if I'm still in this family when you get out, I don't know how I'm going to choose. Maybe we could do half and half custody? I don't know, but I know I miss you. I love you.

-Hannah

May 22, 2014

Dear Daughter,

I hope that you are happy wherever you are. I hope that you are keeping yourself healthy emotionally and physically. I hope that you aren't eating lots of SUGAR! :) Three more years and then we can be together. Just three more years. And then we'll be together, forever this time. I love you soooo much!

-Sierra

May 22, 2015

Dear Mother,

I am still with my adoring family. It's so fun here. I have found a love of books. I have read so many in the past year, too many to count! How are you doing? I miss you, and I hope we can figure something out when you get out in 2 years. I'm a teenager now, you know. 13 years old. Oh, God, how I miss you. I love you.

P.S. How's Father doing?

-Hannah

May 22, 2015

Dear Daughter,

I hope that you have forgiven me by now for all of the things that I have done to you in the past. Two years and we'll be together. I'm counting down the days! I have so many things to say, but so little paper, LOL. That's what kids your age say nowadays, right? LOL? I hope so, I don't want to embarrass myself. Even if it is on paper. I'm so excited to see you again. Only a little while. How are you doing?

-Sierra

May 22, 2016

Dear Mother,

Only one year until you get out. But I still don't know what I'm going to do. I'm still with the family that I love. But you're my mother! I hope that you can help me when the time comes. I hope that you and Father are doing alright. I love you.

-Hannah

May 22, 2016

Dear Daughter,

Oh, how I miss you! But only a little bit over a year and we'll see each other. It'll be like a movie. I have so many things planned for me and you to do when we're together. I'm so EXCITED! Lol. I still hope that's what you and your friends say. (; I hope that you are taking care of yourself, you need to! You are a growing girl. I love you soooooooo much and I miss you sooooooo much!

-Sierra

May 22, 2017

Dear Mother,

I have talked to my family about how you're getting out this year. You're getting out in two weeks. I mean, they said that we could do half and half custody, they would be fine with it. But I'm scared you're not going to. I mean, you were always stubborn, especially when it came to me. I'm afraid of your reaction. I hope you understand my point of view. I still love you.

-Hannah

May 22, 2017

Dear Daughter,

Hallelujah! I'm finally getting out of this place in two weeks. The first thing we can do is go to the movies and watch any movie that you want, eat a whole tub of popcorn, and eat boxes of candy! And I'll even let you have pop. 2 weeks. I'm so excited to see you. I have missed you these past seven years. Ahhhh! I hope you're as excited as I am. Love you!

-Sierra

May 22, 2018

Dear Mother,

You were so stubborn. All I wanted was half and half custody. But you said no, and now you're back in for another two years. Why? Why couldn't you just listen to my point of view? My perspective? Why, why, why? It doesn't matter now. You're back in. But I still get to be with the family I love. And now I'm questioning whether I will want half and half custody when you get out. Again.

-Hannah

May 22, 2018

Dear Daughter,

I am back in. You already know that, of course. You must be very angry with me. But I'm happy. After this, I will finally have you all to myself and we can have the best lives ever! Woohoo! That is what you want. That is what I want. I love you, Hannah.

-Sierra

May 22, 2019

Dear Mother,

One more year until you get out again. And I'm scared. I have decided that I want to live with my adopted family forever, but I'm scared that you'll do something to me or them. They have a lawyer now, though, so we can make sure that you don't. I'm so sorry, but it's what you deserve. I'm sorry, Mother. I'm sorry.

-Hannah

May 22, 2019

Dear Daughter,

One more year! One more year! Ahhh, I'm so glad that this time it wasn't as long as the first time. I've been looking at houses in real estate catalogs, and I know exactly which one I'm going to buy when we reunite. I hope you're as happy about it as I am! Love you!

-Sierra

May 22, 2020

Dear Mother,

We are in the middle of a global pandemic, and you will be staying in. I am guiltily happy, though, because I feel like after everything that you have put me through, you deserve it. I know that I am horrible for thinking that way, but I can't help it. I'm sorry Mother. This is my last letter.

-Hannah

May 22, 2020

Dear Daughter,

NOOOO!! I am staying in just because of a stupid global pandemic. I need you. I need you so badly. I am so angry. Why can't I just leave? Why can't they let me go like some of the other ones? COME ON!!!!! I will find you once this pandemic is over and I am out of here. We'll live a happily ever after. I love you, Hannah.

-Sierra