Luv Me For My Ambition

Luv Me For My Ambition

They tried, they tried so hard. I know life throws us melons, but at times we catch it like it’s apples. There’s a person at the moment who is looking for stability,& luck. Not quite knowing what it is exactly they need, but they want comfortability. Sometimes looking for what we want isn’t always the best route. Yes we know what we want for ourselves, sad to say the world isn’t wrapped up on us personally. How can they get stability? Living in uncomfortable situations is a start. There’s a person in a home reaching out for a hand, but always seems to get high fives instead. This person is looking for a job that fits them. Their dream job is to become CEO of their own business. This person has been making hand crafted natural African attire. Including beaded jewelry, clothes, shoes, fragrance,& etc. The cost of everything is expensive, on top of only working a part time job getting paid every 2 weeks. They want to have stability enough to be able to help them make it through the days. They decided to go full time to make more money to help buy more supplies for their business, but now they are full time trying to find a balance to be able to keep up on their business. Who knew working full time, while managing a side busy is hard work. Working from 9-5, going home to start your business around 7pm is tough work. Ever had that moment where you know this will not last?

Not only stretching your business,& outside life to have stability is a lot, but also making sure your surroundings are always up to par so you can feel where your comfortability lies. Living in a household with 10 people can be not the best, especially when the home is only designed for 4 people. Then all of sudden you begin to hear the lips of unappreciative mouths speak. Why does your attire look so old colored? When do you think your sales will jump? Is this real African wear? How much will you discount me? What?????? One thing about going into business, there is NO PLEASURE applied with PRESSURE. If your own family will make you question dreams on how you are moving, be ready to look for a new comfort zone to whom you're comfortable around. They say family is top support, well in this list it reversed back down. Family aren’t the main importance of a comfort zone but the clients. You spend so much time making sure your hand crafts are at its best. Y'all ever felt attacked by a stranger asking about a hat?? We take our time to be realized, and get unrecognized energy. The worst fears that leaves always like to make their way back, but this time it leaves questions on the brain about our moves, our goals, our inner self. The successful feelings are somewhere in the air, but for some reason I can’t catch it at the moment. Maybe I could try again.

At this point giving up was the only option. The family questioned me, clients might not be so pleased with the work, and my job is kicking ass up&down. It’s time for bed rest. Literally the next morning struggling to get up not in the sight of wanting to do anything. Thinking, how can things turn around for the best? Going to work getting the worst talk that nobody could ever expect. Going to another co-worker hearing sadness of a situation where the character could respond is sorry. Not hearing them speak about the death of a loved one, but hearing the same situation similar to a dream that is no longer there for.. me? The accessories were no longer in use to be sold so I just treated, and wore them as my own. Until my fashion sparked a pretty eye, and asked did my fashion come in for guys. It felt like a small groove was coming back. Was this starting to become my dream of leading in luck? With it being the first sale within 3 months, the celebration didn’t sound too bad. Then I forgot, nobody around me has good support. Celebrating alone was the best go. Still searching for stability, it’s hitting somewhere in the atmosphere that’s shared. Selling jewels daily was something new. Coming to find a stand point where stability could fit in at this time. Not having the clue in the face that this money can help get another place. The time was moving fast, the goals were already 10 steps ahead. Who is happy when the person who is never noticed is never around? Having a hard time to find the right place, but nobody to ask for advice, nobody knows anything apparently.

Taking a pause isn’t such a bad idea, that doesn’t mean stop completely. If I stopped, and paused next to each other, I could tell the difference, and still choose to do what the body is aiming to do, even if it’s not the right choice. Never stop going for what you need though , because how could you survive, no will you survive. Hard work with soft movement doesn’t get you buff, but soft filled. Finally seeing that nobody needs to help you move, help find your location, because you are your only key to life. Finally stability is rolling back on good terms. Jewels selling out, new house without other point outs. I made success look easy, but I’m still feeling queasy. This wasn’t for a competition on comparing it to life, it was a must to- do motion. I feel successful, but I don't need to drag it. I feel happy, sad, energized, motivated, stabilized, understood, lucky. I needed it for the best. Something also is pulling me towards empty. Empty handed, empty headed, empty why? To- do list has its purpose like said before. The emotions fit right into place perfectly, my reality gave them empty spaces. Being successful could drive you empty minded for your best timing.