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" Oh so cute" she said slowly walking towards a male black cat , it was her first time seeing a black coloured cat and she was happy to see it . When she was about to embrace it , it ran across the , she was sad and instead of going where she was headed , she decide to go home and there she didn't speak nor talk to anyone , she went to her room and started drawing a fluffy black tail, she liked it, for that she wanted to see the to see the cat again .

She then went to the mirror to check her face and she just saw a horrible person with no atom of kindness for herself and people around her , she wanted to know the cause of that but didn't know how and where to find the root of it .She became frustrated and angry and started crying ,losing breaths ,and for that she collapsed and was taken to hospital , there she was admitted for a day , when it was time for her to go home , she said the doctor must not tell about her being discharged , she will find her way back home , the doctor saw that the girl was extremely serious about that ,he tried to figure out what was it why , and just said "sure keep safe then".

Along the way she saw that black cat again , and it ram before she can take a step closer , she felt rejection and sadly went home , she didn't eat no speak again , she went to a mirror to take a look at herself ,this time she melted in tears and was so ashamed of the rapid change in her body and face , that alone depressed her , then she took a decision that she will stay in doors for a week because she tough maybe the environment is also playing a role in putting her to such situation. The whole week she was thinking of how bad of a daughter she is to her wonderful parents, how cruel of a sister she is to her younger sister , "there's just nothing to be proud of " she said , at school I'm not doing well and all the things i want to do you my family are just down the drain , and my family is doing the best to make sure I'm happy wherever I am , and all i can do in return was nothing but failure , disgrace and ungratefulness , then she started crying sorrowfully.

She tried making sense on her life and to figure out what happened or what did she do the resulted to such drastic change , but she failed to find a missing piece on her own life puzzle, the following day was the beginning of another another week and she did go outside and catch fresh air by taking a troll ,on her way back she heard a cat crying , she detected the sound to know where it was coming from and eventually saw a black cat tied in a rope accidentally , she wanted to help but the cat didn't let her , she then got angry that the cat despise her even on its weakest point , she kept her mind busy as to why the cat hates her , but on her own she couldn't gather anything.

She suddenly realise that she has a mother to talk to , who have lived before she did, she went home and cooked while waiting for her parents from work ,her little sister was happy about her change and longing to know what was driving it , her parents arrived and were supper excited with her change , they happily ate dinner after a long period of time , later she went to talk with her mother about her encounters with a black male cat , and how it refused her help earlier that day, her mother smiled and said , "my dear daughter whom that needs to be saved can't save another , so if you want to save the cat so badly you start saving yourself", but I am saved ain't I she said ,"no dear you not , can't you see changes , if only you can compare yourself before you down graded yourself to the girl you are today." She kissed her forehead goodnight and she went to sleep.

She recalled her mother words that you can't save when you're not saved , she suddenly realise how happy her family was to eat her food and talk to her , she knew the problem is within her and she wanted to get rid of it before it destroys her life. She took the whole night trying to find the answer , she asked her self if the cat refused her help because she felt like she has to help or she just wanted to help , and after all she eventually saw that the major deal is willingness , she realised that all the time she though she was not a so good child on her parents eyes but actually not , it is now that she is not good at all and very toxic to her younger sister who is also present to see her behaviour .She then understood that thinking of school , situation at home , what your peers have and how to get quick money won't help but destroy , now she is doing nothing , and nothing changed , its just the same as before ,and after she realised her problem and mistake had the idea of doing what matters and not do the impossible.

Her father said " I am proud of you my daughter for you made it clear that you matter , and please keep it like that , let it be your ingredient to you favourite meal, and always remember to do what makes you happy. we love you" , lets all take a stroll and grab some ice cream her mother said taking money on the table . they all went for a stroll and on the way the saw the black cat sitting on a fence , she went towards it and she finally got to touch it and pet it , they were all smiling ,it was the greatest feeling to finally touch its tail .

Life is all about willing to be what you want to be , not forcing yourself to what you think might work , gradual pace comes with best results and hasty comes with regrets and sudden falls.