She was my first

August 26, 2016

Dear Diary,

Today I am so full of emotions I don’t even know what to say. I have never felt like this before. This is an amazing moment I have been waiting and praying for the past few years. It has finally happened. I feel joy, blessed, happiness, excitement, scared, overwhelmed and pure happiness. This was such a surprise! I can’t believe I hadn’t realized it sooner. I was feeling so sick and exhausted at work, but I hadn’t put it together until now. I took the test this morning not expecting to actually see it turn positive. I was so nervous. I called the doctor right away. They told me I could come right in for bloodwork. All day I sat anxious in work waiting for them to call me and validate the result I had early this morning. The phone rang and I nervously answered. The nurse on the other end excitedly expressed “Congratulations, your test was positive you’re pregnant!". I could have fell off of my chair in work even though I was more then sure that is what the voice on the other end of the line was going to tell me. It was still a rush of emotions to have it validated. I was so happy I only was scheduled to work until noon today. I couldn’t wait to get home and celebrate in the joy that I felt. All day I just wanted to jump up and scream “I’m pregnant!”. Now it is time to surprise the hubby when he gets home from work. I can’t wait to see his reaction! I will let you know how it goes.

- Lynne

August 27, 2016

Dear Diary,

Yesterday went just as expected. Owen is leaving for a work trip this weekend. Last night I packed balloons and a sign into a box and told him it was a gift for his trip. When he opened the box he was surprised with balloons floating up into the air. The curiosity and suspicion came across his face as he dug deeper into the box. He came across the sign, lifted it to his face and read it out loud “you are positively going to be a great dad!”. I also had the positive pregnancy test attached to it. The shock and happiness surfaced upon his expression. He couldn’t believe it as he ran up and hugged me. We both hadn’t experienced such a joy and happiness together as we did in that moment. It was something we both have wanted, to begin a family. I am beyond ecstatic to now share the news with my family. We have planned to have them over for dinner tomorrow night because we want to tell them before he leaves for his work trip. It is hard to keep news like this! They think it is just to hang out and have a family dinner over the weekend. I can’t wait to see the look on my parents faces when they find out they will be grandparents as well as my sisters learning they are going to be aunts. This all feels so magical.

- Lynne

August 29, 2016

Dear Diary,

Last night my family came over for dinner. We had one of our family favorites, hot wings and french fries along with some other goodies. The hot wings tasted especially delightful to me since I have been having major cravings for spicy food. I read spicy food is the sign you are pregnant with a girl. I wonder how true that is? I know I still have a little bit before I can find out the gender, but I cannot wait for that moment! I still crave ginger ale like crazy too. That should have been a huge red flag when I was constantly craving a ginger ale at work with my lunch. I never drink ginger ale and now I haven’t been able to go a day without it! The dinner went great though. We set up balloons with a baby bib attached. When they came in the door they greeted us not realizing the balloons yet. After the initial greeting chatter my youngest sister Victoria spotted the balloons and started shouting with excitement which caused the rest of my family to take notice. No way…you’re pregnant?! Came from my mom’s mouth. Everyone was cheering and chattering with excitement. We discussed how I was feeling, placed bets on the gender and spoke about how exciting and life changing it was going to be with the addition of a baby to the family. It all just feels so amazing.

- Lynne

September 6, 2016

Dear Diary, 

I have been feeling so sick. My morning sickness is so terrible I have never experienced anything like it. I can barely eat anything besides applesauce and water. I’m hoping it decreases as the weeks go by. It is hard for me to keep anything down. I am also really starting to miss drinking coffee. I feel so exhausted all of the time. I didn’t realize how much I took coffee for granted before all of this. 

- Lynne

September 16, 2016

Dear Diary,

We finally shared our exciting news of expecting our first baby with the rest of our family and friends. We did it with a very cute fall themed announcement. Everyone is so thrilled and happy for us. Some days it still seems so surreal to me. The baby’s due date is April 28, 2017. It seems like it is centuries from now. I just can’t wait to meet you little one. I already love you so much. 

- Lynne

November 18, 2016

Dear Diary,

I am beyond excited for the holidays coming up! Mainly because I get to stuff my face with tons of delicious foods on Thanksgiving and Christmas. I still have terrible morning sickness so hopefully I am able to take full advantage of stuffing my face while pregnant. I now have added cravings of sour candies, asparagus and cantaloupe. We will be finding out the gender in a few weeks the date is set for the ultrasound! I absolutely cannot wait to see if there is a little girl or a little boy growing inside me. This is a moment I have been waiting for. I hope it gets here fast! 

- Lynne

December 5, 2016

Dear Diary, 

It’s a Girl!!!! I could not be more ecstatic! I always have imagined myself as a girl mom decorating the baby with bows and dresses and cute little shoes. I feel so in love with her I cannot wait to see her beautiful face! Owen and I celebrated the perfect news over dinner. We have a name for her picked out already too….our precious Ella Aurora. Mommy loves you. 

- Lynne

January 4, 2017

Dear Diary,

Happy New Year! The holidays were great. We celebrated and talked about the excitement growing as my belly gets bigger. I never lost that morning sickness, but oh well what are you going to do. It’s worth every second. I have gotten the official “pregnancy waddle” as my round belly gets bigger. Baby girl is healthy and doing perfect as the weeks go. I am going to be entering the third trimester soon and I can’t believe it. Just three more months and she will be here!

- Lynne

March 20, 2017

Dear Diary,

Yesterday was my baby shower. It was perfectly lovely. I received so many amazing gifts from my family and friends for princess Ella. The clothes and toys are all so cute I could cry. Owen and I are in the process of getting everything ready since there is only one month to go. Her crib is all set up and ready for her to come home. I feel so huge and heavy. It is getting harder to walk. I am getting to the point where I feel over being pregnant I just want her to be here. I am also extremely nervous and frightened at the thought of labor, but I also do feel ready. One month to go!

- Lynne

April 4, 2017

Dear Diary,

Happy birthday to me! We celebrated my birthday by going and having maternity photos done over the weekend. They came out beautiful. We then spent the rest of that day having dinner at my grandparents. I also am officially on maternity leave from work which is great. Now I am just relaxing and getting last minute things finished up before she gets here. This is the last few weeks of it just being my husband and I. We are enjoying our time together before the chaos of parenthood ensues upon us. I sleep a lot most days because the fatigue of pregnancy is so strong, I have also been in the “nesting” mode of being crazy and trying to prepare everything. My husband reassures me every day that we are ready and everything will be fine. The weeks are finally creeping up to her due date. I day dream about the fact that this time next month she will be home in my arms. I feel so smitten by the thought. Motherhood is arriving any week now. 

- Lynne

April 25, 2017

Dear Diary,

Ella Aurora has arrived! She was born on April 20 and weighed 9lb 3oz. I am so proud of myself for getting her here, especially since labor didn’t go as smoothly as I hoped. She is so beautiful I melt as her big blue eyes look up at me. She is so perfect I have never felt more in love than I do now. These little hands and feet fill my soul with joy. Being a mom is even better then I expected. It’s exhausting and chaotic, but in the most wonderful ways. I couldn’t imagine anything more fulfilling in life. I have never been so proud and deeply connected to my husband than the moment our daughter was born. The moment I had my daughter is a moment I could never forget. She was my first pregnancy, my first child, my first daughter and the first person to make me a mommy. I could not imagine experiencing a better first anything.

- Lynne