The addiction of a family member

The day started as usual getting up going to work 6 days a week including the overtime working double shifts. I'm ready to quit I have so much going on outside the job I deal with daily.My home has turned into a battlefield between me and my son addiction, I came home one day he had locked the screen door which was odd when I finally got in by coming through the front door I had left out of this morning.When I approached the kitchen my son standing in the middle of the floor with the broom,I just stood there in shock because he was leaning on the broom as if he was air,I didn't smell alcohol or weed I took a quick look around and headed towards the bathroom there on the sink was residue of some sustain I lost it I didn't touch anything and it made no sense to talk to him at this point, I went into my room and cracked my door to monitor my son, after a couple of hours he returned to normal, I suggested he seek help he refused.One day my son went to work and got fired came home and got busted stealing,I felt it was a sign for help when he got arrested he was offered rehab which I had offered him and he refused, so this day after court he had to arrange for treatment I refused to help, I gave him his insurance card and left the room as he was crying as he spoke to the rehab administration.Well he went when we made it to the rehab center my son was so high it's like he was leaning in thin air like Michael Jackson, the people in the back came running out after the receptionist informed them of his arrival next thing I know they calling codes and several people showed up second later the rescue squad by now I'm asking what's going on they his drug test came back full of shit, but he said he had a weed problem I was allowed to answer any question at the admission he was lying and his text proved it I left and headed home I wasn't home more than an hour I get a call from hospital my son was transferred 30 minutes after I left they said they had gotten concerned due to the level of drugs he had partaken as a going away celebration,so I get this call from hospital letting me know my son is being released I asked them where's the staff from rehab he said no one was there he was alone I explained the situation but ended up picking him up,I asked him what happened he said they thought he was going to die he said he told them to just give him something to eat and let him lay down they refuse so we get home I tell him you going back tomorrow as I turned into garage he grabs his skateboard and leaves,I just went into the house and went to bed he didn't return for 2 days I called his PO at this point so he had until Monday 1:00 pm to return to rehab before a warrant would be issued,I texted to inform him I had talked to his PO also to inform him what was said him and he would have to get his own ride back to rehab he did so he was there 30 days returned home and just picked up where he left off, back to court which was 4 months later he returned to rehab 30 days this time he was ready and he knew what to expect they had made him the house speaker he received several awards for his achievements in completing the program.the next step was halfway house for 90 days,my son tried to escape before going to the halfway house he had called his girlfriend to transport him it didn't happen I was there 30 minutes before being released, I was finally going to get me some sleep 😴😴😴 I finally found peace I was truly enjoying the time apart from my son,I took the information given at the family classes and used them when my son came home I gave him a year to move so I told him use your time wisely.The first thing he had to do was check in with the people which was the most important,he had a week to find employment with temp service it all worked out for all of us thank God Amen 🙏

I think about the time I had brought my son a used car to get to and from work this before I knew he was getting high one day I was sitting at the table and I saw some head lights he was getting out the car on passenger side I waited till he came in and asked about his car his response I got a car,LOL I said it's a good thing you ain't driving and that was smart to leave it wherever it's at , his friend brought it home the next day.I was thinking God is always on time when in a time of needing protection Amen 🙏. People would ask how do you deal with all that I told them my strength comes from God there could be no other way, I learned that when you give it God you can't interfere, I felt my interference with what God had in mind for my son the first time until I decided I could heal him and make him stop,he returned to rehab 4 months later but came out more positive the second time around without my interference, I had to tell my son stop calling me complaining because you complained about my rules so I told him maybe it's you he didn't call for a couple of days as our journey began I began to get stronger and stand on what I say it took some getting use to saying no and it's your situation I don't have a solution, I would say you will figure it out in time,he would get upset ,but he realized I wasn't given in he was in charge of his life and actions as he use to state stay out my business!! This was one of the hardest challenges I ever dealt with and you truly have patient not just for you but the person who's using it hard when it's your child.

My son has lost several friends to OD,he dealt with a lot of pain, depression and anxiety, I'm proud of him because he will tell I will be an addict until I leave earth, the difference I'm not using anymore it's a daily battle, his family with his wife and daughters has been an amazing support system for him.

My son is doing great today, he is a father 3 girls and he's an husband,he volunteer at the school once a week as a mentor,

I wrote a song call Reveal inspired about our journey his addiction was our addiction I was the support system and the financial provider for his treatment.