for the greater god

"It's for the greater good."

Of course it is, because the request came from Her mouth and everything that comes from Her is good. But still, the weight of what She's asking me isn't something i can lightly brush off. i'll have to though, i owe Her that and so much more, after all, She saved me. i was all alone and then She came along and i wasn't lonely anymore. i found happiness and love because of Her. i owe Her my life, so I'll do this and so much more to show Her how great my love is.

Any inklings of doubt i had in Her were gone. Her word is my law, it's all that is good in the world, so of course, anyone who made Her speak sad words was going against the law, a criminal, right? Right. i can still remember Her eyes, Her beautiful eyes that i am so lucky to get to look at day after day. i don't think the day would ever come again without those eyes. They were always so bright, so calculating, She can do anything or make anyone do anything with those eyes excluding me of course. We're different. Anyways those eyes i loved were so angry, so sad that i couldn't refuse even if i wanted to. So i brace myself to carry out what i need to.

For the greater good. For the greater good. For the greater good.

i meet the girl at the front door. we hug when the girl answers. It disgusts me that i'm even bothering with formality when talking to such a lowly piece of scum, but it must be done. she's home alone, which i expected, but i admit part of me is nervous, i had hoped the girl's parents would magically appear so i could bail.

God, i'm such a coward, i'm doing this for Her. Nothing else matters, everything will be fine. i don't even deserve to love Her, this is the least i can do. so i follow the girl into the girl's room and we start to study like i asked to when we talked earlier today. i'll admit the girl seems like a nice enough person, but i know the truth. No nice person could make Her eyes look angry. i need to get to work or else i'll lose my window of opportunity. i turn to the girl and tell the girl i know what she did. the girl has the audacity to look back at me with the stupidest look on her face i have ever seen. the girl's eyes looked so confused i wanted to throw up, they paled in comparison to Her eyes, even when they were angry they still looked breathtaking. i tell the girl again i already know what happened and it's stupid to act innocent and also way too late because it is. the confused look doesn't leave the girl's face. i'm only getting more irritated now, you could say i was being filled with righteous anger.

This girl must have some nerve, trying to pretend everything is ok. This girl made Her angry, so angry she came to me with such a dark request that i had no choice but to follow. No wait, not a dark request, this is just retribution, i'm just carrying out Her will, nothing wrong with that. i finally understand.

This is for the greater good. And for Her. Nothing more and nothing less.

For the greater good. I slowly walk towards the girl. My mind is set on finishing what I came here to do. The girl looks scared now, which is also a stupid look on the girl. The girl is getting what she deserves. For the greater good. The girl is backed up against a wall, conveniently, the girl's bathroom door is open. I keep on walking towards the girl. the girl inches into the bathroom, perfect. the girl is at the edge of her bathtub. For the greater good. I smile as I get closer to the girl, who looks terrified now. I don't know what it is about the girl's face but it bothers me so much. Probably because She told me how much She hates the girl. The girl stumbles and falls into the bathtub, and anyone with more than three brain cells would have probably given up by now but the stupid girl is still looking for a way out. I see the girl grab a bottle of shampoo as if that was going to save anyone's life. I grab it and pin the girl down so the girl couldn't hit me. For the greater good. I use one hand to pinch her nostrils closed, and the other to grab a towel from the girl's counter and stuff it in the girl's mouth. I turn on the water and it begins to fill the tub. My rage grows because the girl won't stop staring up at me with those hideous eyes, almost as if pleading for help. Maybe I would've helped if the girl kept her eyes shut. It's not long before the girl is unconscious, and after that, it isn't long until the bathtub is filled up. For the greater good. I look around in the girl's drawers until I find what I'm looking for. A hairdryer. For the greater good. I plug it in and drop it in the water. For the greater good. I leave quickly, from here on out it doesn't matter what happens.

I need to get home and wash the scent of scum off of me. If anyone asks, the girl killed herself. It's not like she didn't have any reason not to, I would've done the same thing if I had her eyes. And if I do get caught it will have been worth it. I can't wait to see Her tomorrow, to see Her gorgeous face beaming with joy and pride, and Her eyes won't be angry. Anything is worth that cost, She's done so much for me the least I can do is show Her how much I love Her. Maybe she'll finally say it back, but that's asking for too much and i don't think i deserve that yet. But one day, i'll show Her i can do so much more than petty tasks, i'll prove myself.

i skip home through the dark empty streets with thoughts of Her floating through my head, all is right with my world again.