Beatrice Barber Big First Thing That I Never Seen Before

A Big First to me is this Coronavirus Disease fist being lay off from work, and everybody seem to be in a panic not knowing what to do or where to go. Then people are dying around us and their family can not be by their side. My grandson caught the virus because he went to a beach party for Spring Break with other College Students and some of the caught the virus. He was Quarantine in his room at his College Dorm for 14 days with medicine. I talked to the last week by phone he said he was fine, but I reminded him to follow the rules that they had in place Stay-At-Home and the Six Feet Distance from people. I am so lost without words and in a panic mode as a Mother, Grandmother, trying to keep it together and keep my family safe until I feel like my grown Children and my College Grandsons are not really listening to me. My daughter is a First Responder and my son is a truck drive in his own business. Trying to tell them something to be safe they always got something smart to say back to me and as my daughter say to me woman they say this or they said that to me so I just blow it off. Then being at home all day trying to find something to do is driving me crazy. As I think of one thing to do something else cross my mind, then my cell phone ring and it is my little sister Brenda on the other end , now she start of with what you doing and before I can answer her she goes off with the news say we get extra food stamps on our card for the month of March for April and and another amount for April 2020 so then she go on to say what she going to do with her stamps and she call my other sister on a 3 way call again still going on about the food stamps, but now My sister Sharon is listening to her but for her she say nothing but oh really, So then I start to talk about the Virus again and then Brenda say well Trump said this about the stimulus check now she is wondering about whether she is going to get a check, remind you thus girl has not worked in years and she is in her 50's and married to a preacher older than her. But now she is getting my daddy social security check for years and he have 10 children and no one was able to get this money but her now that's another story for later when it will be a topic about Family Issues. Now this virus is like it's messing people mind up to the point where I see they are scared, in fear,m and they do not know where to turn to because everyday, every night you turn on the TV there is a briefing about the toll number of deaths, to the social distancing changes, to now we have curfew hours to be home at a certain time. Now they on the news telling the world how many people are dying and how many people they are letting die, to when the are very sick on the last breath there is no family member around to be by their side. To me this is hurting me because i can not help anyone, i can not save anyone not even my own family but i can on try to tell them what to do to save them. This virus is very heavy on my heart as I write this I find tears dropping from my eyes because this is a hurting sad time for everyone nationwide. as me and my daughter and my neighbor go into stores there are no kind of Sanitizer, no toliet paper on shelves. no disinfect spray, no napkins and there is vary no food on shelves nor meat. It hurts me to see this because before this virus just came upon us out of nowhere the world panic and went into fear mode and forgot about the one and only person that could SAVE US was JESUS and to get on their knees and PRAY TO THE HOLY ONE OUR FATHER, HE IS REACHING OUT TO US< MY CHILDREN COME BACK TO ME. See I know that we were going about our busy days going to work, getting off going home make dinner, and then bedtime, but most of us never once said a prayer to god, and maybe never found the time to thank God for all he has given us and for his love and protecting and preparing us a meal but at the end of the day giving thanks for everything, thanks for being blessed, thanks for protecting us and our family and getting us through this day, or telling him thank you for blessing our nation , blessing our first responder , our president, our mayor, our nurses and doctors and other people who we do not know about. Me I know my God I have studied his word, I have been through Seminary Studies and I have never stop learning his word because everyday God teach me something new. When I think I know him it is like he say to me Beatrice get up I go something else for you to do, as I do what he ask of me He put more on me but even though the burden gets very very heavy he is always there to help me carry the load but I know this too shall pass because my god the man I serve is awesome god. In my 63 years I have never experience anything like this before and it is hard for me to go to sleep at night, I find myself until the break of dawn and in a daze like what happen to this world and sometimes I ask how do we get out of this but already knowing the answer to that question is follow the red road in the sky back to our in heaven is waiting on us to repend and ask forgiveness and be spirit lead back to him and listen to him because he is a god that can not lie and always keep his word. God Is The Answer there is no other Way. My peace I Leave with you no other way. God is Peace, God is Love, God is this world Everything. Go back to the first day all before this happen to us and before it put us in this condition and ask ourselves what where we doing now don't get me wrong because I am also in this mix, and see if we can figure out where we went wrong and who did we leave out. Again I love USA God Bless America, God Bless Each of Us and Our Family Be Blessed