NO SLEEP

NO SLEEP

I had the right amount of time to figure myself out. Now, I’m not going to tell you how long it took or was I even timing myself, but good timing is always the time. Speaking of time I need to be a little bit more.. just a tiny bit more considerate of time when it comes around. Yeah sad fact to admit I abuse it. I would look at time and let it go by. It’s on my own but I self abuse it still. That’s why I miss out on opportunities thinking that the time will go slower for me. Who am I? I missed out on so much by staying up. I want time to go on my exact route, I need those numbers not to move after the quick 60 seconds. If I can describe patience I couldn’t put time into it. I CANT SLEEP. Noooooooo ma’am or sir, not enough time. I slipped off focus thinking that time will put it all in. I got too excited reminiscing on the futurism that holds within me, but still I can’t sleep.. I see why time goes by. Do yall ever wonder if time misses its own time? Not saying legit skip numbers but missing out. I can’t sleep, and I still miss out. My actions were blinded by time, but I appreciate the tracking on me. It’s crazy but it’s true, I seem so lost but, time will make it up I know it will do.. look.. We should look at the bigger picture, but notice the smaller one to get details. Yeaaaaaah we look at small things compared to our bigger things, and ask what’s finer. We like them big but it’s too much like small but not too little… I can’t sleep thinking too much about what's perfect on good timing.

Hey my name is crazy, & last name passionate. I was wondering if y'all would take me out, leave me in my house, take me to the ground, that is my theory, and it could call me, please don’t forget it baby my name is crazy. Sorry I can’t sleep, I'm crazy. I am very passionate about my goals. People say I may do/ want too much. In other words I’m obsessed? Maybe? Wait, it makes no sense. How can something I want for me too bad label me obsessed? Picky maybe in that category . Sorry I’m just real. I don’t mean to come on strong, but I’m not reaching for a specific person to tell me I’m wrong. Tbh I’m not in the mood to even explain all this. I don’t say nothing to nobody about anything, whatever I saw in reality mentally it never happened. I have a strong urge to mind my business, just going with the flow you know. I like it when I see people arguing, & the situation has nothing to do with me. I am very flavorful towards commitment as well. No, I'm not going into my dating life. Well well let me just say this. I love relationships,& they love me. The activities on the other hand.. I don’t think everyone is just meant to do everything. Remember I'm not lazy, just a little crazy. I stare right into a mirror, and say HEY! My hair smacks my face, then my eyes get poked, then I get the itch, I start to wonder omg will the day get any worse! I am afraid to scream at times, I’m not sure what emotion could pop out, hell if I fall down some steps, and land right I might laugh. I once wrote a paper on being magnificent, what did it mean to me? I printed off a picture of me, just circled every part of me and put equal signs next to each definition. The big red man couldn’t understand what I meant. He says I only needed a page. I speak back. Sir, have you not seen me?? You say magnificent right? Enough was said, I said no more. It was night time, so I assumed that meant my show was coming to an end for the night. Before I lay down to sleep I reflect on my day. Thinking about that paper I wrote. I CANT SLEEP.. Did he ever say he liked it? Was it enough? Was he even thankful I committed to his project on good timing? Sorry, I mentioned before I was too passionate. I got too deep into my ways, now I can’t sleep with too much rolling around. I guess I will stay awake so please somebody speak.

Now that I've been locked into habits I still need help on solving my own riddles. Sometimes I love real good, but I don’t carry hearts with arrows in my pocket. I walk around looking for the best love energy with my hand held high, but I stand alone. I come outside with a microphone,& speak of words that come from the heart, but it’s never an audience. What am I? I CANT SLEEP due to so many personality choices around me. Example. I have a painted colorful face, fitted outfit with not a joke in sight! I show it off to people, but they laugh immediately at my attention that I am sincerely bringing without saying a word so what am I? Ooooo there once was one crazy woman who couldn’t shut her eyes, no matter how hard she tried, she cried to shut her eyes. It’s a lot of teachings, lots of meetings, so many games in greetings, I gambled off of me, call me ms monopoly. I took control of random situations. Let me be clear when I say random(Different days). I can’t sleep on days I’m expecting to be perfect. When I say perfect top notch! I grabbed my biggest glass,& filled it with imaginary what? I drove through an entire neighborhood,& only noticed the bad parts that stuck out. Why wasn’t the good side good enough to share its side. They got it all, it’s enough money involved, what is that task labeled? I got asked for my opinion, spoke it out loud, got cussed out,& asked questions. Was that what you call judgement? I can’t sleep,& will never sleep if I keep stalking my addicting habits. Which is? Wondering. I couldn’t figure it out at one point, but I’m just too tired to want to go deeper on this topic. I can’t sleep, I deserve no sleep.. I need a stable clarity.