The Decision for an End

For the first time since Connie arrived at Silver City, she knew that nothing would forever be the same.

Her world had changed yesterday, the day she decided that she would never be the same girl as she was. Now, she is Connie Lily Slynn, a blonde, poor, homeless girl who lives in a packed city. That’s it. Not a thing special, not a thing extraordinary. Only a little girl here.

She walked down the sleazy road with her hands clasped together. She never felt this cold before. The midnight wind howled to her ears and broke down on her face. The big, brown boughs looked down from their softy leaves to see her broken eyes and uncertain heart. The cramped houses laid their shadows, covered her soul and flexibility. Connie trudged on the road and came to the main street.

There was light. Even in the darkest place, there was still light. A light for the loneliness and hopeless person.

Connie knew that there was still something for her in this world. It does not end yet. She can go back, and be who she was again, a little tool that grows money for them.

“Be who I was again?” - she thought.

“No. I will never go back.” - Her heart whispered.

“Are you nut?” - A voice came through her mind shouted. “You’ll starve here.”

“Go, Julietta.” - She said.

“Come back, Lily.” - Julietta said. “Come back.”

“Get out of my mind, Julietta.” - Connie shouted. She kneeled down and hug her head. - “Get out.”

“Lily...”

“I’m not Lily anymore. Lily is an orphan. A 15-year-old girl that people adopt for money,” - She shouted and ran. Her legs rushed through houses and houses. - “I’m not Lily anymore.” - she cried.

“Lily...”

“No.”

Connie shook her head. “Go, Julietta. I won’t come back.”

The wind bumped into her face, and tears from the sky fell down.

“Keep running.” - She told herself.

...

To Noah Cross, the morning always the prettiest time of the day. He walked down the street and reached the newsagent. For some teenagers in Silvia High, Noah maybe a little unusual. He watches the news, loves homework, and never playing video games. His friends also have an idiom for him. “All works, no play makes Noah a quirky boy.” Although, Noah didn’t mind.

The newsagent was near to an alley down the main street - where recently, people started to suspicion an unknown girl called Connie Slynn, a homeless girl who came to the city last week. People didn’t know her. They created several stories about this new “element” in the city. Yesterday, Ken Black told his classmates that the girl was actually a thief. She was alone because her parent couldn’t expect a thief in their home. And Noah didn’t care.

There was light. Even in the darkest place, there was still light. A light for the loneliness and hopeless person.

Lily Sienna.

That was the first thing she said to him. Her voice sounded like a wind chime and her eyes were his deep ocean. Since the first time they met, Noah knew nothing would ever be the same to him.

Wandering in the flashback, he suddenly heard a voice:

“Excuse me.”

He turned around and saw a tall girl with wavy blonde hair and blue eyes.

- Yes? - He replied.

- Do you know anyone called Lily Lynn? - She asked.

- No.

- Do you know anyone who looks like this? - She said and gave him a photo.

...

Living in an alley does not seem like a good idea. But that was the only thing she had. People here don’t like her. It was hard at first, but Connie must accept that. She did not fit in here. To her, it’s just a packed city with an empty heart. That place was not for her. She could only have the loneliness and a bit of freedom in her heart.

“Maybe it’s time to go home, Lily.” - A voice came through her head.

She smiled, but before she replied to Julietta’s voice in her mind, she stopped. It was not Julietta’s voice. It was Noah’s.

She turned around and met his glazed eyes.

- Why didn’t you tell me? - He asked coldly.

- Noah... - She sputtered.

- You’re Lily Lynn. Not Connie Slynn, right?

- Noah...

- Right?

- Not anymore. - She shouted and ran away.

- Connie! Connie. - Noah shouted, but it was too late.

She had gone.

...

Standing near the bridge, Connie looked down. She couldn’t see anymore. She couldn’t go back anymore. Everything was torture to her. She hated every second of her life. Her father, her step-mother, Julietta, the only person she could talk to in Silvia, Noah. They all left her.

“Mom.” - she whispered. - “What would I do?”

“Connie.” - Noah’s voice came behind her.

She didn’t answer.

- Tell me.

She didn’t reply.

He waited.

Not a thing happened.

Seconds came seconds, minutes came minutes and hours came hours. Still, nothing had happened.

Connie hid her tears and walked away. No one had ever understand her. No one had ever known what she wants. No one...

His footsteps went after her. “Don’t follow me!” She said.

He stopped.

“Your aunt is looking for you.” - Noah said. “And I know,” - he continued. “that you ran away from home because of...”

She stopped.

“You can’t run forever, Lily.” - He continued. - “Your aunt had told me everything.” Still no reply. “How can you be..”

“She’s NOT my aunt. And she is LYING.” - Connie turned around and shouted. Her voice flew into the air and broke down everything it touch. “I’m an orphan. Yes! I admit it. I’m an orphan! You’re happy now?” Connie continued with a trembling voice. “I do nothing wrong. That woman treats me like a... a... there’s not a thing ever been hurt like me!” She exclaimed and ran into the street.

“Connie! Where are you going?” - Noah followed her.

She turned around, smiling at him, and said: “To a place people can’t make me feel like an ATM. A place people won’t pretend to love me. A place where I have my everything back.”

For a moment, Noah wished he hear her screaming, crying instead of rushed into a truck and left he with a dizzying car horn.

For the first time since Connie arrived at Silver City, she knew that nothing would ever be the same... Because she knew

She deserves Heaven.

Lily Sienna, author of “The Decisions of Life”