The Danger Of Being In The Closet

You looked out the window and, not for the first time, thought about how wrong the weather forecast had been. It was unbelievable, because you had also seen on the weather forecast that it would be sunny today, and yet it was raining like hell had come to Earth. Your anger for this production was once more, more real than ever. 

As you drove yourself in all this traffic, you started cursing at everyone and everything. This day could not go more wrong. This morning was one of the worst for you, since your wife had just left the house with your child and you couldn’t find them. They were gone. And now this? Was the weather trying to say something to you?

You arrive at the Channel’s Studio. Everyone waved at you and smiled, but you couldn’t do that right now, so you went immediately in the elevator and tried to avoid most contact. 

“Why was everyone in such great mood in this weather?” you thought to yourself 

You walk into your office and immediately call your secretary to come in. 

“You asked for me?” Analise asked you as she walked into your office. 

“Yes, I asked for you. There are many things that I want right now, but before anything else, could you get Ryan Gimpsy in my office? And hurry up!” you said to her with a very serious look. 

After 5 minutes, Ryan Gimpsy was in your office. 

“Look I know I messed up, but I promise it’ll be better next time. Please just give me a second chance.” Ryan begged you. 

“You told the weather forecast it would be sunny all day, and there’s only rain here. You did this again a few days ago, how am I supposed to trust you in this job?” you said to him with that deep voice of yours. 

“I know baby, I’m so sorry, but I will be better next time, I promise. Please don’t fire me” Ryan said to you. 

You stand up to go towards your office door and you lock it. Then you cover your windows and then return to him. 

“Who’s the boss?” you asked Ryan. 

“You are the boss, baby” he said to you, knowing how much you love being called this way. 

You grabbed Ryan by his shoulders and pull him closer to you. 

“That’s right. I’m the boss, so you better listen to me, because there’s not going to be a next time, okay? You’re lucky that I like you, otherwise you’d be gone now” you said to him and then kissed him on the lips. 

“I know, I’m sorry…” Ryan said and kissed you back. 

You pulled his pants down and then kneel to blow him. Then you pulled down yours, and bent over to your desk ordering him to put his penis inside your butt. 

It was a regular thing for you, banging with the weather man, but you kept it inside, not wanting anyone to know that you were secretly bisexual. You loved how you had sex with him, but it happened only during work. 

A Week Later 

Monday morning you drive to work, and then suddenly notice that the weather forecast was wrong again. 

“Oh come on!!!” you screamed inside you.

This time as you went to your office, and Ryan came inside again, you fired him right away. 

“I’m sorry, but this is how it’s gotta be, it’s nothing personal with you, but you can’t work here. You keep messing it up, I can’t have these kind of mistakes in my channel.” You screamed at him. 

He left, but not before he blows you one last time. 

“Goodbye. I know we might not see each other again, but I will always remember you” he said to you and walked away. 

You secretly wanted him to stay. But you knew that wasn’t how it was supposed to be, as gay people are oppressed in the society. Nobody wants to know that the boss of one of the biggest TV channels is gay, so you just let him go like that. 

The days passed, and your mood kept getting worse and worse with time. You had lost your wife, your child, the guy you were fucking with. You didn’t have friends, and the only thing you had was your job. You hated yourself for everything that happened. You couldn’t even look yourself in the mirror, without wanting to smash it. Until one day….

It was a Friday night. You had just finished with work, and you head home. When you walked into your apartment everything felt so empty and dark. You fell on your knees and started crying. 

“Why do all those things keep happening to me? I can’t stand it anymore” you thought to yourself loudly. 

You put a rope to the ceiling, and then you tie your knot. But before you do anything, you had to leave a note. 

“ Hello everyone, it’s me, Patrick Gerald. You are probably going to wonder why did I do this. To be honest, I’m kind of tired of my life. Everything in my life is crap and maybe nothing will ever be good anymore. I’m a bisexual man, who lived his entire life in a straight marriage, not that I didn’t love my wife, I did, but a part of my identity was hidden and shamed by myself mostly, due to the society. I had some sort of a boyfriend for a while after my marriage ended, but I fucked it up with him, so now I am left all alone. I can’t find my wife and my daughter. I don’t know where I belong anymore and my life feels empty. So, I’m sorry if I hurt anyone, but this is my goodbye” you wrote to the note and then left it on the table next to your bed. 

You put a chair under the rope you tied, you put your head inside the noose and you drop the chair. 

Two days later 

You open your eyes and you see Ryan leaning over your head and kissing you on your forehead. 

“Welcome back baby” Ryan said to you while smiling, and even though you didn’t understand what happened, you smiled back.