SHATTERED

Is this the right time, or the right place ?

To be precise , I'm talking of confessing to the one I had my eyes on since high school. He's bee a great supporter but never did I got a feeling from his side.

"Emma, you think it'll be good to go" He said with his boxy smile plastered on his charming face.

I looked down on my plate, my spaghetti was still the same while his was half finished.

I slurped in the noodle and nodded.

"Well Jake, she doesn't look like she wanna go" Cindy mocked and glared at me.

Jake looked at me, shivers running down my spine. I hesitated a bit but the look on Cindy's face made my blood boil. Shooting a bullet through my eyes at Cindy I said with my sweetest voice "If she has any problem with me then she can stay here"

"oh no you guys , You know you both have to come my party" Jake said and forced a smile sensing the hot atmosphere building up.

"I'll do the dishes" Jake got up leaving the two of us having a glaring competition.

"How many times do I need to tell you that Jake is already mine so stop bulging in between" Cindy slid her hair back and said.

"Well, I cannot see that and you know that too" I folded my arms and sat while having a last glance at Jake.

"We'll see that" Cindy got up dashing out of the room.

She must be going home since she's always been like this , 'arrogant and needy'.

"Where did she go?" Jake came in with two glasses of wine.

"Home, most probably" I sighed and took a sip.

Wine is the only thing that cools me down from the rushing adrenaline.

"Jake I wanna talk to you about something?" I said looking at him while he was busy scrolling his social media.

"Hmm" he hummed for a response.

"I wanted to tell you from a really long time that...."

I was cut off by some maniac who had to call him at this very moment.

"I'm sorry but I need to go Emms, 911" He said getting up while I sighed and looked at the cup of wine.

my eyes followed him leaving me alone in the shallow house. I've always wished for the expected but that never happens in my case.

Getting up from the chair, I pulled the curtains for the light of moon to strike me, Maybe the moon was laughing how I was still suffering for the one who never considered me more than a friend.

"You told its gonna be difficult, yes it is" I looked up at the shining moon who looked lonely too.

I've been living alone since the time I moved states and my first ever friend whom I started liking was Jake Mcstevins. He's been a popular hunk, every girl's dream. His amber eyes gave highlighted his bangs and his boxy smile was all people were living for. I was more into studies so I didn't really give it a thought of him being charming and cute until the prom night. It was his move and to my shock I never believed him, He was caring , smart , an athlete with six packs (a charming figure to be noted).

Cindy was school's 'miss wanna be' who can go to any extent to get whatever she wishes for. And its been four years knowing her still there was no improvement. We never really talked rather fought for little things.

It was getting cold so I drew the curtains and moved back to my room.

At Jake's place 2 days later

I was never this nervous for anything, not even for my IELTS.

I sat there crossing my legs in that short dress, my legs shining as if freshly waxed but they were my natural, I've always had a minimum hair growth in my body and that's the only thing I like about me.

It was half past eight and I couldn't find him anywhere in his own party.

Jake's roommate was entertaining the whole house by his nonchalance, people looked like enjoying it but I was not interested in it so I got I got up leaving the crowded place. The rest of the rooms were full of people making out in different corners.

I dialed Jake's number but he didn't pick up which made my heart pound faster. I paced looked into different rooms when I heard some weird sounds from a room. I didn't want to disturb whoever was there. As I took a step forward in the opposite direction I heard Cindy's voice "Aghh Jake pls"

"What the hell!!" I barged into the room only to see Jake on top of him while there bodies wrapped perfectly.

"So this is what this party was for right!!!" I shouted while my tears ran down irrelevant of my aching heart.

"Look Emma I can explain" Jake got up wearing his pants but I shook my head in a 'no' and ran from that place.

"I should've known it" I cursed at myself while running back at my place.

My heart was numb due to the pain, it was aching but my tears said it all. The love I had for him faded within minutes, The excitement I had disappeared and longed for warmth. His face flashed infront of my eyes and how he hovered over Cindy.

"Yucks" I cursed while taking small steps now, the pain to submerge within my soul. I cannot believe, he was the man I wanted to be with who doesn't even care who's below him.

The pain which was constant grew like a thunderstorm. I wanted to kill him but I was weak. I wanted to tell him how much I loved him but now I wanted to beat him to death.

"Why lord?" I screamed as I walked on that dark road which seemed endless.

The clouds started thundering and it didn't take a minute to rain.

Being drenched in the cold rainy water I couldn't stop the thoughts dancing in my head. It was like yesterday, the love blossomed but it was all my fault "loving the wrong guy do no good."

AUTHOR'S NOTE-

Never be too late to confess your love to anyone, taking time leads to several misunderstanding and by doing this you only make a fool of yourself.

I hope you liked it, stay tuned for more such stories.