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i wonder,i wonder why i listen, sometimes its weird, its hard to not. i feel like all my desicions are wrong, i feel like a mistake i feel alone,so i search for an answer and so, i started listening to others hoping for advice, its just a way of living for me, i ask people what to do because i cant think for myself i ask for advice then move on to the next like eating a bag of crisps i dig through it picking up ideas i search for the crumbs at the bottom wondering if i can find a good idea but when i cant and theyre al gone i simply move onto the next bag but not all of them are ripe some people hand me bad ideas the t ype that get me hurt they do it has a joke like something to laugh off but theyre still ideas still thoughts still things i have to do or give up on thoughts its the thing i anticipate the most i desire it every day and when i ask and i do not recieve then they oviously are just like me not able to make choices nedd the wisodm of others its not my fault i say its not my fault i cant think im just like this i guess so please dont call me weak. but i dont know why but some say i should deter from this path walk away can you really do that i dont believe so when im asked to jump of a cliff how can i say no when im asked to shoot the person next to me how can i say no because if i think no i wont what if that persons life causes more caos that his death i will have myself to blame so whats the point what is the point. I WROTE THIS OFF A QUOTE I FOUND SAYING: YOU ARE FREE TO CHOSE BUT YOU ARE NOT FREE OF THE CONSWQUENCES OF YOUR CHOICE.SORRY YOU HAVE TO SEE THIS THE MINIMUNM WAS 1000 A A A A A AA A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A AA AA A AAAAA AAA A A A A A A A AA AA A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A AAA A A A A AA A A A A A A A A A A A A AA A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A BNBNB NB N NFNF NF FN FN FN FN RN EN Q N QN N QN QN RN N FN RFN GN N GRTN TN TN YHUN N 6N 5N 5N N 5N 5N 4N 5N 5 N5N 54N 5 NN 4N 3N N N 3N 2N N Q2N QN N QN QN NQN N EN E R NT N TN 5N 5N N 5N TN N5MNNM A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A C C X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X XX X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X XX X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X XX XX X X XX X XX X X XX XX X XX X X X X X XX XXXXX X X X X XX X X XX XX X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X XXX X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X CC C C CC V V VVB B BNNN N NNNN N N N N N N N N N FF D D D S S SS SSS S S S S S S S BAB A A A A AA AA FF F F FF F F RT T YY YYY Y YY Y Y TTTTM TT T T T T T Q Q Q A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A AA AA A AA AA A AA A A QA AAA A A A A A A A A A AA A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A AA A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A AA A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A AA A A A A A A A A AA A A A A