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Fantasy

This New Year, I'm going to complete everything!!! Everything, damn it!!! I'm going to get ordained after I get my LM, get my NST, get my CH, get everything. I've won a beautiful house in Chicago, Illinois where me and my girlfriend, Kristen live, on Charles' street. I've gotten into the conservatory at Second City and am caught up on all my e-mails and Facebook posts. I can go anywhere I want on my cellphone since I am easily paying the bills and taxes. I have a licensed accountant who has taken care of all the tax forms and 5013c donations. The Universe is wonderful. I am happy all the time and so is Kristen. We have a beautiful, large, home where there's space for Kristen to watch TV, if she wants to and space for me to work out without distrurbing her. I have a fantastic personal trainer and nutritionist who helped me gain muscle mass, but I'm still allowed to be gentle. There is peace, quiet and the neighbors are miles away. No one needs anything. We can both walk around naked if we want to and nobody reports us or cares. We can also give each other hugs with each other's permission and we adopted a sweet dog who loves us both. They love sitting with us on our large leather coach, watching the news. I am loving, I love, and I am loved. When we look in the mirror, we feel great about ourselves. There is a waterpark a few miles from us, which we can go to anytime we want.  There's also a Melting Pot which we can go to anytime we want. The coffee around here is gourmet, better than the coffee in Seattle. We can just be ourselves. I am allowed to cry, be scared, worry, anything, but there's nothing to worry about, but I'm allowed to be me. I'm allowed to have friends, get married, bathe in my hot tub jacuzzi, get massages, our own sensory room. Life is good. We have a swimming pool, hot tub, sauna, bathtub, everything. I'm going to complete everything!!!! I've had a beautiful wedding and everyone in my family is now getting along, they've been mature and resolved their differences. I have choices. I'm allowed to cuddle with Kristen to my heart's content and be weak. It takes strength to be weak, to cry, to admit that I'm scared. "Life is good."

We have privacy and acknowlegement. They know us at Second City and I've completed the conservatory and made and kept friends. I can network now. I've been offered a position at Saturday Night Live and accepted it. We have two places to live: one in New York, the other in Chicago. We've gotten to see Avenue Q and Spamalot. I've been legally published and have a best seller. Universities are contacting me about giving speeches at their Universities. I've been in movies, won awards, and am well known, but still friendly and humble. I hang out at bars after the shows and talk to my fans, who are kind.  The reviews for me and my colleagues are always great!!! The newspaper people even laughed during our routines. I feel connected. It feels like the antithesis of lonely, but people understand my boundaries and I have great agents which handle my mail and phone calls. I get long hugs all the time from my wife and fans. Life is simple and beautiful .  

There may be conflicts sometimes, but they're brief. Kristen understands boundaries and borders and we allow each other space. We have intelligent conversations about current events, art, movies, tv shows, and other things. I can go anywhere I want on the metro, including church and improv. I get to watch short form and long form improv any time I want and I can eat anything I want, anytime I want.  

I have learned to focus, learned to calm down, learn to relax and trust in the Universe. We have DVR, now, which is wonderful. We have unlimited space on the DVR, too. We have both mastered "The Art of Allowing" and "The Law of Attraction" but we don't brag about it. We are content, living in the moment. We're happy about our memories and focus on all the great memories. We no longer obscess over negativity. We simply allow. We compliment each other with truths.  

"You can say I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one." "Thoughts are things." See, if we create all this negativity with fear, anger, and resentments, but we learned we create love, prosperity, relaxation, with our thoughts and reactions. We realize how much beauty there is in nature and in all human experiences. We feel hugged even without hugs, we feel inner acceptance, we feel good.  

There's inner peace, outward peace, onward peace, and upward peace. Just like Andrew Jackson Davis talked about. Right now, we learn from our mistakes, but we no longer dwell on it. We dwell on the positivity. We dwell on the good and there is good.  

This may seem like fantasy, but it isn't, it's natural law. "Natural Law is an ascertained working sequence or constant order among the phenomenon of nature". It's constant. Happiness attracts happiness, faith attracts faith, love attracts love and we realize we are loved, we are love. We remember the eleventh step prayer on page 99 of the twelve and twelve. What we give out comes back, but it's an ecosystem. I understand botony now, I understand biology, exercise, diet, music, improv, trivia. I understand it all and it's all beautiful. I see the silver lining in everything. And everything has a silver lining and the silver lining grows big. It's like discovering a gold mine and discovering bigger gold the further we dig and sharing the gold and having self appreciation.  We have privacy and acknowlegement. They know us at Second City and I've completed the conservatory and made and kept friends. I can network now. I've been offered a position at Saturday Night Live and accepted it. We have two places to live: one in New York, the other in Chicago. We've gotten to see Avenue Q and Spamalot. I've been legally published and have a best seller. Universities are contacting me about giving speeches at their Universities. I've been in movies, won awards, and am well known, but still friendly and humble. I hang out at bars after the shows and talk to my fans, who are kind.  The reviews for me and my colleagues are always great!!! The newspaper people even laughed during our routines. I feel connected. It feels like the antithesis of lonely, but people understand my boundaries and I have great agents which handle my mail and phone calls. I get long hugs all the time from my wife and fans. Life is simple and beautiful .  

There may be conflicts sometimes, but they're brief. Kristen understands boundaries and borders and we allow each other space. We have intelligent conversations about current events, art, movies, tv shows, and other things. I can go anywhere I want on the metro, including church and improv. I get to watch short form and long form improv any time I want and I can eat anything I want, anytime I want.  

I have learned to focus, learned to calm down, learn to relax and trust in the Universe. We have DVR, now, which is wonderful. We have unlimited space on the DVR, too. We have both mastered "The Art of Allowing" and "The Law of Attraction" but we don't brag about it. We are content, living in the moment. We're happy about our memories and focus on all the great memories. We no longer obscess over negativity. We simply allow. We compliment each other with truths.  

"You can say I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one." "Thoughts are things." See, if we create all this negativity with fear, anger, and resentments, but we learned we create love, prosperity, relaxation, with our thoughts and reactions. We realize how much beauty there is in nature and in all human experiences. We feel hugged even without hugs, we feel inner acceptance, we feel good.  

There's inner peace, outward peace, onward peace, and upward peace. Just like Andrew Jackson Davis talked about. Right now, we learn from our mistakes, but we no longer dwell on it. We dwell on the positivity. We dwell on the good and there is good.  

This may seem like fantasy, but it isn't, it's natural law. "Natural Law is an ascertained working sequence or constant order among the phenomenon of nature". It's constant. Happiness attracts happiness, faith attracts faith, love attracts love and we realize we are loved, we are love. We remember the eleventh step prayer on page 99 of the twelve and twelve. What we give out comes back, but it's an ecosystem. I understand botony now, I understand biology, exercise, diet, music, improv, trivia. I understand it all and it's all beautiful. I see the silver lining in everything.  

January 02, 2024 16:16

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