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Christmas Suspense Drama

Somethin' Lost

by Rita Dyan Ractliffe

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December 1990

Christmas at Maddie's was always a special time. The guys felt a warm glow just being with her; it made up somewhat for the families they didn't have. Vietnam veterans with no real home between them, they could get along fine, most of the time. But this time of year always tugged at them. 

Hadrian seemed to perk up more this time of year when he could spend it with her. Leader of a freelance crew of professional do gooders, he'd spent most of his life alone. But she'd been swayed by his six foot frame, crowned with silver hair and aqualine eyes that could cut glass -- if he wished. Life and circumstances kept them apart far too much, but this holiday they all gathered, a family love and exigency had created.

The Christmas eve party was going full blast; after their outrageously huge dinner, the boys were toasting everything in sight with Maddie's potent eggnog brew. She grinned evilly when asked about its strength. "Don't worry. You're not driving anywhere tonight, boys, so enjoy," giving Hadrian a particularly meaningful glance. She fully intended to have the Colonel all to herself this night after tucking his pals in the farthest bedroom she had.  

Dinner was superb and the vibes couldn't have been more mellow and loving. - yet Hadrian felt an unease gnawing away at him and was vacant all evening.

Finally, he slipped out the back door into the crisp frosty air, rapidly zipping up his down jacket as he did so. The snow lay on the ground, glistening like a million diamonds in the silvery light of the rare Christmas "blue" moon. He wasn't quite sure what was nagging at him, but he knew he had to answer it. As he trudged away from the back of the old house, crunching the icy carpet beneath him and pulled relentlessly toward the dark woods, he felt the feeling grow stronger and stronger within him.

* * *

Beau was the first to notice Hadrian's absence. He looked around and checked with everybody, to see whether his commander had said anything to anyone. He noticed Hadrian's coat was gone. Wondering why the hell his friend would leave the cozy warmth of the house to face the bitter cold outside, he grabbed his own coat and followed suit quietly.

* * *

Hadrian leaned against a rickety fence, looking outward over the peaceful valley below him, yet seeing none of it. His mind was now many miles and many years away from this place...

...He saw the small, ramshackle huts, the sturdy people bundled up in their winter rags. Adjusting the small, scraggly pine tree on his shoulder, he continued his journey down the dirty slush road into the village. He was met by many people, waving, saying hello, or shyly watching his arrival from behind their doorposts. The young Lieutenant grinned back at all of them. He was searching for his favorite however - young Kim, the brightest one of the lot, the kid with the most potential and biggest smile. He was going to teach them how to make Christmas "wreaths" tonight. Well, as much "wreath" as you could hope for in Korea in the winter. Getting the woebegone little Christmas tree had been a real test of ingenuity, but Lt. Stark was a master of that. The homemade "ornaments" would win no awards in metro Detroit, but they would win the hearts and smiles of a few children here.

His squad mates had thought he was mad - to pass on a perfectly good leave, replete with booze and broads, to come down here! Hadrian shrugged off their initial solicitous inquiries and then their later raucous innuendos...

Hadrian shook his head. The snow had begun to fall again, and he was surprised to see a light dusting of white on his jacket. How long have I been standing here? He was startled to see Beau standing a few feet away from him, watching him intently.

"Beau... how long have you been standing there?" he asked lamely.

"Probably as long as you have, Colonel. You okay, Hadrian?" The concern was evident in his eyes.

Smith looked at his younger cohort cautiously for a long moment. "Yeah, Beau. Just had some rememberin' to do of..... other..... Christmases." His eyes grew a bit more vacant.

"Not the best ones, I would guess, judging from your expression," Pearce ventured cautiously.

Hadrian smiled thinly. "No..... not what you'd call outstanding memories." He looked back out at the sea of sparkling ice crystals carpeted before him, his gaze wandering again.

"You wanna talk about it, Hadrian? or better if I leave?"

Smith didn't say anything for a long moment, then it slowly began unspooling. "Korea, Beau. 1952. Winter. Cold as hell... this is warm, believe me, compared to that. A bunch of villagers, new Christian converts who were trying to eke out what living they could in the middle of both war and the bitter winter. I took whatever I could from the camp over to them -- to help out."

Beau smiled bitter sweetly to himself; how like Hadrian. 

"Well, for this trip I managed to requisition a Christmas tree from Manila, and was taking it to them. There was one kid especially, name of Kim," Hadrian's eyes sparkled at the memory, "who I really enjoyed watching grow up. Real dynamite go-getter - you know the type."

