To all the words we never spoke

(There was originally 4500 words in this)

Dear Stranger,

We haven’t met but I’m Theseus King, I live next door to you.

You're moving in today, as I write to you, you’re chasing around a boy who I’m assuming is your brother.

While running around you looked up into my window, you stared for a moment.

brown eyes meeting blue.

Before I could wave the boy ran past your leg, you followed him at a slower pace.

I can tell just by watching that you're odd.

Not in a bad way, in the way that I know that we’re going to be good friends one day.

Maybe we’ll meet soon, and I’ll learn your name, till then, Stranger.

-Theses

To the pink haired boy,

You’re impossible to miss, especially with that bright pink hair.

Your window was open, your music loud enough I heard it faintly as me and Milo ran around the yard. You seemed lost in thought as you scribbled in a notebook.

I don’t know much about you, but my dad tells me you're also in sophomore year, but he never told me your name. I hope that one day, I'll be able to introduce myself.

-Icarus

Dear Stranger,

You came to my door today with your family.

Turns out our dads grew up together in the same neighborhood.

They filled each other in with their lives, well you and your brother stood around awkwardly.

Until you picked him up, making him laugh.

I stood to the side as he talked, soon enough my dad introduced me to you, your dad not wasting time to introduce you and your brother.

Icarus & Milo

-Theseus

To Theseus,

We officially met yesterday, your name is Theseus.

Our dads are old friends, its why we moved to Utah of all places, something about a promise between our mothers our fathers are carrying out.

I’m starting school tomorrow, maybe we’ll have some classes together.

-Icarus

To Icarus,

It was a surprise to see you this morning, you sat alone as others gathered to talk in groups.

I sat next to you, we talked the whole ride over. Your voice is just a little louder than a whisper as you spoke.

During study hall I mentioned I had band practice after school. You asked if you could tag along to check out clubs. You stayed after school and wandered the halls to check out the clubs.

I stayed in the music room to help my band mate, Libby.

It didn’t take you long to circle back to the music room, taking a seat in the corner.

After an hour of listening to us argue, you spoke up.

It was a small suggestion to mix up the tempo, but everyone stopped arguing, quietly mummering to themselves.

We carpooled home as always, loud singing from Percy and Libby the whole ride.

you waved goodbye as you went inside.

I don’t know if it’s just me, I think you’ll fit in fine.

-Theseus

Dear Theseus,

Just when I think you’re done with how quiet I talk, every day you invite me to tag along to your band practice.

It’s only taken a week to know all of you.

Atlas is your vocalist, Percy is the bassist, Libby is the guitarist and you’re their drummer.

Atlas, tends to stay quiet though most of the conversations, letting out scoffs with a smile.

Percy and Libby have an unlimited amount of energy. They’re always finding something to argue, a chaotic duo those two.

Then there’s you.

You keep everyone involved, you have a special connection with all of them.

Somedays I wonder how you do it, how no matter how many walls I build up, you find a way to tear them down.

There’s just something about you that’s different.

You make me feel like I can fit in.

-Icarus

To Icarus,

Band is no longer a debt club since you’ve joined as our backup vocalist. You’re able to get the chaos junkies to play.

You seem happier than you were when we first met, you talk louder now.

You and Milo come over every afternoon, the three of us watch movies while we do homework.

Milo may only be seven but he’s a fun kid, every day he brings a picture he drew in class.

There's something different about you.

It’s like now every time you're around I can’t think. I don’t know how to describe it.

Atlas tells me it’s a crush.

Libby tried to get me to text you (she failed) Percy's been mocking me for the last four hours.

I don’t know anymore.

-Thesus

Dear Thesus,

You make me feel weird- it’s like when you’re around my thoughts won’t think.

Atlas calls it a crush.

You’re outgoing you talk to every person you see, and I just stick to the band.

I don’t know why you talk to me, I don’t know why Atlas thinks we could work. I don’t know why I’m hoping.

I know nothing about this kind of thing.

-Icarus

To Icarus & Thesus

I’m convinced you two are secretly dating and messing with us at this point, because there is NO way that neither of you have picked up on my hints.

You two are the densest people I've ever met in my life, and that's saying a lot because I've met Percy who hasn't clocked that Atlas has been crushing on him for three years.

-Libby

Dear Icarus and Thesus,

For the sake of your lives, one of you confess because I am EXHAUSTED of the two of you constantly talking about each other.

I’m tired and I want to go home without my phone exploding from texts from you two.

-Atlas

To Icarus,

Atlas dropped us off, you went home then showed up at my door fifteen minutes later with Milo.

Milo gave me a drawing of a giraffe eating a leaf.

We sat side by side on the coach doing homework, this time something was off.

