City Of Feels

See that's the thing about this city everyday is not the same the feelings even if we don't admit it sometimes its different its either anger or happiness or just plain relief that something is always going to be there or it isn't and sometimes it's the fun or the legendary "special" skilled drivers and the skilled is quoted for a reason, if you know what I mean, see that's the things about this city people know it for different reasons and its weird when you meet someone that knows so much about the city you spent all your life grooming for something better ad it makes you think about all the things that makes this place so special that you don't necessarily think about I mean I have been in a danfo so many ties going to the same destination from the same place lets same over 100 times and I see new thing that give me ew emotions that I couldn't believe this city could breathe at me and the best feeling are from the old-new places those parts that people forgot the bought years ago and decide to make money of it makes the most beautiful homes and galleries and its so well done it gives me this nostalgic feeling that almost drew me in the clutches of Architecture but I realized that's not for me I'm suppose to build the city people already feel deep down you know like right now so yeah my city has its really annoying angry disgusting moments right but those good feeling makes everybody what to keep coming back eve when they find out we upgraded from the mud huts a while back (winks!!) its got to be the feeling, you probably own it already but I live and have basically always live in Lagos the heart of Nigeria whether they admit it or not; the "they" I don't know but they know, to be honest I felt it every time something new happened to me here or every new thing that makes the city glow or the return trips from the exquisite paces never match; mind you I didn't say beat but match the Lagos feel its awesome!! That's the city for me, different for different unique species of human beings o!, but it's got to be the city of feels for me.

You see I have lived in this city for almost 18 years and in a nutshell I said what I felt but imagine if you asked the bus conductors or the market mums selling goods all their life for the food on the table or you could ask the guy that came all the way from their home town just so they could be something be someone out in the big city of Lagos you know just lie we could New York city the big apple, the city of dreams I might add where people come with high hope but not everyone really makes it and that's the hard fact whether we like it or not it the truth we know but the quote is the shots guaranteed to fail in life are the ones you never make so take a shot, you never heard of it? Hmm...not surprised its one of those cool things a friend says that sticks. Anyways that's basically the mindset of most non Lagosians when they see someone who left and made it but that's the problem with them they see no work just feel and instant magical change, the city of feels, get it, people could read this and thing Lagos isn't special because their lives never became special but they are completely blinded by the struggle of the Lagos Living sometimes and they make Lagos this really hard place in their minds they don't seem to realize the good they have but that's another thing about this city the people are so special so different that they are the most unpredictable human beings that I think I could meet whether they live in the biggest houses and have unlimited cash flow or they live on the streets and beg their way through life they still keep shocking you in the weirdest sometimes nicest sometimes saddest moments we couldn't even think of, the things about this city I can't even say it all but they are all there said or not past or present they keep us going in this place truth be told we run from here so fast and so far away without thinking might I add also dragging all the people skeptical about it on that fast route, and then they meet people like me that actually likes this place and sees stuff they love and want in this city that sees a better Lagos and they think I'm crazy and and just over privileged but that's far from the point I'm just so worried of being a success with a horrible home of being the 1% of the 1% that makes life way harder for the blinder runners to see a better place. so those are the things about this city we don't really think exist in the core its all jumbled up in the air we breathe that its mixed with the pollution we intoxicate ourselves with, we have to learn to see this or the city would always be a place of stolen dream that never came true. I don't see it all yet but I'm open minded to all of it now and moving forward because I really want to see and feel it when I can when it's there, so in my heart of hearts it will always be my city of feels; yeah I have said that a lot in this "story" because honestly it's real hard to be writing all this, before today I knew these thigs but never needed to spit it out all at once tho . This isn't your traditional story but it's mine and whether I win or not (which by the way I still want to win...wink wink!) I'm happy that my voice had a chance to be heard, loud or not its there with a strong first big try.