My retriever tries to wipe my tears.

Another month with another day, which is dated as one “1”. My soul

expects a change but time doesn't seem to bless me with. My life

didn’t have any swaps for the past 10 months, continuations of

lockdowns stabbed my happiness unreservedly, but nowadays I learn to make myself contented without any reasons, and also learned to luxuriate myself which automatically makes to love myself to the moon and back, my fatigued life was turned into an adoration this happened with me by the 5 sense bird and with my plants. In winters on my balcony rooftop, I found a dove egg, a few days back I feel embarrassed to say this I had watched the love life of doves without hesitation, you know they are the best couples for me it is not Romeo Juliet or Sajahan Mumtaz, these two doves won’t have any sort of arguments or dominance or fights or nothing but just a peaceful life. They are having the purest form of understanding if one goes in search of food for its loved one

the other would sit on the egg to make warmth for hatching they won't leave the egg alone if one comes to the nest the other would fly away. I just stuck with the English language none of the words look apt to explain their love, understanding, and relation, there are no philosophies or concepts for 5 sense animals to have a one-to-one relationship but they did. Those doves won’t allow any other dove to come near them or towards their loved ones. We, humans, are thinking we are superior to all living beings but no we are wrong god made all of us mad by giving us an extra sense if we too

have 5 senses we will also be a happy creature and maybe with small struggles sometimes struggle only help us to feel happiness.

Now its plants turn I had been distinguishing plants growth for last

few weeks, usually, it grows straight but when it reaches an edge it

can’t grow straight anymore it suddenly takes a turn which admired me much and lead me to this and I'm much thankful for the 5 sense bird and plants. From these two incidents, everything in my house appeared in a different view everything seems to be new my photo frames in the wall seem to have an extra-large wide smile, my face looks to have an instant glow, and my golden retriever Xie Xei seems like showing more love and enjoyment and more which appeared in a different way. From the next day, sunrises with extra brightness my cloudy mornings changed to fresh mornings with a cup of green tea which I use to share with Xie Xie also, the best combination in my world is “me + green tea + my plants + Xie Xie + sunrise/sunset”. The next beautiful alonely days seem to run very fast.

Finally, the thing arrived I had waited for nearly one year which

arrived through an email notification. The mail from the company which I was worked on several months ago and it is informed me to come back to the office again. After reading this my eyeballs are moving like a fish in the happy tears to read the mail again and again. And the main thing is in the call letter they called to come to the office on the next day itself the moment I literally felt like "cloud 9" the happy tears did not seem to stop, it continuously rolled down and the tears reach Xie Xie's paws he always uses to lay down near me after he feels the wetness he looks up to me and he tries to rub my tears. in over-excitement, I said him that "you are only going to have non-veg foods" in a loud voice, I don't know whether he understood or not but he begins to run around me with excitement after finishing the happy tears satisfied, I cleansed my face and I had in mirror observed that deep wrinkles and pimple scars dark circles were completely seamless in the washroom mirror bunch of products in front of me on the beauty table cant do this but lockdown made this possible without grappling with it. Then in my savings and balance approximately I have 50000 I

obtained all in wishlist, my poor lives are gone the luxuries are on,

I ordered kgs non-veg meals and packed products for Xie Xie and tons of pastry items for me it costs up to 8000 then many T-shirts and palazzo because I wore 30 to 40 dresses continuously for 1 year so hence it reaches a state of nearly tearing. I left home for street

shopping with Xie Xie I snap up a beautiful dress to wear tomorrow and some grocery things. Xie Xie and I Slept happily with nonveg meals to Xie Xie and several pieces of cake to me.

I woke up quickly much excited to go office for 1st time after a year,

I'm, perfectly hot to trot for the day at 8, in advance of 1 hour to

the office time, I realized 1 year before I would leave home at 9.10

only, laughed me in the mirror. I locked the door of my house, remove the cover over my car she makes me stagger my honda city xyz sunroof pearl black is drizzling because its a big thing which I procure from my own salary, I leave my Xie Xie in pet care near my office. finally, I reach my office actually I first among other employees, a servant lady was mopping the floor we both glanced and exchanging smiles. I enjoyed the morning breeze in my cubicle. Then my dearest friend Leela came to the office we both had a wide smile and hugged each other we are up to tears even though we had met each other many times in lockdown the professional costume with id card made us cry. then I met all of my workmates but I felt something is missing I'm not clear about that but something missing then we had a break at 11, all of us

had coffee the 1st sip of coffee with my friends satisfied me actually this what felt me miss. we all finished our works at exactly 6.30 time usually office end at 5 but today everyone seems to be working still after seeing the time I immediately packed up all of my things and along with Leela, gone to pick up Xie Xie he looks so surprised by seeing me along with Leela we 3 gone for shopping and also bought some toys for Xie Xie.

I enjoyed the upcoming days and it too becomes to run fast in few days government allowed people to travel over states I'm, jumping top to bottom in my house gone purchased many gifts for my family members and planned to go on weekends to my sweet home, eventually, weekends also arrived somehow Xie Xie sensed the place we are going and started to jump here there into the car and stopped in a place to lunch, a full meal nonveg for Xie Xie and pastry items for me actually my happy times are not satisfied without cakes and pastry. when I reach designation double happiness hit each and everyone including our Xie Xie. my family members are looking much surprised to know what I have

in my luggage brothers, cousins, sisters are coming forward to carry my luggage in a way of caring me but I know their intentions and I think you would also grasp it. for my sisters, I had brought many makeup products and dresses for cousins and brothers I bought newly launched gadgets and devices for my mom Kancheepuram sarees for dad a titan watch, and finally our granny the women always have a smile on her face she always put much efforts to take care of her gardenings so I bought her varieties of seeds for planting I saw an extra-wide smile up to her ears. her toothless smile and laugh is nothing less than the smile of a beautiful baby. At last, everyone was looking to be glowing

in happiness it makes me happy a trillion times more "Affording for us is not much happy than watching others happiness by gifting them", literally it made me to near cry my sisters were wearing the

accessories for the whole day which I brought. Suddenly my nose drives me to the kitchen I sense our ladies start to make magic with their hands with veggies and masala and more. we all had a spicy evening with chit chats and snacks and ended our day with cool kulfi ice cream, we don't have space in our tummies for

dinner. after long days we explore the night sky upstairs with the

moon and stars.

we all are extroverts so spent our next whole day in the outing, at

last, our evening is spent on the beach by playing. we all usually

jump when the wave reaches us almost kids all over the world use to play in this way only but even though we are adults we use to do.

After 30mins my feet start to cramp hence I removed my slippers to

rest myself after few minutes my tummy makes sound my hand wandered into my handbag in search of food a packet flicks in my hand along with my small dairy, It's our viral chip Carolina reaper suddenly dairy falls from my hand and becomes open and it is written as "oh god my bank balance is becoming low my luxuries seam to go, my life becoming in the conjunction of oh no, what to do I don't know when these all will change" I had written this just a month ago, sisters cousins and brothers running towards me to have a share my cute little sisters feed me to eat actually it made me cry now I had everything money, luxury, love, and everything comes to me again my heart is completely filled with gratitude my tears begin to roll down my cute sissy rubbed my tears and kidding me to not eat she thoughts the spiciness leads me to tears.