Gift

Do you believe that the moment; when a breeze brushing my skin, totally changed my life at that night?

I am SIGMA and I’m a weird girl, since I was young. I can feel many things that other can’t see and I can also feel trees and nature’s heart and sometime I can connect with animals. Absolutely yes, first time I notice that when I was 12 years old. At first time, I didn’t believe that I just thought like a coincidence. Do you want to know about my first case? Of course, I know you want. Ok, let start about my first case, one night, our domesticated fishes are jumping whenever I was passing nearby. I was so wonder, then I said “Ohh fishes are jumping, I think tomorrow my grandma job will work it.” I told to my grandma. That’s really happen, my grandma job was well done and she gained many profits from that job. My grandma and I were so surprised about that. After that, I carefully watched the fishes’ movement. Whenever I founded those fishes’ jumping, my family jobs were well done and gained good result, especially in money profits cases.

So, do you want to know more about me right? Ok, listen. One past day, one type of plant that planted in the garden where behind of our house, that almost dead. But my father loved that plant. So, he tried to save that plant, he poured water and added fertilizer many times but it isn’t work. I also wanted to save that plant because of my father loved. Therefore, I watched that plant nearly and I touched the leaves of that plant. Then, I didn’t know why I feel like the plant look to the sun. Thus why, I made that plant got sunlight more. The next day, the leaves of that plant were fresher and alive again. My father was wonder about me, he said…. “How did you do that? Have you ever read about that plant, how to planting?” I replied. “No, never! I just touch and feel those leaves.” “What a genius my little girl, you are a weird!”

My family viewed me in positive way, they called me supernatural girl but, in my school, all kids saw me like a monster because I was different from them. They told their parents like I would be dangerous to them. Thus why, all the parents requested to school principal to force me for quite from school. Therefore, I quitted from school and our family move on another city. Our family started again in new city, forgot all our past and I was also lived by hiding my weird one. Hiding my weird one wasn’t easy for me because I could feel all things around me that hurt me. Whenever I neglect these things, I felt their feelings and their pains that made me week more and more.

Thus why, I felt sick of it that everyone saw me strange and I was so embarrassed about that. I was really shame on myself, felt like I didn’t deserve to live on this earth. I wanted to open my heart to someone who understand me. You can ask me ‘why are you open up your family?’. That’s the reason of the most upset myself. One night, I open up my all of these emotion to my families but my families said, “Do you want to move to another city again like our past? Even though you feel upset, just keep it on yourself.”

When I listened that word, my feeling was terrible. My emotions were break through my handling limit. At that night, I went the back yard of our house, then I sat one corner of the yard and I cried breathily. Then, I kept sitting on that place, in the dark, I saw the stars and I spoke to the stars inside my heart. That time a breeze brushing me and I heard a voice. I met her. She asked me “Hello! Dear SIGMA, why are you upset?” I asked again_ “Who are you? Why I can’t see you? And how do you know me?” She replies me softly, “I know everyone on this earth because I went everywhere and there is no place where I haven’t gone. You already knew me but you just can’t recognize yet.” “Why I can’t see you?” “Oh dear, that’s my true existence. You can’t catch me or hold me or see me, you can just only feel me. I am wind.” “Wind? How can you speak to me?” “No, I can’t. But your heart can hear our voices. That’s your natural gift my girl.” I was silent in that moment, then I asked her one question_ “If this is my gift, why am I feel pain or why people see me like a bad witch?” “Ok, my dear! Do you want to travel with me to BRARTWORLD?”

“BRARTWORLD? Where is it? Why don’t you answer me for my question?” “Before I give you answer, I want to show you in BRARTWORLD. Come with me girl. Close your eyes and feel me then climb on my flow.” I did by her words and when I opened my eyes I flied in the air. I saw many red vines, I through those many vines with her and I founded one of red building. That building was so sparkling and its structure was so strong. As soon as I saw it, I felt a little afraid because of that building’s honor. Although I afraid, I went forward inside of the building. After I went inside of that, there was so beautiful; classical decorations were fixing and painted the wall with royal color, all of the rooms are built by neatly room by room. I opened the left corner of the rooms; I found a huge library book-shelf where had many categories of books. I was amazing and my mouth lost words. Then I couldn’t believe what I saw. I close that room and I move to another room where located the right corner of the building. Right corner room was full of the light fogs, but there was separately 3 parts by colors; light purple fog, mixing light blue and yellow fog and the last one was bright white fog. Even though I stayed in that room, I couldn’t feel shortness of breath because of fogs instead of that, I felt active, fresh and safe and warm. I asked to her,

