Redemption

I look up to the sky,

It’s a clear night,

Except for my rock of sins,

different shades, never to fade insight.

they say our sins washed away,

I say mine never will as my sins are plenty,

or else I wouldn’t feel this void,

A void in my stomach that makes me feel empty.

I wouldn’t feel this guilt,

This guilt that’s piled up in that void.

If sins really do wash away,

Mine would as well along with the fluid.

Every time I gaze up at the endless sky.

I realise something every time,

If the endless sky is the one where I see my rock of sins,

That means even my sins may be endless.

I don’t think I deserve to live,

With all these sins piled up.

I won’t even find a spot in heaven,

And Jesus will throw in Hell.

I think it’s time for me to leave this world,

Time to punish me for my immoralities.

After this, I’ll come clean.

And maybe even start fresh.

This world isn’t all that good.

It’s crimson in its gloomy way.

crimson as the blood in my veins,

and dark as my secrets prevail.

I stood up and walked to the edge of the cliff,

It’s time for me to say my goodbyes.

Goodbye… I yell out for the world to here

The very world I'm here leave.

As I take my step over the cliff.

I fall,

Fall to my doom.

But I feel no pain.

I open my eyes to see myself.

Not dead.

But in Jesus’s arms.

I guess it really isn’t my time to die.

I felt content from the inside,

But couldn’t help myself to feel fury.

He distracted me from my painful death,

It’s as if he gets to decide and he’s the jury.

But I couldn’t be mad at Jesus,

The Jesus who gave me redemption.

The one who gave a reason to live again,

To be good once more.

Maybe Everyone shouldn’t question him,

Ask if he really exists,

Because even if he doesn’t,

He’s still there in our hearts.

He gives everyone redemption,

And if you take it,

You might just go to heaven,

Not hell.

In heaven, we are wrapped in God's perfect love.

We are whole,

We are healthy,

And we are together with those who we love.

In heaven, we walk hand in hand with Jesus,

As he takes away all our sins.

With the gentle wave,

Which laps at our bare feet.

And that’s when I realised,

Everyone deserves a redemption round.

No matter how evil you are.

No matter how big your rock of sins is.