Reflection

It was the 31st of December and Tim was right there with his family in the central park. Everyone was there, everyone Tim knew and their families too. They were there to celebrate the new year.

Tim is just a miserable 32 year old who tries to be the people pleaser and be the most admired person in the room and with this many audiences in front of him, he didn't hesitate to show his special humor.

It all happened when he was 11 years old and his math teacher Mr. Wilson told him that he has good humor for a pre-teen. He was the most joyful boy that day, he told everyone about this compliment.

He was 17 and his physics lecturer told him his way of thinking is different from others and will help him grow to great heights

he was 20 and his first girlfriend Sia told him he has the most beautiful smile and most comforting voice ever

he was 25 and his interviewer signed him into the office with the statement " we will be really lucky to have you here"

He was 26 and there was nothing else to compliment about him anymore. But, he wanted the compliments.

He signed up for the gym and went there every single day so people will tell him that he is the most determined guy they have ever seen.

He was 28 and he felt distant from the life he had previously, where did all the spark and charm go. So, he tried harder

He got a new girlfriend at 29 who broke up because Tim went on talking about himself not giving time for her to talk anything but appreciating him.

He was 30 and now very desperate to have a girlfriend, he went on downloading all these dating sites, and hardly anyone matched with him because his profile was his autobiography.

He was 31 and he cannot get people out of his head he just wants to be seen and known by everyone and classic Tim will do anything to let people know that he is the most perfect man that ever existed. He thought and thought and thought then there came this idea of being an actor. The easiest way to fame, he thought.

He went to the rehearsals for the part Jonah, a cool friend in a low-budget movie. Stardom arises from baby steps was his philosophy.

31 still and he is distant from his family, his dad and mom live in another state, and when they all meet up for Christmas it's all about himself and his achievements. His younger brother Ron, hated him for this although he is 29.

Now it was the new year once again so Tim invited his family over for the celebrations, they came. He started talking about how he got a raise that day afternoon and how holds the highest position in the company, his younger brother Ron completely annoyed by this said, "why do you always talk about yourself, do you really have to, what kind of pleasure does this give you?". Tim was silent and 2 minutes after the words entered his head, they left it.

Tim's parents evidently are not happy about this relationship between their sons they want to tell Tim that it's not always pleasing to be the people pleaser, but he is not a teen anymore to tell him this so they let it be.

Back to central park. He started with his classic jokes on the mayor and then politics, he got a few laughs from each direction. He was satisfied.

Why is he doing this? well, his "friend" Jacob from work had his spotlight when he made a joke about the Government of the US 5 days ago.

Tim looked so desperate, that some people just laughed for his sake . The fireworks will go off in precisely 30 minutes and Tim has big plans.

With no wife or a partner, Tim is no less famous among the ladies. or I should say, infamous. Tim tries in every way to impress every girl he sees, but Tim is a good person so he never talks to women less than 18 and above 40, the latter is rather created due to beauty issues.

This year Tim is going to go into the bathroom come back exactly 1 minute later 12 AM and shout "Oh, I haven't seen you guys in a year, I've been in the bathroom for 1 year" and god knows how excited he was about this. Everyone will burst out laughing and of course ladies like lads with humor.

It was 11:50 PM and Tim went into the public bathroom. He was so excited, there he sat on the toilet, still excited and he wore a big grin on his face. But something happened his smile dropped

He looked around himself. He looked at his position. There was a mirror opposite to him. He went there and looked at himself, there he was good old Tim who knows nothing but to impress people. He remembered his brother's words.

He reflected on what he just did "Did I just walk into the washroom to perform my joke?". He felt stupid. He felt worthless. He felt that he is not for himself. He lifted his head up and old to himself "I know I am miserable but not for the people around me". 11:58 and he walked out of the room.

Once again he was met with this huge crowd of people he knows. He doesn't even know who really appreciates him and who does not and this time when Jacob tugged on his t-shirt to signal him that the fireworks are starting, he nodded and went there. There they were all his coworkers they were all ready to watch the fireworks and at that moment he know no one really cares, how he is, they don't like him for his humor but his effort to make them smile and now as he knows what people want in him, which is wholeheartedness, he went near his coworkers, he borrowed a beer and handed it over to his brother, he invited his parents to watch the fireworks from a place Jacob saved for him, and he knows that he will repay the kindnesses Jacob showed to him and all of a sudden he is flooded with the thoughts of people who helped him and he knew it's all about giving and gratitude. Everyone's eyes locked on the sky.

3...2....1.... The fireworks went off

"Happy New yearrrrrrrr"

This year don't exist for others, live for yourself.