“Where are we now?” “This is BRARWORLD, then this building is called STOIC building.” “STOIC Building? Why call like that?” “No, it isn’t time to answer all of your question. I have to show you next wonderful one. That is a main one of on this BRARTWORLD. Take my tune with your flow, let’s move to there.”. She took me underneath of the building and I fell down by riding her flow. Then, I jumped to one of the stone. That stone was the hugest one among of the BRARWORLD. But I felt like that stone was so soft but not weak, that couldn’t be broken by anyone or anything else. That stone appearance like a circle and were covered by many layers. I thought that wasn’t the true appearance of that stone. There has one door but the door was locked with padlock and padlock was rusting. I asked her “How to open this? Can I see inside of the stone?” “Yes, of course, you can! But you want to know one thing that if you need to open this, you don’t need to break this.” She was silent at moment and I felt she smiled and said, “Just hug the padlock with your truth heart. That’s is the key.”

I was silent and I couldn’t catch her words what she meant. Then, I realized what she meant to. I smiled and hugged the padlock. The padlock was changed with a golden bright light to new and that opened. I felt what a wonderful scene. When I went inside of that stone, I couldn’t notice the changes of stone appearance. The stone appearance was also changed. After I went inside of that stone, I founded four rooms. First room was shinning like a Sun, second one was so fresh and healing like an Ocean, third one was so loyal and beautiful like a farm of Sunflowers, and the last one was so sweety and lovely like a Pink Cloud. I was speechless. Then, I heard her voice. “My dear! How do you see this stone? Are you feel what this stone?” I couldn’t reply anything. I was just gazing to those rooms. I felt so amazing and wonderful more than I saw all of my life. She said again. “Are we go outside again?” I was gazing those rooms and I went outside again. After I came back to outside and I saw that the shape of the stone was changed. My wonder was double for that because the truth shape of stone was HEART shape. I exclaimed “Heart shape! Why this is heart shape? Whose heart, is it?” “Yes, my dear! Now is the time to answer for all your questions. How do you think this BRARTWORLD?” “I have only amazing for all in this BRARTWORLD.” “Dear! Actually, we are in your anatomy. BRARTWORLD is just the name I created for you.” “What? What do you mean?” “Yes, BRART is combination of BRAIN and HEART word. STOIC Building what you saw first, is your brain and the stone heart that is your heart. Left corner room of the building, you remember right, that is your IQ and another right corner of the room is your EQ. Do you remember the colors of fog that in right corner of the room? That mean to your creative, emotional and intuitive. Then, I told you stone heart is the main one right!” I show her that I remembered what she said. “That’s true my dear. Heart is the most important for everyone. Do you remember, four rooms inside heart. These all are your heart’s abilities. That’s all you can do for everyone. How beautiful your heart. But you noticed one thing? Your heart is closed for a long time. You are the only one who can open.” “But how? I don’t know the key.” “You don’t know really? Let’s think about what you do and how you open it.” “I, I’m, I hugged the padlock with my whole heart with LOVE_” “Good my girl. That’s the key. LOVE. But not from other just from you. You need to love yourself girl. I need to accept your existence first. After you accept yourself and love yourself, you will change all vision on yourself to positive way, then others will accept and love you as you do yourself. My dear, I want to say my last word that YOU CAN RUN AWAY FROM ANYONE OR ANYTHING WHATEVER YOU WANT, BUT YOU CAN’T RUN AWAY FROM YOURSELF NEVER EVER.”

After a breeze said that I waked up suddenly in my bed. I didn’t know how I got in to my room last night. I wrote detail about the dream that I dreamed last night as soon as I waked up. Then, I read it again and again. I realized that I don’t need to hid my supernatural power because that was not bad thing. That was a GIFT for me; to help people. I’m not a strange one or bad witch or monster. I’m just me. Yes. That’s me. That’s my truth. I accept my true self and I will live proudly for my gift and I will help with my gift to others. That’s my FATE.

Over that night, I met a breeze, my life was totally changed.

4:43 AM (KST)

V.LUNA