my love, my biggest mistake

Once there was a girl named Princess.

She grew up with so much loneliness around.

32 yrs of existence but she can't find a single happy memory she can think of during her past years.

Only memory with pure hatred towards her sorroundings.

A poor soul in need of so much love and attention.

She is a girl with so much hatred in her heart and she hated everyone around.

She hates her mom whom mostly is not around because she was busy at work and her dad who is also missing in action.

She's provided with good stuff though; a shelter, clothing, good education, pretty much everything some children would envy.

She was being envied by most but with all the sadness and loneliness she feels, her life considered as a child with a golden spoon on her mouth doesnt have much to be envied of, infact its the contrary, since Princess always envy those who have none but have pure smile and laughter written on their faces.

Like all princesses, she dreamt of having her prince but everytime a prince would appear, her family would go against it.

Stubborn as she is, she continued to meet that prince whom she thought would be the one. 12 yrs age difference is a hindrance though. She met that prince while she is sweet16 but it didnt last long since young as she is, she fell for another prince whom she felt at that time, the prince whom she met at the right time.

Sad to say, the 2nd prince already has his princess which leave Princess a broken heart.

Included with the pain are the memories of her 1st kiss under the moonlight, drunk, wild and free, like a lion unleashing the beast in it for the 1st time.

A nice but painful memory of her youth.

Another prince appeared but as young as 18, the parents was forced to meet the guy with a scenery as cold as the dessert sky.

It was what Princess though was the man whom she would marry but a sudden turn of events makes her normal world turned upside down.

Princess turned into a Prince.

Overnight, its as if she was bewitch by the beauty in front of her eyes that she felt love for the very 1st time.

It all started as a joke but that joke gradually makes her heart flutter that she became confuse whether to choose her prince or be the prince herself.

They made such lovely memories years ago with that girl that we will call Devi.

Princess make Devi feel the love with all the efforts she made just to enter her world.

There are blurred memories of a kiss on top of the world inside a ferris wheel where it felt at that moment the time stop just for the two of them.

Memories of a date where Princess wish it wont be their last meal together which really happened 10 yrs later and indeed, prayers from the heart really do come true.

Memories where she searched and found Devi's place because she missed her so bad she wanted to be with her.

Memories where she bring Devi on an outing at the beach together with Princess family where they decided to have their pet name.

Memories of a kiss in a room, two separate settings where Princess iniated the move but Devi is to naive to comprehend what was happening.

Memories where Princess leave a note for a dj on the radio to read for Devi to hear and it did really happen. Devi heard Princess heart over the radio.

10 yrs later after meeting the love of her life, Princess met Devi for the 2nd time after parting ways. A very long time of waiting and praying that it almost as if impossible to happen but it did.

they met again through a dream and it open another door for their love that was not fulfilled. She thought its bound to happen only to realized that God is playing tricks with her heart.

Devi turned into the Devil Princes never thought would be possible and this is were regret in Princess life started.

Do you believe that if you dream of someone, it means that someone missed you so bad they wanted to see you?

Princess dream of Devi that night and the next morning while Princess is talking to her friend about that certain dream, she recieve a call. A call from Devi.

By the way they parted ways without a clear goodbye and Devi made sure they'll meet when the time is right and it leave Princess a word of hope that someday somehow, fate would let them meet again. 10 yrs of waiting and it happened as if its a miracle and an answered prayer.

That call became the start of anothe chapter of their love story. It took a month of a love affair that ended pretty bad.

Devi cant choose who among his prince so she ask Princess for a month to decide and after a month, just one word and Devi"s gone.

A word SORRY without explanation why is the worst.

Princess got over the pain in just a yr and there goes Devi again, coming back and shattering her world one last time.

The last and the worst come back that leave Princess lifeless and in the end of her life, a flashback appeared.

Flashback of how much regret she had coming back to Devi. The come back that ruined the relics of their genuine love 10 yrs ago.

Devi was Princess fall that made her heart now full of doubt unable trust anyone.

Revenge? its more than what Princes wants. She wants Devi to feel the exact pain she caused her. The pain that ruined her world and dethroned her, losing everything she have.

the twist comes next.

When Devi was the path to Princess night and shining armor. They way to the Prince she's been waiting for.

The way to Cirel whom becomes her shoulder and rock to lean on.

Its just that Devi and Cirel live in the same neighborhood.

Until then...

Until they meet again...