Contest #265 shortlist ⭐️

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Fiction Sad Speculative

 Bubbles.


Sometimes try. To. Catch bubbles … tiny ones, they float above me. A soft pink ceiling seals me in. A kind of membrane. But where does it go?


Where do I go?


Very tired. I open my mouth. Yawn it all out. Bend my neck. It needs rest. Eyes heavy under lids. Closing them… so soothing. With them tight shut dark, I go to vanish. Back again on dream journey. Traveling, to where? Memories unfurl. I’m in the unknown. What? Is it?


Fragments of life. Memories forming. Past is present. Present is past. I don’t know. Uncoiling.

 🫧 🫧

Suddenly. Jerk awake, dream of shadows and bubbles is over. Breathe in, feel more. Keep breathing. My eyes keep open, and I’m back. In the big bubble. Breathing in. Ahhhhh. Ooooh. Bubbling up, I want more.


Of Me.


So…


Awake, awake in my sac. Thirsty. Awake to gulp. Keep gulping. The liquid. Always. I feel it, taste. Sliding down into my belly.


See the soft pink red. Everywhere.


Bubbles. Are they out? Or in? Where to go? Here.


Or there. There. Or here?


My tiny one thrums to a larger beat. Pulsing Life. Whose life? Mine? Yours? Someone/something pressing down as I press back up against them. I need to know them. Little is under Big. That’s it.


Somewhere, rising above me. A bigger Life?


I? Who am I? Are they Part of Me? Unknown, but always there.

All is here.

Will it ever stop? Will I stop? Am I safe? If so, for how long?


Comfort… is to suck in, suck my fingers. I touch my throat, keep gulping. Suddenly engulfed, a giant hiccup lifts me up. It makes big bubbles. Ha ha ha. Funny, so funny. Stretch my legs, lovely, feels good. To be free. From what?


Something?


I keep practicing for something. What? Gurgle, swallow more fluid. Why?

 🫧 🫧

Shadows loom.

Scared.

Keep breathing in. Who is this special someone? Above me?

**


Alarm. Floods … is my journey to end soon? I’m big now. Swollen to bursting ripe. Reached my limit. Outgrown. Will I be forced to leave? Where will I go? When? Where? How?

I think I know. Somehow I do. Think.


Not ready. Not yet.

Sink back into softness.


Echoes grow loud. Distortions disturb. Big cry above, immense sadness. Big is sad. Why? My hand reaches up. I give gentle kick, I feel response. Big hand rubs belly, warms me. Sad subsides. Then…


I hear clink clank clink, harsh voices, slamming, a rattling, a shifting above. It settles. Then quiet. A big gurgling and I taste something sweet. Full up.


Much better.

Close lids, zone out. Dream of mystery to come. Elemental. Chemical changes. It all tastes different. Something huge. New. To be absorbed.



Journey into the unknown. Soon? Unimaginable.


Kick, bounce, stretch. Within my walls. I must keep moving. Don’t know. Why? To be strong for outside. Compelled, I keep turning until head points down. Down down down. For my big journey. To the outside.


The whooshing. Whoosh always there like thrum beating pulse of life through fluids. From outside, I feel the rise and I lift too. Then back down to where? Hear only noise. Beating and whooshing. The big blood rushes and big gurgles as I taste. Her?

Some. Shadows.


Concentrate. Play with tube. Wondering. Am I ok?

Deep dark red.


Last night. Big burst. The Crying hit so I reached up. My hands touched a warmth. It flowed into me from above. I nudged gently. To help Big One outside. Is it that? It’s what I do. I think the warmth makes me happy. I think. I am.

A lovely, sweet doing thing. Sound from big. Gives joy.


Yawn deep. Time is sleep. Embedded. In my time.


I remember now. The gurgle of something tasting sweet. From her system came the thumping of a heart in unison with my own. A voice reverberating. Hearing through fluids, then a muffled music, then shouting. Sometimes I hear the others. When they leave, I hear a voice so sweet and pure. I feel the pressure of the big hand and hear her sing. I love. Afterwards, I play with the thing sprouting from belly for a long time.

