A second chance to learn some new things

A guy, a two time loser as most label him, who is in his middle age has begun to learn again. He has begun to learn how to live responsibly. And he has started to a few more basic skills that helps him throughout his journey.

Throughout this young man's life he has been through a rough journey. A journey that has many chapters. Which includes homelessness incarceration as well as some addictions.So everyone from his history has either given up on him. Or has labeled him to be too troublesome to have any faith in him to be of any worth to them.

He tried to get a job.Yet he were labeled too unstable to interact within society.Therefore he was was left to survive on his own.

Now he has went through a lot of challenges that lead him to be what he is today.He began to create crafts to enable him to stay busy and out of trouble.He also began to learn about his smart phone. Which has not been an easy task.Yet he dislike letting himself down.Therefore he began to cram books about many topics.And he began to learn about many devices that he began to find intriguing. Which most people his age would find difficult to learn about in such difficult circumstances.

You see, it is very challenging to accomplish such learning skills while living lavishly within his own miserable ways of living responsibly.Now some would assume this to be due to addictions of the typical kind.However,he desired attention that nobody else could give him.

He learnt that the attention that he desired, by learning more about technology,was the desire to love himself. And by continuing to love himself he began to learn how to live.

Loving himself is really the chance that he needed within his life.And now he still has some battles to overcome.For technology has become all that he really uses to communicate with others.Which has enabled him to function socially the way that he has been accustomed to.

He is grateful that he has another chance at learning.And now he appreciates life more than ever.He has begun to raise pets for his own way of doing jobs that has been denied him before.

He is learning daily how to maintain and cope on a tight budget.And laughs about the moments when many goals are remaining for the following day.For there has been a big chunk of his life spent living lavishly without a care in the world for paying bills. Now he penny pinches instead of living above his means so he can keep his bills paid.He is learning how to live on his own without depending on too many.But he has also learnt that it is still frustrating to depend on the ones that he still has to.For he do see how it would ever be possible to go through life without being dependent on something.

Some may wonder how do I know so much about this man.I know so much because I am him and he is me!

I have been through a very rough journey. And I have been battling many different types of addictions.However, my biggest battle has always been loving myself.For here I am fifty plus years and just now learning about a lot of things.I actually thought I could learn everything about technology.But as soon as I get ahead of myself,like I normally do,I still end up having to learn more.Therefore, I am grateful for this chance at life to love myself.And no matter how alone I may feel. And no matter what anybody said or believed.I did not give up on a life that did not give up on me.

Thanks for this second chance at life that nobody else had confidence in me besides the hidden angels that I have known before.

Anyway,I am still not much for many rules.For I have learnt that even within civil society people do not play fair.So I have found comfort staying to myself and not being around too many people.For even though I have learnt about loving myself.I have also learnt about some things that is unacceptable to me.Because I understand how unfair life can be.However,I have learnt that it is not okay to treat me any kind of way.Because nobody else will accept being treated like life has done me.And even though I appreciate this second chance of life. I also realize that many would have snapped by now if they had to live under such conditions that I have to journey through.Yet I will not go there for I truly feel the spirit changing here.Which I am still learning how to cope with it as well.

Furthermore,I enjoy learning about technology.And really prefer it since it has enabled me to learn about myself.Which this may be the last time I adventure through this process of sharing something like this.For I have not been too eager to get into many topics about second chances.Because my idea of chances does not include the ideology that civilization has anything to do with giving me a second chance.

Nevertheless,I do not want to get off the topic,I had to make opportunities happen for me.I had to do things for myself.I do expect anything for free.Because I work hard on my own to keep my own hope alive.And,yeah,there is a bitter truth about how I feel about how I am continuously trudging through this chapter of life's journey.However, there are some things that I have to keep to myself.So I can continue to focus on this opportunity to love myself.For if nobody loves me.I have to love myself in order to more appreciative of life. Because in any minute I can become the old me and that I know I would not accept too well.

I hope that you have enjoyed this story more than I have been enjoying.Because it took quite some effort to write this one.Quite challenging I may add.Although, I wonder what is or does not having challenges within this thing that we call life.A life that gives very little and not enough to maintain a healthy balance of happiness.

By,The Hughster.