‘’I don’t think a time will ever come when I will ever forgive
the universe for the pain it ever caused me. I would be lying
to you if I ever told you that the world has surely been fair to
me. I have actually suffered much inner pain more than any
teenager of my age has ever experienced’’I cried out.
‘’Why do you say this things to me child? You are making me
emotional!’’ My aunt softly responded as she held my right
hand.
‘’Look here aunt…….The world has robbed me two precious
jewels within a span of 1 month…..As if it’s not enough, it has
subjected me to extreme poverty for more than 7 years’’ I
tearfully narrated to her.
She looked at me for some seconds probably looking for the
right words to console me with. She was a renown
practiotinist and a mentor in one of the leading NGOs in the
country hence her experience in her profession made me
value her advice.
Gaining courage, she held my left shoulder with her right
hand and said these historical words that forever reign in my
small head.
’’’Son, if at all you really understand the nature of God, then
learn to accept his will".
I found her words a bit odd at the moment and therefore
walked out of the room desperately leaving my aunt alone.
I had suffered enough in the hands of the unfair universe
and was prepared to give myself up to it rather than fight it.I
walked desperately towards my aunt's tomato farm and sat
just outside the greenhouse probably to get hold of the cool
fresh air surrounding the place. I sat there for about an hour
looking traumatized with my eyes plainly staring at the birds
of the air. I did not know when Grandpa arrived at the place
until when I heard his hands tightly holding my right
shoulder. I lost control and tearfully fell in his open arms
without even speaking to him. I cried in his arms for the next
5 minutes non-stop with Grandpa only holding me in his
warm jacket.
He too looked devastated by the turn of events but had no
other option but to act courageously as if nothing had
happened. After making sure I had calm down, he asked me
to rise up and look at him in his eyes.
"Grandson, just look at me “he emotionally said to me to
which I obeyed the order.
He removed an ink pen from his pocket and pointed it to me
in a mysterious way. He then said the following historical
words that have forever remained in my heart up to this
date:
"Let what happened in the past be an inspiration to you
sweet grandson......Let every pain that the world has caused
you be a step-stone to your future success.....Let the losses in
your life give you the inner need to inspire more people in
the world “he took a deep breath probably to give me the
chance to digest his words. He was still pointing me with his ink pen and I guessed he was doing that to drive more of my
attention.
"Grandson, how do you feel in your heart?" he asked me
after a short glance.
I was already feeling more emotional and was therefore not
in the moods to respond to him. I instead looked at him and
desperately allowed tears to freely flow in my eyes in his
presence.
"Please stop crying child...You are making me more
emotional...."he painfully lamented.
I knew he had also lost a lot of people in his life including his
two sons and his wife who was my grandma and therefore I
really understood his worry for me.
"Grandpa, I feel as if life was purposely made to hurt our
family...Why always us? “I cried out painfully. He dropped hisink pen and held my right hand and helped me rise up from
the farm ground. He then removed a handkerchief from my
jacket which was hanging next to the greenhouse and gave it
to me to wipe my watery face.
I was already gaining some physical strength and therefore I
courageously wiped my tears before asking grandpa all my
shocker questions that I had always wanted him to answer
me.
"Grandpa, if you give me the answers to my 5 questions, I
think I will never ever be bitter to the universe again “I
painfully told him.
"It's okey child.....I will of course answer you to the level best
“Grandpa assured me.
"While....Why does God allow us to have the best families if
he knows he will allow death to separate us one day? If I kill
myself now, will I meet all the people whom death has taken
away from me? Do you think death will rob us any of our
loved ones again? Why always death? Is death really a
punishment to us from God? “I desperately asked him.
Grandpa looked puzzled by my questions but was however
forced to answer every question I had asked him.
"Grandson? “he called out .
"Yes Grandpa “I responded back
"Never question the will of God.... Everything that happens in
our lives happens for his good “Grandpa explained much to
my surprise. I wondered how on earth do God allow our
loved ones to die yet he still tells us in the Bible that he will
always stand by us in all times.
"Am not understanding anything at all grandpa....I think am
already feeling more agitated by everything..."I painfully told
him.
