Barking up the wrong tree.

How desperate are you?

I have my guesses.

My opinions too.

Most of all.

Experiences.

And many notable notables have extended the hand of generous wisdom in saying. The quiet part out loud:

Experience IS the best teacher.

You made your bed. And. Now. You must lie in it.

Albeit.

Alone.

Without me.

In it

At the foot.

Or anywhere else for that matter.

I cannot help you.

In that way anymore.

I “awarded” you the freedom so long ago.

Clarification: You awarded yourself the freedom to browse as you wished. And.

Forgot to tell me.

Thus. leaving important parts of us to die along with your lack of

Noticing.

Or maybe it was simply you needed and had a burning desire to belong to something other that what you committed to.

Noted.

Duly noted.

As a good dog knows upon waiting its family member’s return.

I am always here.

When you need, needed me.

If that even is a cog in your wheel.

I am thinking. Not.

I am not betting, well, cuz’ you recall the outing I was a prop for….

And I always was.

But you had different motivations.

Different intentions.

I cannot fix it now.

Hot and young chicks have much to learn.

Maybe your goal is to teach them.

Kudos.

Have at it.

In addition. Superficiality takes hold and well saggy this and saggy that is just so.

Ick.

Taught and tight are oh so much better.

Wrinkles are just so, ick.

Maybe. Maybe not.

Let’s see how it goes.🔥

There is a lot to be said about a life well lived with challlenges that boggle the mind. And a strong person who is able to handle the ebbs and the flows. Still attempt to figure out who the “goofs” are. Who the “frauds” are. With a smile at the end of the day to those who they wholeheartedly,

Commit. Commit to.

Samuel taught me that.

Why?

He saw.

And said the quiet part out loud.

Bless Samuel for having the courage to say it.

You were there.

But.

Perhaps you were not.

I have nothing to gain.

Love has grown cold.

Regard has not.

Raising up persons is not a job for those who cannot handle the nuances of the job.

And I could. Can. And. Did.

With help of a chosen few.

Who had.

Been there. Done that.

There are no shortcuts.

In the meantime.

I am prepared.

Once again.

For the bumping.

For the grinding.

For the elbowing.

For the batted eyes.

For the gold dates.

For the bold dates.

For the text dates.

For the date dates.

For the late dates.

After hours dates.

Text late dates.

Group chats.

Late chats.

Bed chat chats.

”After hours”

Have at it.

Power on as you must.

Been there. Don’t that. Too.

The conclusion.

You were never really that into me.

I am not ok with that.

Who would be?

I am not that stupid either.

Who would be?

When true love exists. It exists.

Omnipresent.

And.

All consuming.

It takes a brave dog to admit.

”Hey, I WOULD kill for you.”

But.

”Hey, Can you give me something to go on?”

Like.

You wouldn’t need “things” earlier.

For me.

Just to make a deal?

I cannot cope with that.

Loyal and true.

Cannot blame it on the business model either…..

Most of all.

I am a loyal dog.

Squander that.

And you will reget it.

By God’s grace.

We WILL grow old.

Some folks have spent a lifetime not liking who they are.

Are you one of them.

At the expense of another……..

For this reason.

For that reason.

Maybe societal reasons.

Maybe discriminatory reasons.

Maybe selfish reasons.

Maybe selfless reasons.

Standing. looking face to face with ourselves is the daunt that we choose to NOT see another day.

Soooooooooo,

We hedge.

We run.

We include.

We exclude.

We explain.

We ‘splain away.

Our real truth..

We compliment.

We shirk.

We twerk.

We pretend.

We get real.

We jump all over.

We jump on one another.

In baseless attempts to “Win.”

And if we do,

”Win.”

What have we won?

A child dying.

An adult dying.

A family dying.

OUR souls dying?

You play your way.

I will play mine.

Yours may guarantee you get to there from here.

With the crack of the club. The crack of the bat. The crack of the rich. The crack of the rat.

Go for it.

And.

Bring it on.

My team is really astute.

Really adept.

I would bet on and with them any putt, grind or gossip of any course.

Life course.

It doesn’t matter if you win or lose.

It’s how you play the game.

Fair enough.

Same goes for when life gets tough for you.

Right?

Like. When tragedy hits. And you have not idea what to do. Or. When tragedy doesn’t hit. And you beg God that you should have done more.

To prevent disaster.

Here’s a tip.

For you.

The really selfish say,

”Not my problem.” “It’s yours.”

Now I am guessing. just guessing. You wish you didn’t tap that app to eat that extra pizza, or bear witness to that awesome athlete doing other worldly bobs and weaves across the field of the dreams of your life. Soooooo awesome. The talent.

”Sorry.”

I do not make the rules.

I just follow more strict and stringent steward-like ones.

They involve morality.

At all costs.

Big costs.

Little costs.

BMW costs.

Mercedez costs.

You did it your way.

I do it mine.

Please.

Please.

If anything.

Assess how you determine to get to your next there from here.

And a word of wisdom from someone not so wisdom-ly.

Before you plan on going anywhere.

Get to work.

Hard word.

Self-evaluation work.

You cannot live the rest of your life the way you have.

On easy street.

I know.

I know.

You earned your excellent exam grades.

”Good for you!”

Really.

Disclaimer.

I had to study like a rapid dog, like the dickens.

And.

I still got a “C”.

Ignorant?

Stupid?

Dumb?

On the contrary.

A wisdom beyond believe. Beyond belief.

I always love saying that.

And.

Disclaimer: I believe it.Wholeheartedly.

You say.

I paid so much for this university or that.

I am owed this or that.

A seat in the stands to paint myself silly and groan myself Willy Nilly. Drinks, beers.Act all Silly.

I say.

Good for you!

And now I say,

Institutions have a way of institutionalizing.

What say you. Now that you are “home free”.

Maybe. Say. Or entertain the thought.

You have not arrived.

Where it is most important.

Being on the path to there is nothing short of

Glorious.

I wish you the “smarts” to get there.

In the meantime,

I wish you the ability to

Get to work.🙂🍷