You weren't responding to any of my dumb remarks.

Then you said it.

I barely heard it, before I could process what you said you rushed out the front door.

-Thesus

Dear Thesus,

I think I might be crazy.

I had a plan to ask you out this weekend after the gig we got at that restaurant.

I don’t know where I got the confidence, but I confessed.

You stared at me for a moment, but I was already out the door.

Ten minutes later you brought Milo home, five minutes after that you knocked on my window.

I don’t know why, I opened it and let you climb in.

We sat in silence like we had done many times before, only this time there was tension as we waited. You spoke first, you thanked me as funny as that is.

Then you confessed.

You like me.

-Icarus

To Icarus,

It’s been over two months since we’ve started dating.

Two months ago, I couldn’t think straight around you, now I can sit with you for hours on end.

Percy did his dramatic fake cry and speech about how proud he was of me or something like that when I told him.

Libby yelled at me for an hour about how dense I was, eventually she congratulate me.

Atlas just nodded at me with a look of relief.

You’re an amazing friend and better boyfriend, I couldn’t be happier with you.

-Thesus

Dear Thesus,

When I first moved here a year ago, I was scared, of the people I’d meet, the friends I’d have or the school I'd go to.

You showed me I didn’t have to be afraid of anything. You gave me courage.

Then five months ago you let me become more to you.

I thank the stars for letting me meet someone like you.

I wish I was able to be enough for you.

You tell me I'm enough.

You deserve someone who can match your energy. Someone who can keep up with you.

That someone isn't me.

-Icarus.

To Icarus,

We’ve been dating for eight months now.

I’ve picked up on all signs of your bad days, how you interact with others based on mood.

Lately you’ve just been off.

I don’t know how to describe it.

It almost seems like you’re disconnecting from reality.

You've built a wall around yourself; it seems no matter how hard I try I can’t seem to pass it.

Icarus I’m worried about you.

-Thesus

Dear Icarus,

You’ve been quieter over the last month, it feels like you’re slowly drifting further away.

I don’t know how to pull you back.

I don’t think I can.

it won’t stop me from trying.

You’re one of the only people I let into my life. You’re someone I have grown to love.

I want you to be okay.

All of us are worried about you.

No matter what you're going through, we're here to back you up

-Atlas

To Icarus,

You yelled at everyone during practice today, Percy asked if you were okay and you blew up.

You yelled at us about how we’re always in your business. You stormed out of practice before any of us could talk.

Nobody’s mad at you, were just worried.

-Thesus

Icarus

Its bEEn rAlly quitE Around the homE You nEvEr wAnnA hAng out with mE anymoe =( I bEArly sEE you AnymoE. your always at school and you nEvEr have time for mE AnymoE.

I drAw you a PIcture yEstErdAy I E it undEr your door so youll sEE it. It’s a dinosAurE.

-mIl0 hiLL

Dear bandmates,

Over the last year and a half, I’ve been the happiest I’ve ever been. You Welcomed me to your school, your club, hell your friend group.

I can’t even begin to express how thankful I am to call you friends.

I want to stay with you guys

I want to stay, to see what you guys become in the future, I want to walk down the stage with you during graduation.

I want to see Milo grow up. I want to talk him through those rough patches of middle school. I want to see his drawings one more time.

I want to hear Libby’s laugh, the playfully annoyed scoffs from Atlas, I want to hear Percy complain about Thesus and I.

I want to hear Atlas talk about mythology, or Libby and Percy argue over what movie. I want to hear our songs one more time.

I want to be with you guys.

One more time.

-Icarus Hills.

Dear Thesus King,

My final letter to you.

Before you I was just existing. I spent all my time at my last school, drifting through hallways, keeping my head down in classes and eating in bathrooms.

That first day back when I didn’t know your name. All I knew about you was that pink hair and odd music taste, but you were so much more.

You were this outgoing person who could befriend anyone who made eye contact with you. You were smart and funny and just so easy to talk to.

Before you I didn’t exist in anyone’s world.

I started with nobody but my dad and brother, I went into my sophomore year thinking I was going to be alone, that nobody would want to be near me.

Instead, I went into Junior year with an amazing boyfriend, bandmates, friends and it was all thanks to you.

I want you to know, it’s not your fault.

Even if my story ends early, we may fall in love in another lifetime. Until we meet again, pink haired boy.

-Icarus.

Dear Icarus,

It’s been four months since you left, your funeral was attended by friends and family.

Libby, Percy, Thesus and I all gave a speech during the memorial.

You were buried with a drawing Milo drew you. He didn’t understand why you weren’t moving. Libby was silent the whole time excluding her speech, Thesus talked with your relitives while Percy kept Milo entertained.

