I always Wonder Why?

I always wonder why? "The stars hang freely in the sky".

"I always wonder why?" "What I want to be when I grow up".

"I always wonder what is out there in space".

"I always wonder why I am here now in this time and place?"

"I wonder who made me?" "I wonder who has a plan for me?"

" I see things in the world even try to do them".

"I look around and may decide to mimic someone, whether it is good or bad".

"I follow by the examples set before me and have never been told I was right, or I was wrong".

"In my eyes, I wish to be loved and looked out for, cared for and even given some attention, or at least be given an ear to listen to me when I want to know the answers".

"I wanted to feel like I belong". "I wanted to feel like I am being whoever I am to be".

"I do get scared and worry". "Yes, I do feel pain and when I am hit, it does hurt".

"I want to trust you and believe in you, but you never allow me to do that". "You never explain to me about life, so I guess I will have to find out on my own".

"You sometimes make me feel alone and left out, not wanting to be bothered by my problems". "You seem more worried about what you had no idea what was doing instead of me".

"You never allowed me to make mistakes of my own". "You lived more for yourself, than working with me to help feel like I was something to you".

"You may never know that I always loved you and I always tried to be the best I could be". "You never gave me a chance to do better, because the best for you was not about me, ever".

"I tried to live up to the person you wanted me to be, but it was always not enough, then you took more and offered less"

"I am sorry that you never knew and now you never will know, because it's too late for me, and too late for you".

"In the nighttime I sat in my bed, wondering how I could become me and what I wanted to be, but you said, "This is as good as it gets". "I was not sure what to believe when you told me that".

"I wanted to run free and enjoy life, but in my room, you locked me away, like a prisoner kidnapped". "You stole my life from me, in my prime, before I could explore and discover".

"You never let me out of your sight". "You were afraid I would make you look bad, so you kept the good things from me and offered only the bad".

"How could you say that you were ever fair to me, or treated me right or even gave me a fair share of all that I needed and deserved?" "How come you were so cruel and belittling me?"

"I was always good and never any trouble". "I guess that hit me one time too many and that was what cause me to go before I knew"

"I was only there for your entertainment and was not even good at that, yet you continued". "I fought you, defending myself and you made the punishment even worse longer'.

"You struck me, and you hated me, and you made me feel 3 feet tall if that was possible". "There is never a way I could understand, because when I thought, I was beginning to, you struck me down once more".

"You found the greatest pleasure in adding to my pain, both inside and out". "You looked at me in disgust, with venomous eyes, pointed your twisted fingers".

"How was I to know that you would lash out and how back your anger for the worst?" "How did I know you would snap like a dry twig, and mentally break?"

"That loathing you shared was always towards me, at me, and was placed upon me like a thorny crown that was verbally shoved down on my head until I bled?"

"The longer I speak, the more I am becoming angry with you for stealing from me my life". "The more I say, brings about an anger and I see you as you are, but now it's too late, oh too late for you".

"I wish you could feel what I feel, know what I know, see what I see, all these in a way that would help you realize that I was never the problem, yet you are and were mine".

"You cannot change what you have done, I may one day forgive you, yet I can never forget you and what you did". "The pain you will come, the fear you will know will come, and the suffering will experience, will come".

You will go through hell, maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, oh but it will come, and it will be disturbing". "You may even go insane; may even go crazy from the guilt you shall feel".

You will feel these, and you will know no peace for your guilt will walk with you throughout your days like shadow. One that will never let you go and will cause you great distress".

"I am no longer in the present for I have passed on, by your hand, with your temper and your pain passed onto me, I am no longer here".

"I do hope you get all that you deserve".

"That one day you will caught and no longer able to hurt anyone

the very same way you hurt me".

"To know the very same as you gave to me and so much more".

"The same pain". "The same hurt". "Never a love to comfort you". "Never your mind to be put at ease". "For you I can only wish you the best, even now I want the best for you".

"You always wanted to give me pain, for you I want love to be only a game".