CONFUSED

To become a writer is quite a big decision to make. Many doubts crops up whether it is a lucrative job to do. Others say it is a passion, a talent as a way to express your thoughts your feelings and a way to communicate to others. It is a desire to past the time to write down your imaginations ,dreams to entertain and give meaning to what is happening and inspire others. As a talent ,it is an automatic natural instinct to describe and show what is happening around putting it in writing about the beauty of nature in color. A means of expression for the different emotions felt to bring them out happiness joy love hate jealousy envy and anger. Writers have lately discovered a new world to publish their work independently without asking the help of an editor or a publisher and an agent. It makes it easier to navigate the writing world and the cost of publishing is reduce dramatically and here comes the beginning of her/his writing adventure. After writing the story how can she publish her story? She has to find out groups that are doing it and send her story to them with a minimum fee compared to .book publishers, She can publish her book without an editor. Where can she sell her books? She can sell on writing platforms in the internet. The problem is how much royalty will she receive from it. Some writers have setup their own publishing houses to help other writers. With this the new world of writing and publishing was born. At first Julita is skeptical to publish her book aside from being confuse she doesn't want it to be read. Her story is about her feuding families wishing to avoid her involvement especially her kids are growing up. Eventually she decided to self-publish it. Her family has eight family members. It is not a secret that her parents are well-off who owns several gasoline stations and wide area of fruit tree plantations like mango citrus coconut and avocado. Aside from that their farm tenants also till their rice poultry and hog farms. Every year after harvest time the whole family gather together to see how much profit did they make from all their businesses which could be divided equally to all the members of the family. The profits from two gasoline stations is set aside for emergency purposes. There is a brewing conflict conflict among the family members except Julita who has her own pharmacy. That's why she doesn't like to meddle when it comes to her parent's properties. She also heard one of her uncles is suing his father to have grabbed some pieces of land from him. The more Julita is confused. By writing she can picture the situation, maybe acting as an observer writing what is going on serves as an outlet of her feelings of anger and disappointment. problems comes up when children let their future passed by when they were young, not listening to their parents unlike Julita who studied very hard to finish her career. She gives free medicine to her parents as she is capable even to her brothers and sisters. Every individual must be responsible to plan his/her future and don't waste time. Once it is wasted, it's gone. This makes Julita really sad, she cannot make up for them. Her husband's family owns a private family hospital. They met each other when they were in high school. they have known each other very well. Keeping to themselves what is going on with their families, Dr. Vincent Pulmar has an only disabled sister. They have spent so much money being confined in another hospital attended by physicians who are specialists. Julita heard she is born out of wedlock. Her biological mother who was their housemaid disappeared as soon as she was born being sick for the last fifteen years. Dr. Vincent Pulmar's mother sometimes asks how long will their little girl stay in the hospital? They have missed many occasions foregoing even the wedding of Julita and Dr. Vincent Pulmar to avoid rumors about their little girl. They are afraid their name is tarnished belonging to a well-off family facing this kind of dilemma. Imagine a well respected man to have fathered an innocent child; he is also very generous to contribute to charities. Sometimes this is considered a punishment to those who don't follow God in this present times who must be considered to be a leader in practicing the correct Christian life. How good it must be if people go back in the past to learn what is written in the Bible God's Words of Enlightenment. The Lord's Prayer embodies the whole practice of a good Christian. To worship God first being on Earth and in Heaven, praise His name and look forward to His coming kingdom on Earth. This is important to note, He will provide oir daily needs, yes our daily needs period. Let's stop here. Needs must be always our priority not wants. Wants can ruin our life. There is a tendency to overspend leading to bankruptcy. Becoming poor. If spending only for what we need the extra money could be save which could be spent for emergencies or luxuries. Julita has been aware about all of these attending to her family's needs. One day the sad news came to them that the little girl succumbed to her illnesses. Dr. Vincent Pulmar's family is relieved of their hospital bills. Julita recorded in her story about the demise of the little girl. She noted that her biological mother was there. Julita heard she has filed a case to ask the court why she was not allowed to visit the little girl when she was confined in the hospital but she is accused of child abandonment. On her family's side her uncle pursued the case against her father of land grabbing. The court has not determined yet if a case will be filed in court something Julita is so much afraid to happen. Are these not the situations they don't want that the public will know? Even to herself she doesn't know how to end her story. Will she finish it or not? Both families hired and consulted their lawyers and came to an absolute agreement to settle it amicably after all they will all be losers later on. That is how Julita ended her story. When her self published book was released she didn't hear any criticism having in the category as fictional and all the characters are fictitious.GP