FROM THE DARKNESS

FROM THE DARKNESS.

I was going to the market for buying kitchen groceries when I suddenly saw my best friend on the other side of the road. Its been a month since I saw her and so I couldnt resist crossing the road to hug her. She was excited to see me as well and so we had to find a place in the town garden for a talk. We hugged and exchange greeting then we had to jump to the common topic that if either of us have secured a job. On her side she was yet to get one and same to me. But the last time we talked over the phone I told her I mighty get an internship position in one of the biggest agriculture company in the city. So she had to ask about it and she was certain I got it because of the assurance I had in my voice as I shared the good news.

"They haven't called me" I answered her

"They seem like they will shine light up on this unemployment tragedy but in the end they disappear without a trace" she said angrily

You know the CEO of that company is a woman who is in her late twenties, kind and so beautiful. When she said I should go to her office so we can talk about the internship I didn't thought it could be an interview about the position but a face to face talk between her and me. 

"So she interviewed you?" she asked curiously

"Yes she did" I answered as I prepare to tell her more because am sure she needed to hear more 

The CEO asked me a lot of questions from my name to my family background. And of course she added other professional question to see if I can be an asset in their company. It was like a talk between sisters and I felt comfortable not trembling at all throughout, although I failed to maintain eye contact with her. After a bunch of questions she asked if everything was okay what I want my future to look like. I got stuck as I answered then she gave me a paper to write down all I want in my future.

Before I could even finish she stopped me astonishingly for a quick question. "What does your future has to do with an internship" she asked 

I smiled and continued with my sentence, so I wrote in that white paper until she came back and said what I wrote was so small perhaps I should sit and write more, be as open as I could possibly be for its for my own good. Then as she was wrapping up ready to release me she asked me a question which I will forever be grateful.

"There she go again with questions and she didn't even give you the position" she said with a disappointed laugh

 She didn't gave me an internship but she gave me something worthy than that internship/ a job. That day in just minutes she changed it all. She changed my life completely. She indeed shot light in to the darkness.

"Enough with the praises, what did she do exactly?" she said curiously

"You are living with bitterness inside you, don't you? She asked me

I replied yes because there was no way I could deny the obvious. My friend was looking at me with "hurry up am curious eyes so I had to continue with the story.  

"Have you forgiven her and whoever wronged you" she asked again

"Am in the process of letting go and forgive I replied thinking I gave an impressive answer

Not the process but you should make a deliberate decision to let go and forgive all those who wronged you including your step mother. She showed me a mark on her and she told me she was able to see the cloudiness of my bitterness and pain because she was also raised with a step mom. And so she shared her life story in a nutshell. Which made me realize the understanding that flowed as we talked from the begging was partly because we shared the same story. She told me it took her 25 years to let go and forgive. She had to travel across the country and make peace with her people not for them but for her because she deserves peace. She visited them and even, brought gifts and made peace which made her life more free and wonderful. 

Basing on her story I realized I lived in total darkness over 16years, I hold on bad acts of my people which made my life worse without me realizing. This bitterness and pain doesn't mean my mom is such a bad person it's because for all those years I was seeing things wrongly. She is such a good woman and am not wrong if I will call her a gem. She has done a lot of things in my life which I failed to see because of the way I chooses to see things. With this freeness that I received today I am sure my life will change for good. I will never allow retention of bitterness and pain in my heart. From today I will be judging issues clearly before I store useless things in my dear heart. Among all she shared two statements will be kept forever in my heart. One she told me "make a deliberate decision to forgive" and the second one she told me she calls her step mother and the whole family her blessing and she never regrets ever living with them. Because with them God was preparing the muscle she will need to stand as the woman she is today. 

I was not there but I felt completely touched said my friend as she wipe her tear

She told me that we met for a purpose because God had something for her. With this story she learned how to be grateful. We are blessed beyond measures but our ungrateful nature prevent from seeing all we have been blessed with. After she talked I hugged her again to console her and finishes the story.

I left her office heading to the beauty of sunshine earlier that day, the sunshine that I have missed for years.