***


Suddenly the deep break of waters rushing. The beat speeds up, then I’m torn away from certainty, I am tumbling floating tasting sucking my hand in my mouth opening and closing and rolling eyes round squeezing pulling twisting. A wrenching. Intense pulling. Feels like being torn apart.


I see. Extra bright lights. Ache never ending stretching. A pressure. Pulling down, she cries aloud. She needs me to go now. My head is cramped in a vice. I’m expelled, squeezed. Out? Out? Out, not in.


Pushing. Strains. Help me. Help us. The space here is tight, I must leave. Help. So so tired but got to keep going. Release me from the tug. Then, quickly, I go. Descend, tumbling from darkness. Into a brilliant light.


Holding, still I catch onto the cord. No longer playing. Now almost strangling me. The only link of the past, I grapple. Something pulling me. Until I’m out and stranded.


My body is heaving ho. The life is out. Out out out. Mouth opens full, straining to breathe in a different way. Never done it like this before. All alone. Lungs gasp for fresh air. Out with the old, in with the new. I smell… mother. Nearby

I want her…so much. She lies limp.


Brightness. Too bright.


Huge metal clanking, something creaking, a door opens. Glaring over me. New shapes stampede. Stop the banging sound. My head hurts!

 “What’s going on? What the fuck is going on here? Tell us…”


So hot in here. So…

Cry much louder than before. We. Both too hot.


Covered, all in film, I’m wet, trembling. The big one cries quietly. Alone. My lungs grab the fetid air. I open wide. Breathe in and out. Strange smells. Don’t know.


Another soft form, she picks me up. I cry out all my mother's pain . Keep breathing now is all I know.

”Didn’t anyone notice?”

“She never said anything.”

”Not to anyone.”

”Nothing surprises me here.”

I’m lifted into space. So high!


Firmly.


“Hurry! Get clean towels – I am going to need them for this poor little mite.”


Someone hands a bed sheet. “This will have to do. It’s all we’ve got.”


But I want to be with big one! On the bed she lies pitching, eyes all dull.


Scooped away. Other arms have hold. Keep me safe.


But I need … the one in the bed.


A figure all broken and bloodied. She’s there among the red. It’s everywhere. Her eyes fall back in head. The bed smells of her. She’s not here. With me.

“I’ll bring baby back as soon as I can,” the person holding me says.


For a second, I look back, see the pain of defeat. Keep fighting. Please … I need you.


Powerless. Carried away.

The blanket keeps me warm; the stranger’s embrace soothes, makes me relax.

“Don’t worry. I’ll look after you, beautiful baby.”

***


Outside, so loud in the corridors, it seeps out. The clamour of other women.


My lungs expand. How many breaths more before they stop? How many heartbeats? In and, out in out. I must get back. To her. My outside journey has only just begun.


Air swishes through the big room tunnel. My newly opened lungs feel like they will burst. Other big shapes are here. One hands something soft. Trembling, it warms me. I’m enfolded. Feels good. Not as nice as inside big one, but good.


Words come from shape in the bright.

“Just one more minute with her.”


Nice smell. I like soft face. I grip her finger. Look into eyes, hold onto roundness.


Whispering in my ear, “I promise I will keep an eye on you, little baby. I’ll help your mother get well. I will bring you back when they’ve checked you’re safe at the hospital. Keep fighting little one. I can’t tell you how much she will love you. Your hair is so beautiful. Just like hers.” Tears roll down her face. Like bubbles.

🫧 🫧


New Walls. Closing in. Must not stay long.

Please. I must get back. To meet…

My. Mother.


August 30, 2024 20:25

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56 comments

Story Time
15:00 Sep 10, 2024

I love anything that breaks traditional form and structure. Well done, Helen.

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Helen A Smith
17:28 Sep 10, 2024

Thank you. It’s fun to try new things with writing and a safe environment to do it.

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Ernest Lam
07:45 Sep 13, 2024

Loved the originality. Didn't quite get it at the first paragraph, but it dawned on me as soon as I see "suck my fingers" Congrats on the shortlist!

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Helen A Smith
07:47 Sep 13, 2024

Thank you Ernest.

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Jim LaFleur
16:19 Sep 09, 2024

What a beautifully written and evocative piece! Congrats, Helen!

