I run through the bright, breezy meadow as a crisp orange
leaf falls by me on the way to the train station, while stepping on each
dead leaf with my dark brown one inch heeled slightly dusty boots grasping as
much as fulfillment I can acquire from the noise. “Maliyaaa! Don’t you think
you’re a bit too old for that?” scoffs Azher. I almost immediately shoot
daggers at him to catch him abruptly look away and pretend to play with his
hair. I’ve known Azher since Nursery, but we never found it necessary to
communicate until university where we were the ones who knew each other. I
can’t remember how we became this platonically intimate but today I don’t know
where I would be without him. He can’t express it as well but he shows it
through his small meaningful actions. He pushes me way further than he had
intended to. “Ouch, AZHAR RAHIM WHAT WAS THAT FOR?!” I use his full name in a
firm tone. “It's called the fall season for a reason, besides I won’t be seeing
you for two months” he says half of the words with inserted laughing along with
a face of melancholy. We say our goodbyes as I leave him with fresh coriander
in his palms knowing it was his favorite spice.
I walk through the station, after waving my last goodbye to Azhar. The quaint train draws
my attention. The elegance it possesses astonishes me, a tinted bronze rust, with the cloudy grey smoke leaving
the boiler, I mean that is what you would expect from a 1930 vehicle. The scent
of hot iron tracks waft through my nostrils, giving away that it had just
arrived. I take step into the train to feel a pull. It’s the front of my hijab
scarf. I couldn’t quite comprehend what was going on. The one thing I had
feared for a prolonged time is happening. My primitive instinct kicks in
and I take out my knife as immediately for self-defense purposes
and to only find that it is tugged on to the handle of the door. I breathe out
in relief. I remember since the age of 8 Baba taught me, there are people out
there who will take no second thought in harming someone just for their beliefs
or how they look. It was sad that the scarf I personally took so much pride in
wearing could be perceived as a place to hide a weapon or a symbol of a
religion of terrorism. To me it had always been something that upheld my
chastity and purity. It was my choice to come to this country and I had known I
would have to deal with dissimilar minded people. I had to learn that I
wouldn’t always be under the safety net of my home and parents. “She’s out to
kill us!” says a middle aged woman as I come back to what’s in front of me.
Realizing the knife is still held up high. I put it back. Before I can justify
myself, the lady and her two children push by me and find the seats that are happen to be the furthest
corner from me. I try not to pay attention but, it’s inevitable, she whispers
something hostile to them by the looks of it.
My eyes swell up as my tears softly land on the African Emerald
blue-green gem on the necklace my Nona (grandmother) gifted me when I was 10. I catch a hold of it to feel the roughness at the back, seeing that inscribed on
it, it says “a boat goes against the current, but the river won't change its
flow of direction”, and this struck so hard as if Nona knew I would approach
such a situation. I thought about it, how I really am a river and there are
bound to be visitors and boats and if they go the alternate way. I would not
follow as being a river meant being more powerful, within that contentment of
deep thought, I doze off.
I’m awoken by the halt of the train, my eyes flutter to see my reflection
of myself on broken glass with my head scarf tied in a severe way. The radio
previously playing Total Eclipse of the heart by Bony Taylor had a come to a
mute. From what I comprehend the train is sideways and appears to have crashed.
I’m taken aback by the bodies surrounding me which happen to be stained with
blood, wallets, keys, credit cards and scattered shoes lay on the floor. An
aching noise catches my responsiveness. There is a girl who is desperately
crying holding her right wrist with a deep incision. I open my fanny pack, grab
my handkerchief and ointment I had carried for the wound I previously had on my
foot. I wrap it around her delicate rather small arm, but the white color of
the cloth becomes less prominent and overflows with red. She continues to
profusely bleed. Her mother seems to have regained consciousness as she looks at me and pleads me not to hurt her daughter, at this point I cannot fathom how
she could possibly misunderstand my intentions. Her eyes close and she goes back to having a befuddled look.
Applying to practice what I had gathered from the first aid training I
had received last year, I apply pressure to the wound to stop the bleeding and looka around for cloth, however nothing could substitute for a cloth either. I wipe
my sweaty forehead with my chiffon hijab and there I had a lightbulb moment. I
used the same “threatening” knife to quickly cut the longest edge of my hijab
and swaddled it around her wrist giving it a good tight knot. The blood stops
flowing out vigorously. I get up and run to help another old man puffs out and
coughs excessively indicating he has asthma. Before I can reach him
the ambulance sirens are heard and there is a sense of relief that’s felt
amongst everyone. The mother of the child I helped gathers her children and
carries them out with the help of a nurse, she even looks back and gives me a dirty snarl.
I walk to the nearest petrol station shop with a wholesome feeling, knowing I did good, no matter what the situation if I can maintain my inner peace and help people even if it goes unacknowledged it is okay as long as I know and the universe has its way of reassuring karma. The same people who stereotype, happen to remain silent and don’t extend help, despite having the ability to do so. I will continue helping others and growing, regardless of their perception and inability to recognize the weight of my actions. Although, still having the slightest hope that the world overall can overcome its blindness.
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OMG FIRST OF ALL WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME YOU SUBMITTED!!!! sis this is such a sweet and inspiring story, of course you would write something so beautiful 🥺 Sometimes the sentences are too long, like the first one and it makes it hard to keep focus. Same with the grammar, but the premise is amazing, and the thoughts of the narrator are so pure. Love it!!!
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Thankyou for taking the time to read it! ❤️😩If all comments were as constructive as this world would be far today!
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