His beautiful, beautiful guts

13:32

Alex.s says:

I’ve been trying all this time to fall out of love with him

I’ve been making this promise to myself again and again

I’ve been saying by spring I’ll be over him

It’s spring

It’s fuckin happening

It’s happening today

I don’t care how or what idfk it’s happening NOW

I JUST CAN’T KEEP DOING THIS

Today it’s the first day of spring

Renaissance and shit

MY ENTIRE EXISTENCE IS REBORN TODAY BITCH

I’M SO DONE WITH HIS ASS

13:34

Jane9 says:

omg

13:39

Alex.s says:

He always texts at the fuckin group chat

Because we’re just friends you know?

Only memes and shit

Never something serious

Because we’re exes who are SUCH GOOD FRIENDS

I JUST LOVE FRIENDSHIP

ISN’T FRIENDSHIP SO IMPORTANT????

LIKE, OF COURSE I PLAYFULLY LICK THE EAR OF ALL MY FRIENDS AND STARE AT THEM LONGINGLY FROM A DISTANCE

DON’T YOU GET IT?

WE’RE FRIENDS

Today this ends

13:43

Kat says:

Are you okay?

13:44

Alex.s says:

I’m so ok

Never been better

I’m so over this

I’m watching No Strings Attached

A classic

A fucking classic

Natalie Portman is emotionally constipated but Ashton Kutcher makes her not be

How do I become Ashton Kutcher?

No scratch that I don’t need to change him because today I fuckin STOP HAVE FEELINGS FOR HIM

Omg this masterpiece

I am ashton kutcher

In that scene where he slams his fist in a wall

That’s how I feel about my life

The scene where he smashes his head repeatedly on the table

I’m telling you this is my life right now

14:02

Kat says:

Of course you’re relating to the character who’s smashing their head on the table

17:49

Alex.s says:

At the group chat

We are now discussing feelings

In general

Like, not our feelings

And Lelia just texted “I’m out, I’m so done with you two”

Do you know who else is done with us two?

ME

STARTING FROM TODAY

This ends now Kat, I’m telling you

18:01

Jane9 says:

I’m feeling so sorry about everyone at your group chat

Third wheeling your sorry oblivious asses

18:32

Alex.s says:

He can go to hell

I’m done

I’m not playing this game anymore

Dancing around the feelings he’s decided to hide

Friends

This is a declaration

Today is the day when I stop caring about him

I’ve been chasing

Hungry for breacrumbs

For so fuckin long

One day he’ll realize I’m the best thing he ever had going on for him

The BEST

THERE IS NO WAY he’ll find our connection anywhere else

I’M SO DONE

SO SICK OF THIS GROSS GAME

19:42

Alex.s says:

I’ve been speculating and overanalyzing what he may be feeling and all his weird mixed signals for so long

SPRING HAS COME and so has new opportunity

20:14

Kat says:

#newspringnewme

#quarantinegoals

#selfgrowth

21:49

Alex says:

Stop

I’m serious

So fuckin tired of his breadcrumbs

He can go fuck himself

Live in his misery

With no love

With his high walls

Protecting him

Fuckin mr. Darcy

I don’t care anymore for all the emotions he’s been bottling up For over a YEAR NOW

Fucking himself up

Drinking them down

Pretending he’s ok immune to feelings like a hunky fuckin marble statue

Looking at me like edward freakin cullen

22:09

Jane9 says:

Amen

Preach, alex!

It’s so true it’s so fuckin unhealthy you two have been shoving yourselves on each other’s face not moving forward for over a year now how do you do it?

You gotta stop

I’m proud of you for making this decision

22:11

Alex.s says:

Damn right I’ve made the decision

If he can't see that i made him fuckin ecstatic

He loved what we had

I could see his face fucking glowing every morning when we woke up

But i fucked up

Because i was mentally ill

How dare I

How dare I being anxious and clingy and overbearing

No second chances

Ever

Because he's a psychologist

And he got it together

And makes serious grown man decisions

22:59

Jane says:

He hasn’t said that he isn’t gonna give you a second chance, it’s just too early for that still

23:03

Alex.s says:

HE’S SAID IT, JANE

HE SAID WE’RE DONE AND HE DOESN’T HAVE ANY FEELINGS LEFT FOR ME

A year ago

And my friends text each other after the protests saying they’re tired of third-wheeling us

Because there’s obvs a vibe

And I catch him looking for me in the crowd

BUT WE’RE DONE, YOU SEE, JANE!

HE WAS OVER ME IN TEN DAYS

THAT’S WHAT HE SAID

SURE, HIS DEMIROMANTIC ASS WAS OVER ME IN TEN DAYS

THE GUY WHO TOOK ONE MONTH TO DECIDE WHETHER HE WAS GONNA BREAK UP WITH ME BECAUSE HE JUST COULDN’T

AND AFTER BREAKING UP HE WAS KISSING ME FOR AN HOUR AND CRYING AND STARING INTO MY EYES AND TELLING ME HOW MUCH HE LOVED ME

IM SO TIRED OF MY FUCKIN TELENOVELA OF A LIFE

IM SO. TIRED.

In all the movies when the emotionally constipated main characters’ friends say “just go fuck each other already”

It always means there’s something there

But apparently I have to accept that there’s nothing here

So I’m accepting it, and I’m moving on, and it’s happening today

Fuckin spring

Season of romance

Apparently they all wrong??

