The Man I Want to Be

Milk

Cheese

Chocolate

Chips

Cookies

Vodka

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hot girl takes

hot bitches getting

why am i alone

why dont people like me

Best answer: all bitches want are muscly guys w/ pea brains not fat fucks like us

Milk

Cheese

Beer

Mountain Dew

Cheap Flowers (for Mother’s Day- attach note: Sorry I couldn’t make it home this year, but I’m thinking of you.)

A Reason Why She Would Care

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met a girl

how to flirt

how to get a girls number

why would she ever like me

Milk

Eggs

Cheese

Sugar

Bread (White)

Cookies

Birthday Cake (For Sonia)

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help with lactose intolerance

girlfriend lactose intolerance

why cant some people eat milk

gastrointestinal meaning

Milk (And Lactaid Pills)

Eggs

Toothpaste

A Vegetable?

Small Gift for Sonia (Jewelry, Book, DVD to watch together? Maybe something stupid to make her laugh)

Search history: 

gifts for girlfriend

what to give girlfriend

first girlfriend

i think i love her already

Best answer: oh, so youv joined the ranks. lets see how long that lasts

Milk (And Lactaid Pills)

Bread (White)

Chocolate

Condoms (Nice)

Search history:

how to make a girl feel good

how to be a good boyfriend

how to improve

do i deserve her?

Online Quiz Result: You have some things to work on, bud, but you’re trying.

Milk (And Lactaid Pills)

XL Shirts (Jesus)

Broccoli

Diet Book?

Self-Help for Dummies

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gym membership near me

therapist near me

meeting the parents

she makes me feel like someone i could love

Milk (And Lactaid Pills)

L Shirts

Chicken

Bread (Whole Wheat)

Cookbook

Ring (let’s not be hasty

but I want to I want to so bad)

Search history:

found a pregnancy test

help

Best answer: fat rip bro

Milk (And Lactaid Pills)

Parenting 101 (Book)

Vodka (lots)

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am i ready to be a dad

am i good enough

deadbeat 

am i a piece of shit

Best answer: yea

Milk

Sugar

Cheese

Cookies

Vodka

Bread (White)

Search history:

cheap apartments near me

cheap furniture

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i wnt to die

Text log:

Sonia <3: 

Brian please text me back

Brian i cant do this without you

Brian im seriously i dont know what tp do

i thought you loved me and now you just abandon me i thought we were in this together i love you so much

i cant get rid of it please understand that i know its my choice and im choosing this bc i know i would never be able to live with myself

we talked about kids anyway its just now not five years from now

youve changed so much since weve known each other and so have i you made me realize i was worthy of love and you came so close to being the man you always wanted to be

i wanted my five years from now to be with you i wanted to see the man you would become

maybe that man wasnt all i wanted him to be

maybe that man didnt want to see me

ok

im not even sure why im texting you anymore

youve made yourself perfectly clear

i dont need you

i really dont

Mom:

So when do I get to meet this girl you’ve been telling me about?

Milk

Eggs

Rope (if you weren’t such a fucking coward)

Search history:

rock bottom

how to renew a gym membership

how to get my life on track

how to apologize

how to be loved

Best answer: just try, bro.

Flowers

Diapers

Ring

Cake (Dairy Free)

Box/Basket

Something From the Heart

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sticking to resolutions

how to be patient

how to earn back trust

how to stop dropping things when i panic

Text log:

Sonia <3:

I won’t need those diapers for at least six months

but i appreciate it

Me: 

i know it doesn’t begin to make up for what ive put you through these past few weeks

but i promise i will make it up to you if it takes me the rest of my life

im never going to abandon you again no matter what life throws at us, sonia, because i love you so much and you have made me into the man i want to be

i am not him yet but i will be him someday for you. that man will never do what i did again

i will wait a hundred hundred years if i have to living in this shitty apartment filled with roaches and that shakes whenever the elevator goes and i dont care so long as i can come home to you in the end

(*Unsent*)

More Moving Boxes

Parenting Books

Chocolate (Dairy Free)

Paint (baby safe? how can you tell?)

Crib

Something Nice for Sonia

Search history:

why am i so nervous

when is it ok to say i love her again

how to prove i love her

do many dads panic when they find out about pregnancy?

Overnight Bag (Nicer)

Flowers (for Mom)

Plane Ticket (for Mom)

Something Nice for Mom (TALK to her)

Little Baby Boots (the cute ones)

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im so scared 

how often do births go wrong

Jesus

I cant lose her

Best answer: everything will be okay, dude. we're with you. remember that youre not alone and you have us and your mom and even your girl (even though she probably doesnt need to hear about YOUR worries right now, lolol)

Diapers

Bottles

Baby Monitor

Bibs (Do they make vomit-resistant ones?)

Something Nice for Sonia

Search history:

how to be a good dad

how to be a good husband

how to be a good man

ive never felt worth more than

when i hold them in my arms