He looked at Beau and smiled softly. "But when I got there, Kim wasn't around anywhere. His mom said held gone out earlier to watch for me. I didn't worry too much at first, but as it got later and colder, and the snow started up again, we all decided something was real wrong, and went to look for him. Mosta' the night, and we found zip. I had to go back to the base, couldn't stay any longer. They sent a runner to me the next afternoon..... they found him."

Hadrian's throat tightened as he bowed his head. "Poor little guy had frozen to death. They found him next to a pine scrub, with a knotted branch in his hand. I'd tried for weeks to show the kids how to weave pine twigs for a wreath. I guess he finally got the hang of it and wanted to be the first to show me."

Beau said nothing; what words were there? Here was yet another small building block in Stark's makeup - another small tragedy he'd built his character on.

"That was the hell of it. He knew his friend was coming and couldn't wait to surprise him with his latest accomplishment. Unfortunately, he got lost in the snow and finally lay down to catch a quick nap while waitin' . . . hadta' be... Kim was too smart to just lay down in the snow... maybe he was hurt? We'll never know... but they found him, clutching one of those silly pine things I'd made for them. I just never quite got over it, I guess. And every so often, at Christmas, on a snowy night, I'll remember Kim, and have to come out and look for him – maybe this time I'll be in time. Silly, huh?" Hadrian raised glistening eyes to Beau, the deprecating tone not able to disguise the emotion there.

No, Colonel, not silly at all.  Fighting the catch in his voice, Beau replied, "Well, then, if that's what you gotta do, Colonel, then let's do it. Maybe this time you *will* find him," he ended, thinking of the two tormented souls perhaps finally touching and making their peace.

Smith's return gaze was mixed; not entirely sure how much Beau might be playing him or humoring the liquor they'd all drunk so copiously earlier. But after a moment of intense scrutiny, he decided Beau was sincere. He nodded to one side and then headed off again, looking to either side of the forest, looking for that small body that waited for him so long ago.

* * *

Beau saw it first. A small huddled lump, off the beaten trail by only a few feet. "Hadrian," his voice quavered as a definite chill ran up his back. 

Stark stopped his striding and looked over to where Beau was pointing. He stood there, almost as if frozen in time, looking at the sight. 

Beau got his senses back first, went bounding over to the lump. It was a small kid, looked to be about 4-5 years old; probably trying to walk home, got lost, sat down for awhile to rest, and fell asleep.

They both got there simultaneously, although it was Stark's powerful arms that swept the child up. He began to run, with a pounding, rhythmic cadence; somehow instinctively knowing where Maddie's house was, even through the blinding snow. It was all Beau could do to keep up with him. They rushed through the increasingly obscure night, racing him back to Maddie for revival.

She heard them coming as they bounded onto the porch of the sturdy Craftsman cabin, and flung the door wide, not expecting what she saw. "Maddie, quick! Kid's been out in the snow . . . What do we need to do?" Hadrian's voice held a strident edge that surprised her. She took the small bundle from his arms, unwrapped the knitted scarf from around its head and exclaimed, "Why, Kim James! What in the hell was he doing out in all that?!"

Beau did a doubletake at the name; Hadrian never noticed in his concern for the child. She took him into the surgery to lay him down on the exam table. After what seemed like an eternity to the worried Colonel, the child began to move, moaning fretfully. Maddie looked at Hadrian with liquid eyes. "He's gonna be fine, Hadrian. Probably more scared than anything. You want to stay here with him while I call his parents?" she asked, sensing some bond here she didn't understand. Hadrian nodded and took the toddler's small hand in his own large one.

Beau went with Maddie as she called the distraught parents. They had been beside themselves with worry, and had no idea of where to even begin looking for their small person. Maddie hung up on their fervent promise to set new land records getting to her surgery.

As she and Beau went back into the exam room, Maddie voiced her puzzlement out loud. "What I don't understand is Hadrian's need to go outside then - at that particular moment. What compelled him?"

As she entered the room she was met by Hadrian's enigmatic blue eyes and Mona Lisa smile. "Something was lost, Maddie..... and now it's found." He wouldn't say another word, returning his attention to the child. Maddie was left visibly wondering.

Beau ventured one comment. "Some day, maybe, he'll be able to tell you, Maddie. But not tonight. I think we just had ourselves a special Christmas delivery here..... a little overdue." Beau smiled enigmatically, honoring Hadrian's reticence with his own respectful silence.

January 16, 2021 12:40

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Damian Nowacki
14:19 Mar 02, 2021

Very interesting...I LOVED IT!

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Rita Ractliffe
23:08 Mar 02, 2021

Thank you! After reading it again, realized I didn't put in the final line. "Kim had come home."

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