To Listen or to Talk.... too much

To be or not to be, is this really the actual question? This can be more than just an unanswered question, yet it can be the beginning of something more pressing. This is where our story starts at, two people speaking to one another about this or that.

so why would it have to be or not to be? because I said it is and it was and it will be, that's why. But if that is the questions how can you define an actual answer? I may have to make it up as I go along, even though I do not wish to lie, even to my own self. Does that make sense? No it does not because you never actually make sense, if the truth be told.

So now you are saying I not smart or are you saying I am a know it all smart ass? Well if you put it that way, then maybe you are either one or both. Do you like my new approach of how I see you? Are you going to be mad because I finally spoke the truth? No I do not like this in any way, because I thought we were or are friends. Be it I who would correct you for your own faults or even point the very things that I have kept quiet about all these years.

I am not sure that we should keep any secrets from each other, being that we have been friends for this long, should we end this here and now? No, no we should not, more like we should never become friends in the first place, since we seem to have so many unresolved issues that are now surfacing. Oh so you think this friendship was a mistake and that we would be better off apart? Maybe so maybe not.

How can you say this to me now? how can you look at me, knowing that we have been so much, have had each other's backs, through thick and thin, only to allow this argument be the thing that ends our long term friendship so quickly? I am not sure what you mean exactly. Please be more specific in what you are saying.

I am not sure you want to hear the truth that is what has become a reality and what also was what made me afraid to share this bad news with you. I see you are deep in thought, a penny for your thoughts? No not right away, because what I may share with you may out weight anything you could ever speak about to me, in general.

How can you say that the way you just said it, since the more you share and the more you speak, the more I am beginning to feel left out of our former friendship, that is becoming more less enjoyable. So you feel that way about us and our former friendship? You have no understanding of the meaning of true friendship. do you? You seem to forget all the many things we have learned and discovered together, much less the way we became friends in the first place. How can you say such a horrible thing, when I do indeed, cherish and love our friendship and all that it means and stands for.

It with much hesitation, I will disagree to dissolve this, right here and right now, if you are only too happy to end it. But why would I want to end this, end the friendship over one simple disagreement over the words spoken in the beginning. So how can we finally decide what will be the end of this?? How can we become friends as we were once before, instead of what we are at this moment? Shall we sleep on this and come back tomorrow?

I sure will be so happy when we find the way to make things right. As do I. I am not certain how we arrived at this moment, but sleep will allow us to dream, dreams will allow us to wonder. I agree with the way you are thinking. Now can we make a decision? I would rather sleep on it? um ok.

They both are not sure if they want to sleep on this decision, since this would be the first time going to sleep mad at each other. I feel we need to decide now, with no time to decide differently, Does that sound ok with you? Yes it does. It seems we never had to do this before, but we never allowed such a trivial matter, be the start of our finishing our long time friendship. How can we find the answer to this? I am not sure.

I was then that we both were unsure and uncertain we were making the right decision. I was willing to take the risk and continue as we had always been, but not as certain as at first. I leaned in closer, and asked, do we put ourselves out of anything beyond friendship? I am not clear on what you mean? I mean that we have done well before by agreeing to be only friends, don't you think? Yes I would agree with you, but now I am not sure. How can I really answer this at all?

I want to be sure that we are willing to resolve this and find a meeting point, is that ok? yes, I am sure. But are you sure you want to continue with this and resolve it? I sure am.

As we sat down, this time the questions would be different. Are you happy with this friendship? Yes I am. Are you happy too? Yes I am. Does this friendship means everything to you? Yes it does. what is this friendship worth to you? Everything. Meaning? it means it is the most important part of being in a friendship with you. How can we beginning again? Oh, as we were before, until this moment. So you are in agreement that we should work to make it work? Yes I do. How shall we begin and where shall we begin at? Would now be a good time to start? Yes now is always a good time, if not a great time, or even the best time, to start anew.

So may I have this dance with you? Yes you may and who should lead first?