I'm wrong?

My gay intuition is wrong?

Im spiraling im gonna fuckin punch a wall

CAN I GET OUT OF THIS SKIN SUIT AND GO TO FUXKIN HELL

23:20

Jane9 says:

Oi

Calm down

Your intuition isn’t wrong

23:21

Alex.s says:

Idgaf

23:23

Kat says:

Baby

Alex

Hey

You’ve got this

23:29

Alex.s says:

Im so done

So fuxkin done

23:32

Kat says:

He just needs time

23:32

Alex.s says:

HE JUST NEEDS TO GO EAT AN ENTIRE ASS

23:33

Kat says:

And it’s the hardest thing he could be needing

But it’s obvious he still has feelings for you

23:33

Alex.s says:

He doesn’t need time

He’s made his decision clear a hundred times

And I’m just a creepy stalker

Holding on to hope

He always ghosts me

I initiate most conversations

There may be ‘vibes’ or whatever

But his behavior is so weird

So I’m done

But I don’t wanna move on

I’m so in love

Oh god

I just hate his guts

His beautiful, beautiful guts

23:40

Kat says:

Ok you’re disgusting

And you don’t hate him

neither does he

You can’t just move on because you decided you will

23:42

Alex.s says:

Watch me

Girls, this is it. I will never give a single fuck again

23:43

Jane9 says:

WHERE. ARE. THE BOUNDARIES.

i’m done with your situation, alex. and you should be too.

I know it’s hard to just kick him away and not answer him and not text him but you gotta put yourself first, you gotta be angry. You’ve been so forgiving for so long yet he’s always playing by his own rules, keeping you as a “friend” and he’s always there only when he wants to be, dragging you along

I think it’s obvious to everyone that you’re obsessed with him

It’s obvious to him too

And he’s dragging you along

And no one has ever doubted that you’re the most wonderful person he ever had

I can’t imagine any of you with anyone else

You were made for each other

Fuckin chandelr and monica

But y’all both stubborn af

And this is getting unhealthy

And nothing is gonna change until you flip the table

So yes. Be angry, alex

00:01

Alex.s says:

Girls?

he just called me.

He hasn’t called in 6 months

While I was writing to you that I’m done

He called me

00:04

Jane9:

eeehmmmm

Lol

Maybe this spring is gonna be interesting after all

Or maybe it’s the quarantine

In the power of the quarantine we believe

02:12

Alex.s says:

just 2 hours

Nothing much

Lol

We spoke on the phone for 2 hours

We talked about everything

Everything but us obvs

At some point we were saying our old jokes

And he said

“us two, we disgust me sometimes”

I said “yeah, us two, we’re something, aren’t we?”

And then there was silence

We laughed so much

It’s not like I’m making any effort to be subtle

I’m full of hints

I teased him all the time

He didn’t seem to mind

He’s ridiculous

At some point I told him

“it’s been a year and you keep telling our jokes”

He said “I love jokes”

I told him “you need to update your repertoire”

He laughed

He was saying jokes we used to say that even I didn’t remember

02:15

Jane9 says:

The poor asshole

He’s so emotionally constipated

02:15

Alex.s says:

The universe is laughing at me

He hasn’t cold me in months

*called

HOT AND COLD

WE SPOKE FOR TWO HOURS

That’s what I wanted to share

Thank you for listening and for your valuable contributions

Now I’m gon nap forever

Or scream to the void

02:17

Jane9 says:

You’re both acting like 15 y/os, y’know that?

You don’t call “a friend” and speak with them for 2 hours after midnight

02:21

Alex.s says:

He said he isn’t gonna get in a relationship until he’s 80

02:22

Jane9 says:

Jesus christ

Idek who started this horrible loop of dishonesty

He when he told you he doesn’t have feelings for you, or you when you decided to play along being his “friend”

Y’all need to take a fucking break

For your own good and for the good of us all

You never took a proper break

02:25

Alex.s says:

I'm in love like it's the first day…

I was about to stop, you know.

To stop caring

Today

And then he called

02:27

Jane9 says:

Alex, puh-lease

Just stop

This is so toxic

Just stop texting him

Stop talking to him

let the ball in his court

02:29

Kat says:

I told you he’s still in love with you

02:29

Alex.s says:

What if he called me as a friend?

02:30

Kat says:

He called you while he was drinking. After midnight. You don’t call your friend or your aunt after midnight, after excessive sessions of pining from a distance

02:31

Jane9 says:

Kat, stop encouraging them.

This is toxic

Alex, listen to me

You need to be strong

You need to stop doing this

02:33

Alex.s says:

You’re right, I promise

I’m done

Starting from today

02:34

Jane.9 says:

We’re so proud of you

02:35

Alex.s says:

Thank you <3

Ily

And I just love spring, even just watching it from behind the window

I’m gonna do so many things during the quarantine

Apply for masters

Take online courses

I’ll start in the morning

02:37

Kat says:

We love you so much, Alex

You’ve got so much going on for you

02:38

Alex.s says:

You’re right, thanks

I’m going to bed

02:39

Jane9 says:

Good call.

Get some rest love

Talk tomorrow

02:39

Alex.s says:

Gnight <3

07:36

Alex.s says:

Do you really think he still has feelings for me?