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Helen A Smith
16:21 Sep 09, 2024

Thank you Jim. It was a bit different, but i enjoyed writing it.

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KA James
03:21 Sep 08, 2024

Always like to read different and innovative styles, not to mention the creativity and unique approach. Congrats

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Helen A Smith
07:57 Sep 08, 2024

Thank you. I like to try new styles. Reedsy is good for that.

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Martin Ross
14:04 Sep 07, 2024

Thrilled for you — congratulations! Well-wrought, so well-deserved!

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Helen A Smith
14:37 Sep 07, 2024

Thank you Martin. I appreciate your kind words.

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Kim Olson
13:14 Sep 07, 2024

So incredibly creative and original! Congratulations!

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Helen A Smith
13:20 Sep 07, 2024

Thank you Kim.

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Beverly Goldberg
12:38 Sep 07, 2024

Brilliant. This is so unique a take on a journey. And the bubbles!

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Helen A Smith
12:41 Sep 07, 2024

Thanks Beverly, Glad you like them 🫧

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06:30 Sep 07, 2024

Interesting perspective of a baby. Prenatal and newborn. Congratulations. A truly unique story to the prompt.

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Helen A Smith
06:35 Sep 07, 2024

Thanks Kaitlyn. I was literally just reading the other thread. I decided to go “off piste” with the story. Wasn’t sure how it would go down, but got really into it.

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Marty B
20:24 Sep 06, 2024

Congratulations!!

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Helen A Smith
12:53 Sep 07, 2024

Thank you Marty.

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John Rutherford
16:40 Sep 06, 2024

Congratullations

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Helen A Smith
16:44 Sep 06, 2024

Thank you John.

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Greg DeLaurier
16:30 Sep 06, 2024

congratulations

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Helen A Smith
16:44 Sep 06, 2024

Thank you Greg.

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Kristi Gott
15:49 Sep 06, 2024

Very unique and creative. Congratulations!

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Helen A Smith
16:06 Sep 06, 2024

Thank you Kristi. I’m happy you thought it was unique.

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Trudy Jas
15:00 Sep 06, 2024

🎇🎆🪅🎉👍👍

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Helen A Smith
15:02 Sep 06, 2024

Thank you Trudy 😊

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C T E
14:52 Sep 06, 2024

Wow!!! Well done on the shortlist Helen. 🥳

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Helen A Smith
14:58 Sep 06, 2024

Thank you 🤩

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Luca King Greek
15:16 Sep 04, 2024

The story packs a punch. I liked it very much. Well done!

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Helen A Smith
16:08 Sep 04, 2024

Thanks Luca. It’s great you thought it packed a punch.

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Greg DeLaurier
18:42 Sep 03, 2024

So original. breaking rules of writing. going where. disturbing. beauty. sadness. ' I love.'

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Helen A Smith
07:09 Sep 04, 2024

Thank. You. So much… So pleased you enjoyed my story, Greg.

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Martin Ross
15:37 Sep 03, 2024

Brilliant prose poetry — very evocative, and compels the reader on. Well done!

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Helen A Smith
07:07 Sep 04, 2024

Thank you Martin. Pleased you found it compelling.

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10:25 Sep 03, 2024

Great idea for this prompt and really well written. Dreamlike in parts. Traumatic in others. But a safe ending :)

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Helen A Smith
11:50 Sep 03, 2024

Thank you Derrick, Pleased you like the idea. Look forward to reading your story soon.

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Victor David
22:51 Sep 02, 2024

A really nice piece, thank you Helen. I enjoyed the fragments and the awakening, and the realization of life. Nicely done, a lovely interpretation of the prompt.

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Helen A Smith
11:49 Sep 03, 2024

Thank you Victor. Really glad you enjoyed the fragments. Look forward to reading your work soon.

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Carol Stewart
22:19 Sep 02, 2024

Love this. Who'd have thought this could come from a travel prompt? Such an inventive take. The fragmented sentences/phrases worked brilliantly both before and after realising who your narrator was.

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Helen A Smith
11:48 Sep 03, 2024

Thank you so much Carol. Look forward to reading your story soon.

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