Once Again

I just can't believe it, i am at it again, going round and round like Merry-go-round, it took a few seconds to realized i was utterly and completely lost once more. The creatures are on top of me once again.

Pattern, pattern, pattern and more pattern is what i should focused on. "But, how many times do wise man advises himself or rather his spirit before it takes heed?" I couldn't believe it's hapening to me of all people again.

I am beginning to wonder if i am who i really believed myself to be. A man with ears on the ground, eyes on issues that warrants paying attention to. I just know either i am deluding myself or that i am not here in spirit just in body alone.

I have read somewhere i can't now placed that people that hopelessly lost run around in circles like dog after its own tail. Isn't exactly what i am doing, running around in circles? So, does it mean i am utterly lost? I can't believe it.

You see, it's this way, the forces after me are those kinds you will refer to as invisibles on red attires their own assignment on human race is to waste efforts. They seems to remember me full-time since tail end of February and ever since they stuck like super glue to me in a kinda "no leave, no transfer" manner. They are ruthless, once you appear in their monitor radar. I must have appeared there or something for their sergeants and not even recruits are the level i am guessing i am up against for long and it had not been funny.they have been truly living their tag on my efforts especially those in their spiritual wisdom they believed must have been most important to me for reasons known to them.

The ther day, they had sat, observing me do what i love to doing best:reading, jotting and writing. I wouldn't know how they gauge what you like most or how they weigh what they believed must be utmost important to their toy or rather victims and wait in patience like vultures, observing you put in the work , sweating, cracking your brain to come out with a good work and then once it's reaping time, they appear like what they are to wipe away effort and sat gloating, observing you to know how deep your pain is.

You know how something like that hits where it hurts most? Being human, i always react like what i am, human. I will throw tantrums around in their numbers as my my first reaction port of call whenever its deja vu time. This had been on for long that i didn't even realizes that if i am not seeing them, it doesn't mean they are not seeing me. They do, they are there but my wounded erratic and highly invaded mind wasn't just coordinating well. I guess i must have been a type to those fellas and at a point, when it dawn on me what was happening i wondered a little about my reactions.

I guessed that some of them wasn't only reading me like the book i was reading, they were jotting too. It came to me that those creatures must have been putting in bets on what my reaction will be before they even attack to see who wins among them.

You know that kinds of oversure humans that's cocksure on their knowledge of their fellow humans of every race and standing that they can wager any amount and sure on how your reaction will pan out when hurt bad. I suspected overtime when my brain started putting two and two together that i might not be only object of amusement to some unseen creatures but i might even be source of an easy profit to some corksure ones among them that i decided to waste some of their finances.

Realizing that my wasted efforts isn't my doing or nature at work in me but some creatures, those effort wasting creatures that their MO of choosing their victims isn't even known to any souls were at work in me. I equipped myself to counterattack.

You know, there is this thing particularly infuriating about being particularly critical and methodical with things you do that you can even see there is a kind of overcautiousness at work, a kind of fear, or even self-doubt that comes with being over anything and yet, after all these meticulousness, your effort still amounted to nothing. There is this thing so infuriating about it when you are my kind to pay attention to details.

Then i figured out what was amiss and how to handle it one rainy Tuesday i was expecting sunny day according to weather reporters that some forces are mean in this their checkers game they are playing with me, my spirit and patience. I pulled my clothes, i had showered, packed my books and writing gears, readying for library to study a bit before attending a workshop on writing later in the supposed sunny day according to metrologiest when the hail came.

I figured that there is for sure something spiritual going on here. Some forces are following me bumper to bumper for sure. That rainy Tuesday proved my guess right. So the subsequent following events and engagements that followed that Tuesday eye opner, i stopped mulling my engagement in mind, i reckoned they are reading minds, and gestures and stopped putting correct date down in diary. For the next engagements, i decided to throw them a bit and see what gives.

Still pretending i don't know of them being around, so not aware of me and my engagements. I had started keeping fake diary, fake dates and fake events with high returns from each specified in writing. At times, i will even call no one in particular while on phone screaming my mind out, setting up dates and events. I started this kind of games with these creatures.

You could not believe on the day i fixed those meeting and speaking events with high returns, it rained dog and cat. The days they believed i am home and dry, i threw surprises their way. I will go on a serious speaking gigs with high returns. this our game went on like this for months and i was always the one that came out of it smiling. Each occasion they get it wrong, i got it right. I might have been agent of wastage to some of the betting ones among them just by making their word on me and my movement be a kind of guesswork never dead sure thing it used to be. It's working for me like magic.

Months later, i couldn't believe it when they started getting it right again. It took me a few seconds to realize that i was uterly and completely lost on those creatures moves on me again.

Any way, i am taking it as a cue that i have become a type again and needed to do something fast about it.