"Grandson ,let's just enter in the house and I will show you
something special “Grandpa told me as he led the way. All
through, my mind was busy remembering the memories I
had shared with my beloved grandma and my late dad. I
wondered how on earth would life ever get sweet again in
their absence.
"Who will ever cook for me yellow sweet potatoes again like
grandma? Who will ever sing for me traditional songs like
grandma? “I tearfully thought to myself as I followed
grandpa to the tableroom.I sat on the sofa set and fell into
another deep set of thoughts as I waited for grandpa to
check a document on his wardrobe.
"Oh my sweet dad....I can't imagine you are gone....I miss you
already “I emotionally thought to myself.
"If I had a chance to make a wish to God, then your life would
be the greatest wish I would ever make...I feel lonely like an
injured female grasshopper... Grandpa has been explaining everything to me but unfortunately I tend not to understand
anything...I am even missing you more...."I tearfully cried.
I was still in my school of thoughts when I heard grandpa's
voice calling out my name .
"Grandson...."
"Yes Grandpa.."I politely responded
"Your face is watery....Wipe out your tears"he told me much
to my shock. I had not realized that I had been crying all
throughout my thoughts while I was waiting for grandpa to
settle.
"Oh my....."I sighed up as I wiped my face.
Grandpa then came closer to where I had sat down and gave
me a certain document before sitting just next to me.
"Grandson, what do you see in the cover page? "Grandpa
mysteriously asked.
"I see the word #Tribute which is written in bold “I softly
responded.
"That's right child....You have answered right. “Grandpa
paused before continuing.
"That is the document I wrote for your late dad and your late
grandmother...."Grandpa revealed.
"But how? When ? Where? You mean you knew they will die?
“I desperately asked Grandpa as I looked at the document.
"Everyone will die one day child.....I will also die one day and
leave you to continue with the lineage...That's the nature of
life..."Grandpa concluded as he took the document from my
hands.
"I want to read to you THE TRIBUTE of your loved ones..Just
be Keen and let the words forever remain in your
heart..."Grandpa insisted.
"Ahem!"He began in style.
"This is the tribute to any person in the universe who has
ever lost a loved one..."Grandpa took a deep breath before
continuing. I was all along looking at him desperately
probably trying to guess what he would say next.
"One of the most beautiful and heartwarming tributes ever
created by me might have remained a sweet secret for years
had death not robbed me two most precious jewels in the
world...... When I lost my wife and son 10 years ago, I
wanted to create a lasting memorial to them where I could
sit and reflect on their years together...... I cried for months
with no one able to understand my pain....I bought 6,000
young tea seedlings, but left a perfect heart shape in the
middle. The heart-shaped meadow can only be accessed
from a trail leading to the tip of the heart which is only
accessed by me. The meadow cannot be seen by anyone
unless anyone who specifically visits my home in the
memorial service.....Years have passed, months have passed
and now days are still going but no one has been able to fill
this blank gap that was left in my heart....I have however
learnt something very very important all along ....."Grandpa
paused to have a deep breath. His words had pierced me so
deeply and was therefore expectant to hear more from the
enthusiastic tribute.
"Sometimes, what we care about the most goes away,
never to return before we can say goodbye, say "I Love You."
So while we have it - it's best we love it .
And care for it and fix it when it's broken
and take good care of it when it's sick.
This is true for marriage - and friendships!
And children with bad report cards;
and dogs with bad hips;
and aging parents and grandparents.
We keep them because they are worth it,
because we cherish them!
Some things we keep -
like a best friend who moved away
or a classmate we grew up with.
There are just some things that
make us happy, no matter what.
Life is important, and so are the people we know.
And so, keep them close! “Grandpa paused a bit as he closed
his tribute book .
"Grandson, what is gone is gone....Cherish every moment you
live with someone. “He concluded.
I rose up from the sit and walked outside the house feeling
more relieved. I looked at the blue sky and could spot very
strong words written in it ;
"Let us learn from the lips of death the lessons of life. Let us
live truly while we live, live for what is true and good and
lasting. And let the memory of our dead help us to do this.
For they are not wholly separated from us, if we remain loyal
to them."
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