Percy cried the most out of the four of us, He’ll swear up and down he wasn’t, but he did.

-Atlas

To Icarus,

Since you’ve left there’s been an empty place in the band room, people from our classes have stopped by to wish their condolences. I keep telling them to shove off, they didn’t care about you or even care about how we feel.

People told me about death, when you lose someone your close too, a piece of you is taken with them.

They lied; it’s like you’ve left a part of yourself with me and disappeared. Everything I see reminds me of you.

Some days I talk to the stars in hopes you hearing me, I miss you Icarus.

-Libby

Hey Icarus,

I don’t know why I write to you still.

I cried for the first time in years at your funeral, I’ve been denying it, but I’ll admit to you I did.

Milo didn’t understand why you wouldn’t play with him, I couldn’t let him see your body. I sat off to the corner with him watching as he played his imaginary games. In a way I saw you in him. You may be polar opposite but there’s a piece of you in him.

His ocean blue eyes and golden blond hair.

-Percy Hill

IcArus

You hAvE bEEN goNE A rAlly loNg TimE. PArcy liBBy ThEsus hAvE All Told mE your on AN AdvEnTor ANd your gAnnA bE goNE A loNg TimE

whEN you comE bAk wE will plAy AgAN buT until you comE bAk I will kEEp ThEsus liBBy pArcy compANE

I will mAke you loTs of drAwiNgs wEll your AwAy

-mIl0

Dear Icarus,

Happy one year anniversary, Icarus.

I wished and prayed on every star in the sky that you’d be here for tonight.

Instead, the stars fell, the moon light stopped shining, and the night was silent for the first time in years.

I got your letters, the ones dating back to that first day you saw me through my window.

Your story ended to early, you had so many chapters left to write.

But right now, I’ll focus on keeping Milo safe, making sure Libby, Percy and Atlas keep shooting for the stars.

I’ll finish what you started, Icarus.

Until we fall again, stranger.

-Thesus

To My First Love,

It’s been eight years since you’ve passed, so much has happened since then but I’m not going to go over it all, just the big things.

Our band went past high school, we played at the college and got local gigs around town. We started to post our music online and we got a lot of attention.

Three of our songs ended on the world’s greatest hit, as I’m writing this, I’m sitting in the tour bus with Libby, Percy, Atlas, Milo, Luke and Kazuya (I’ll tell you about them in a sec)

Atlas and Percy started dating a year after you left. Percy, Libby, Atlas and I all got accepted into Princeston.

Libby met a guy named Luke during a trip back home, they got married four years ago.

During the wedding when Libby was throwing the bouquet, she turned around and handed the bouquet to Percy, then Atlas proposed, and they had a small wedding a year later.

I didn’t date for a long time, I swore off it for a couple of years but during Percys and Atlases wedding, Atlas introduced me to his cousin, Kazuya.

We traded numbers and talked for a while, eventually we started going on dates and we got engaged last May.

It took a while to get over you, but you’ll always have a special place in my heart.

-Thesus

Hey Icarus!

It’s been a while; eight years is a long time.

I got married four years ago; my husband’s name is Luke Dallas. He’s a nice guy and treats me well. I think if you were still here, I think you would be friends.

Our band is doing well but not a day goes by where we wish you were here. Every concert is dedicated to you, every tour has something to pull back to you. We miss you Icarus.

-Libby Dallas

Dear Icarus,

Eight years later, and there is still a gift box under my bed, I never got to give you your birthday gift.

Today we arrive in LA to perform a concert, even if you can’t be here physically, I hope you see us. Rest in peace, Icarus.

-Atlas Crowther

To Icarus,

I’ve written so many letters to you, this might be the last.

I got married to Atlas, there was an empty seat for you at our wedding.

We still go to your grave every year and that’s never changing. One day we’ll meet again.

-Percy Crowther

To My Older Brother,

Eight years since we’ve lost you, I was seven when you left. Percy, Atlas, Libby and Thesus came by every day to play with me. They would tell me you were off on an adventure and wouldn’t be home for a while. I didn’t know at the time, that meant forever.

At your funeral, Percy sat with me well I made up stories about where you went. That was the first time I saw Percy cry.

When I was eleven, I realized you weren’t coming back. I learned about death and how it takes. Atlas stays by my side anytime I think of you.

Even though I only knew you for seven years, most of the memories of you are gone. I wonder what it would be like now if you haven’t done what you did.

I’m fifteen now, I’m homeschooled by Atlas and Kazuya, He quit his job as a high school teacher to go with Thesus on tours, so now he teaches me.

Last year I became the bands Official backup singer and guitarist. I know I’m nothing now compared to what you were then, but I’ll work hard to fill the space.

-Milo Hills.