NothingNess

It was all a game until it decided to play then it was anything but.

Worst enemy i ever faced and i have faced alot of them ,believe me when i say this my whole life is spent on a lie 

I am always telling myself that all of this needs my saving.

 I was a fool to think so simple.But will it give me second chance at a new life a new beginning 

i dont think thats possible now i have come too far to turn back even if i am eager to i cant in any way go back to when i made the decision to make this all my fight. 

My worst enemy is all of this and none of it all at the same time.

 It is Nothingness.Eating away whats left to people biting them in the back when they are the most vulnerable...

And here I sit mocking it ,knowing its gonna do me no good but feels good to get it out.

What am i gonna do now that it won? Not just a battle but the war,I so anxiously wanted for.

Here i am sitting at Dockerd Asylum.Only the world's leading mental institutes.

Hopw did i get here?Why did i end up here?No one can answer that .It all happened so fast I could not grasp even the slightest idea of it.

But after all thats happened, One thing is for sure, I am not gonna lose hope,after all this i owe it to myself to fight back, as i lived my whhole life dreaming of Killing it, as i slept through every night in terror as it might discover my plans and do what it has always done. 

Destroy me at my core Leave me be when i bleed.

All of this started 10 Years ago.

<<Troy where have you been? i have been looking for you.

Im sorry Ted i was busy doing some chores for my father, you know how he gets when i leave without completing the tasks he assigns me.

Thats not fair ,my friend

Man talk about anything fair in this chaotic world.Sometimes i just want to tap into the nature, you know

What? I dont understand what you just said

I mean dont you wanna know what it would feel to control anything and everything around you.

Sure yeah but where is this coming from bro

Nothing....Its just a thought.>>

But it wasnt just a thought, you see it started as one but only to begin to transform into something the world had never seen.

But what happened to us? What happened to the innocence of two little boys who just wanted to be free from the miseries of the world.

<<Where do you think you are going?

Into the woods.

Woods? Are you out of your mind? its close to dark.

Thats right. If i want to harness nature, i have to go somewhere its strongest and thats only possible when there is no voice keeping me tethered to this world.

Sure go right ahead but dont think im gonna come save you if you run into bears.

I dont mind your ignorance to my ideas. See you later

Yeah as if..>>

I should have been more careful about that.But i wasnt and i will regret it till the day i die..

<<What happened? I didnt expect you to come back so soon.

Im sorry i even went out there in the first place.

 What?

 I know i was just so consumed by this idea that there was something that i needed to find in order to harnesss nature.

 Well, man its nice that you are coming to your senses.>>

But was it just the beginning of some inevitable calamity in the near future.

i cant say when it started but it grew quickly and dangeriously.

<<Hey man whats up with you nowadays, i hardly even see you.

Yeah its nothing I was going through something but its all over now.

Going through something? Bullshit theres something else isnt there?

No there isnt why would there be?

I dont know i just have a feeling. thats enough to arouse suspicion

Well your feelings are wrong. Control yourself or you will regret it later on

What? Hold on are you threatening me in some way? Because if you are then what have you done to my friend?

Very funny bro

ok ok now im serious Talk to me you know im here for you for anything you need to talk about.

My father..he hasnt returned home after his trip to the market.

Thats it Im sure he will turn up soon

His trip was 2 weeks ago.

What? you serious?Man why didnt you tell me this before?

Because some part of me always wanted him gone.

Is that what you want? Really Troy

Ted why do you always make this my fault?

I cant take this anymore. We have to look for him. He could be in danger.

Hes not he must be in one of his bars getting drunk like theres no tomorrow.

Has he done this before?

I dont know...No but i wouldnt put it past him..>>

Now it started to get interestingly wierd.But in truth it had started on the day Troy went to the woods.Now a series of events had started to play out. Leading to my being locked up here.

<<Why did you suddenly want to check your farm?

I dont know Just a feeling i guess

I didnt know you did these things Troy..

Well now you know..

Troy!!Whats that?

Oh God its a body..

Please dont let it be your Dad..

Will you shut up?

Shit..Its him..

Holy Mother...how did this happen?>>

I shouldnt have gone there with him. Maybe then i wouldnt have ended up here.

<<Troy you bastard... what did you do?I cant belive you killed my father, Troy..

Stop lying...We found him there togrther.. I was with you the whole day..

Stop lying and just confess..It will make his soul rest in peace..Please

Confess? To what Something i didnt do?

I will testify that the judge give you a lighter sentence..So you can get admitted to a place where you can get some help..

You liar...

You clearly arent thinking or doing anything mundane...Dont worry i will not abandon you just because of your mental condition..>>

And there the great ending to my story...OR maybe its just the beginning..What do you think Doc?

Ted That was an Interesting story... So i will meet you next week for our next session..

Ok Doc 

Ok then i will take my leave then

Wait you havent even told me your name?

Ohh Its Troy..Doctor Troy..